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[Fuego1]

Im usually pretty honest.

[Fuego1]

From “And now, a message from Azazel”
Orismen
I can’t talk a whole lot about what is going on…but he DID ask me to share this with ya’ll.

“The true measure of a Black Magician is in their ability to keep secrets.”

@Orismen , straight gold.

Seriously, thanks Orismen & A. for this, I agree - the need to burble out stuff that should really be kept very close to the heart comes from a combo of stuff, including weak self-respect (hoping to get applause for the sharing), martyrdom (“I can’t keep all this powah to my stupid old self!”) and the need to be part of a peer group, all of which have no place in sincere black magick.

Fun at times, nice at times to share, to help, to be admired - but it’s nothing to do with the true and secret heart, the drive that brought us here.

@Lady_Eva, I too get the three pitfalls you mentioned. A need for kudos from others. When they may not be there for you in your darkest/brutal times.

[Fuego1]

I guess now its time to do secret stuff, since I have 90 minutes of the day left.

[Fuego1]

Really though, now to go do super sekrit special stuff.

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34 min meditation with King Purson while giving the offering.
Many ideas came to mind to follow through on.
Many requests given … which will in itself as the matter be a minor miracle.

[Fuego1]

Items noted.
Now for a few meditations.

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Meditation - Seven day observe mental chatter challenge - Day 4, 4-17-2018

Breathing meditation with thought awareness - DONE

Location: Living room.

Environment: Slightly noisy (pets, roommates, television, video game, dryer.

Posture: Sitting on living room sofa, feet flat on floor, back arched back, hands resting comfortably on legs/knees, eyes closed, chin down, nostril breathing. Classic godform position minus straight back posture.

Time: 5 minutes.

Distractions:
Awareness of several external noise
Thoughts on financial situation and hopes
Thoughts on forum
Awareness of/Thoughts on clothes in dryer
Awareness of/Thoughts on time
Thoughts on angels and demons

Breathing: in silent out silent.
DONE

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Current tabs open for reading:

A Muggles Guide to Black Magick

I just had to share - what an epic video… a newbie must and a great reminder for me personally.

Need a comprehensive guide to invocation

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Spirit Guide in the Empty Chair exercise

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Submissions Wanted for Herbology Guide

If you don’t already know, I am forming an Herbology 101 guide for my occult based blog which I have already started on. I already have a page formed for the guide and have added one herbal entry so far but I realized this is going to be a very tedious project and I would like to get some help if possible. If anyone here has some experience with herb based magick and would like to submit entries for my Herbology database either respond to this post or send me a PM if you feel more comfortable d…

Psychic Development for the Magician

I decided to go ahead and cut and paste some of my psychic development methods in it’s own thread as to not have to keep sending it via individual PM. I will start this off with the Original Void meditation. It’s what I have developed it to be the best sort of universal meditation to get you in the “zone” from where one can astral travel, spirit eavesdropping and many other activities one needs to be in a theta state. Binaural beats can be used to enhance the meditative state. This is it, thou…

Beyond Prophecy: A Practical Guide To Rune Magick

So I thought with my upcoming project being so closely related to The Heathen: A Viking Grimoire of Norse Sorcery I would make a small post about it here for those interested. My latest project is a short upcoming book on specifically the Runes and Rune Magick. Relative to the few posts I have made over the past couple of weeks regarding specific runes. Wanted to share it to you all here for those interested. Beyond Prophecy: A Practical Guide To Rune Magick Release - January 31st 2018 Beyond…

A Magicians Guide for trapping Spirits

I write this for anyone that has problems with parasites/wants to trap a spirit. I learned when I first started that you can in fact bind spirits the same way you bind humans they are not that different honestly. All you need is your will power something to trap the spirit with (a coin and crystals imo work the best) And a place to keep it in preferably a box that you can draw sigils on. (Sigils aren’t necessarily needed but can help if you aren’t confident in your abilitys) Now if you have a…

Free Readings ~ The Empire Builder's Oracle

Edit to say, this is now full, but there’s information in this post about how the Oracle works and a link to the full text of the Book Of Fate with instructions on how to use it yourself - and, stay tuned, I may do more readings from it shortly. Thank you! _____________ I’ve posted before on here about Napoleon’s Book Of Fate, also called the Oraculum, and I’m offering free readings from it to the first five people to reply. Read on to learn more and see the specific types of questions it can …

A Beginners Guide To Candle Magic

A beginners guide to candle magic By A.C Tschantre INTRODUCTION What is candle magic? Well you already have practiced it so let’s start there. It’s your 8th birthday and the lights are out and the distant flicker of candles approach you on a majestic chocolate cake. The people around you chant and sing a song of praise and thanks to your remarkable progress throughout this year, after which you think of that cute little puppy you want closing your eyes you imagine the golden retriever puppy …

Candle ritual for spirit guide

Im going to do Bucklands spirit guide candle ritual to meet my spirit guide. Ill let you know how it goes. J

Spiritwalking guide

Any good guides for spiritwalking?

My favorite how-to guides on soul travel. Try them if you have issues

Do you know why this sub forum isn’t very active? It’s because most people can’t astral project! If they could, this part of the forum would be extremely active. I found over about 9 years of attempts that none of the classical methods of “astral projection” worked for me. The only out of body experiences I’ve had have been drug induced, and they were not at all controllable. I’ve tried nightly for months on end to leave my body, following all the typical advice from folk like Robert Bruce. Eve…

Spirit Guide Communication

I think that it is generally recognized that getting into a meditative state is necessary to communicate with demons (at least the part about receiving messages). However, can our spirit guides hear us when we send out a quick “prayer” to them for guidance during the day?

Talisman Creation Guide Please?

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My Promised Evocation Guide [Everything you need to know about evoking spirits (mainly demons)]

From my thread: I would like to help the community - give me feedback on what you'd like to read - #31 by Ashtoreth What is evocation: The art of presencing a spirit outside of yourself, in a form which you can either physically or psychically perceive. What types of evocation are there? Grimoire Tradition Evocation which relies on many physical tools and trinket in order to put the magickan in the right state of mind. This method is usually forceful, especially towards demons. This is a met…

The Rapture State ( Going From Theta Gama Sync To The Rapture State )

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How King Paimon Can Help You- An Evocation Guide

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Nightside's Journal

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Meditation, Mental Chatter, And A 7-Day Challenge - Who's In? ☼ September 2020 Round 2!

Breathing - DONE -Seven day observe mental chatter challenge - Day 3, 4-16-2018 Location: Living room couch. Environment noisy. Posture: sitting on couch lotus position, Mudra Sign of the Inner Lion, arms loosely at sides. Eyes closed, chin down. Time: 3:35 minutes. Distractions: TV volume, video game volume, microwave door slamming sounds, handed plate of chicken just as I woke out of the meditation. Breathing in silent out silent. DONE

Psychic Development for the Magician

That’s amazing. Simple and effective. It got me properly down and in seamingly record time. I forgot to do the ear thingys, but am looking foreward to exploring it in more depth. Thank you Adam thoth

Ultimate Psychic Senses Guide / Ultimate Astral Senses Guide / Ultimate Spiritual Senses Guide

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Creating the Best Magickal Results

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The Demon of Nadharkis - Axa Oddra / Ax Tenebrae Ornagga

I have been doing a meditation to focus on my end goal with opening a physical gateway to another world. The type of meditations that i used to to long before actually falling into the void (again). let me explain myself. My goals in magic are simple: To create a gateway to a totally different universe. Not the type of universe that we know of but rather a world that is so filled with the essence of the void and pure magic that our beloved gods and demons can truly and easily be free to have a…

[AdamThoth]

Nice!

[Fuego1]

Yeah … still trying to reach an adept level within five months. Started it back in October and it just seemed to flatline for three months. So I push on. Starting in May, in and out of earth element. June, in and out of air element, July, in and out of water element. August, in and out of fire element. September, in and out of spirit element, October, on track, review and reimmerse.

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And the test for a week of offerings is at hand.

[Kylkyl]

Remember, brother. Adept is a state of mind. Don’t put a time limit to it. All that is going to do is add stress which will cause you to self sabotage your work. You’ll be so worried about getting it to work that it won’t. Let go. Let go of time. Let the stress melt away. THAT is when you will see. When things will happen. Don’t impose limits.

[Fuego1]

Not a good day today at all.
Going back where I just came from possibly. Hopefully not, but I’m not figging this situation or that one for that matter.

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Wednesday, Apr 18, 2018

Dreams: None recalled.

Physical Notes: Teeth hurt. Muscles ache a bit. Tired.

Mental Notes: Been feeling the kickout coming. Brought to the door today. Might have a job, open interview went better than expected. Offering to Purson will be day 7.
Synchronicities: Open interview 180, have a second interview coming.

Readings: NONE

Psychic Exercises: NOT DONE.
Tarot readings. NOT DONE.
Object Sensing exercises. NOT DONE.

Evocations - NOT DONE.

Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - NOT DONE
Breathing - DONE -Seven day observe mental chatter challenge - Day 5, 4-18-2018
Location: Outside deck lawn chair.
Environment: Slightly noisy.
Posture: Feet flat on floor, arms comfortable on armrests. Eyes closed. Chin up.
Time: 4 minutes.
Distractions:
Jobs.
The argument.
What I want to do vs what I’m good at.
Cannabis.
That would people will continue to consider me as a failure.
Breathing: in silent out silent.
DONE

Visualizations - NOT DONE
Rituals: NONE

Wards- NOT DONE.

Shields - NOT DONE.
Groundings - NOT DONE

[Fuego1]

And offering incense has gone out.

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Well, how many more ways could I have fucked up…doesn’t matter since I did. So going back to Michigan it looks like.

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Thursday, Apr 19, 2018

Dreams: None recalled.

Physical Notes: Teeth hurt. Muscles ache a bit. Tired. Side about muscles are tight or slightly sprained, as the wrong movement makes them randomly tighten up with immense pain. Need to consistently, obsessively brush my teeth until by some miracle I have money to get them fixed before they get worse. Need to lose a few pounds.

Mental Notes: I fuck up everything, how many people get a free ride, not use it to their advantage, but abuse it? My old Golden Dawn teacher berated me about using magic, telling me I’m a danger to myself and others due to my magic incompetence, and that I need to drop magic and get into therapy instead; and that I will probably ignore his advice as usual. Well, therapy doesn’t solve everything either, not to mention its something that you need money or insurance for, of which I have neither. How else will some learn magic if they’re never taken in and seriously taught what it is and how to use it, other then trial and error? If these Maguses could come down from their ivory towers or mount abiagnus or where ever the hell their head is, and observe the system and the human condition, then they might realize how little they know as well. Well, so I fucked up … And have nowhere to return to. And no money. And no insurance because I moved. So now I have to scramble and play both sides because the deadline comes soon. I just have yo open my big fat pie hole and fuck everything up. I realized today that I don’t know anything, I fuck up on whatever I touch, and that I am responsible for absolutely everything that went wrong. The devil didn’t do it, I scapegoated the devil on absolutely every matter gone wrong in my life. My HGA is also punished for every fuckup I’ve ever done in my life. Meanwhile some suspense and mystery loving asshole holds the sword of Damocles above my head. Just fucking tell me already, mr know it all. Just gucking tell me so that I can make informed decisions in the direction of wisdom.

Readings: Tools for Ancient Scrying and Modern Seership. by Ted Andrews.

Psychic Exercises: NOT DONE.
Tarot readings. NOT DONE.
Object Sensing exercises. NOT DONE.

Evocations - NOT DONE.

Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - NOT DONE

Breathing - NOT DONE -Seven day observe mental chatter challenge - Day 6, 4-19-2018
Location: Outside deck lawn chair.
Environment: Slightly noisy.
Posture: Feet flat on floor, arms comfortable on armrests. Eyes closed. Chin up.
Time: minutes.
Distractions:

Breathing: in silent out silent.

Visualizations - NOT DONE

Rituals: NONE

Wards- NOT DONE.
Shields - NOT DONE.
Groundings - NOT DONE
Day 8 offering to King Purson, poured my mind and heart out to him.

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Friday, Apr 20, 2018

Dreams: None recalled.

Physical Notes: none to note.

Mental Notes: none important.

Readings: NONE

Psychic Exercises: NOT DONE.
Tarot readings. NOT DONE.
Object Sensing exercises. NOT DONE.

Evocations - NOT DONE.

Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - NOT DONE

Breathing - NOT DONE -Seven day observe mental chatter challenge - Day 7, 4-20-2018
Location: Outside deck lawn chair.
Environment: Slightly noisy.
Posture: Feet flat on floor, arms comfortable on armrests. Eyes closed. Chin up.
Time: minutes.
Distractions:

Breathing: in silent out silent.

Visualizations - NOT DONE

Rituals: NONE
Wards- NOT DONE.
Shields - NOT DONE.
Groundings - NOT DONE
Day 9 No offering to King Purson

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Saturday, Apr 21, 2018

Dreams: None recalled.

Physical Notes: none to note.

Mental Notes: none important.

Readings: NONE

Psychic Exercises: NOT DONE.
Tarot readings. NOT DONE.
Object Sensing exercises. NOT DONE.

Evocations - NOT DONE.

Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - NOT DONE

Breathing - NOT DONE -Seven day observe mental chatter challenge - Day 8, 4-21-2018
Location: Outside deck lawn chair.
Environment: Slightly noisy.
Posture: Feet flat on floor, arms comfortable on armrests. Eyes closed. Chin up.
Time: minutes.
Distractions:

Breathing: in silent out silent.

Visualizations - NOT DONE
Rituals: NONE
Wards- NOT DONE.
Shields - NOT DONE.
Groundings - NOT DONE
Day 10 No offering to King Purson