Towards all - WATCH THIS! - Depression - one of the most important, and invaluable contents I've ever come across!

[Yberion]

really invaluable material.

Towards ALL WHO ASKED TO LEARN FROM ME:

WATCH THIS!!!

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This,
is just an addition,
for those who liked the content.

Note,
i can already see some of us judging this as escapism.
Try to look beyond that first impression.

Sincerely,

¥’Berioth

[G_I]

This is a little diamond here. I’m just in the 5 min of the video and already heard so many interesting things. Thank you so much for posting this!

[Yberion]

@Yberion

You’re Welcome,

GataIndianista.

Thank you,
for your apriciation.

On Nihilism,
or Procrastination,
and how to overcome it.

Going full on RHP

Yeah but now you articulated yourself more understandable. And, while questioning and viewing it from a different standing point, you already figured out the core issue you’re worried about: Boredom. Now, that can be answered. For example, you can turn that question around, to: If Boredom is my main concern, then what does actually engage me, in good and positive ways, and how can i get more of that, into my regluar, daily life. See for reference: https://youtu.be/KUWn_TJTrnU ht…

Sincerely,

¥’Berioth

[Eve1]

Exactly. (14:00-14:38 mins in). Taken from the excerpt he mentions yeah, well said, like -I dont feel Im being seen at all… Ostracised, I have no tribe or even a person I can trust to turn through all this and I don’t feel like I belong and sociaty has rejected me, unfairly, neither do I feel I have a meaning or purpose and especially dont feel (any) people value me (and could tolerate the true me…). My future (neither does my past or present) doesnt make sense or is fair, and I have no true freedom or dare say love either aside other things … so yeah… but Ive tried to be strong physically and emotionally for nearly all my life through all of this (and spirituality and magic has been my crutch but not going nowhere fast enough … and I do doubt sometimes it strength or believability… ) and Im tired of fighting for my very baisic needs myself but getting nowhere. Im just so tired. Ive gone past midlife and I still cant figure even how to live freely a mundane normal life with its baisic happiness atributes freely but noone cares about me or my situation truely. Everyone throws that back at me and I gave it every time my best til I feel wringed out but Im still here in the same situation and things arn’t getting no better really…

[Yberion]

Dear Eve1,

Gabriel currently goes crazy about wanting to talk to you.

Please evoke Gabriel.

Besides that:

You’ve just formulated very well,
a bunch of points,
which really show some deep questions,
which in return,
allow for finding true purpose,
or alignement,
and allow for you to get into a position,
which really fits you.

And,
depression - in Magick also known as “Shadow-Work”,
is often a sign of growth,
and of getting closer to where you really belong.

I highly recommend you reseurch Shadow Work.
and talk to Gabriel.

Along with that,
i also recommend,
you take the time,
to copy what you just wrote here,
and in a Text document,
start structuring it,
and use it as a catalyst,
to understanding your Sat Nam.
(True Self, that is).

Example of Structuring:

@Eve1

Exactly. (14:00-14:38 mins in). -the timestamp of important, and resonating information.

Taken from the excerpt he mentions -further noticing meaning in that source of the material.
yeah, well said, -the feeling of congruence, and alignment
like -I don’t feel I’m being seen at all… -first noticing of core question.

Ostracised, -increasing the focus on the realization.
I have no tribe or even a person I can trust to turn through all this - Sense of Loneliness - editing Note, Speak to Lucifer about this, he’s also considered the Angel of Solitude, (loneliness) together with i think it was Satan also being specialized on Solitude.

and I don’t feel like I belong and society has rejected me, -Noticing outside environment indicators for why you think and feel this way.
unfairly, -emotional rating, how you feel about it. And, a sign of power, that you could do something about it, that you could change that state.
neither do I feel I have a meaning or purpose -further identifying how exactly you feel, which’ll be useful once you tackle the problem

and especially - pointing out where the focus is needed - probably noticing a blockage.
don’t feel (any) people value me - analyzing perspective on the outside environment.

(and could tolerate the true me…). - the root of your inner sadness, and feelings of being misunderstood.

My future (neither does my past or present) doesn’t make sense or is fair, -this part summarizes that the feeling seems to dominate your complete string of existence - an illusion, you currently hold,
which will be resolved during the shadow work, but also points out the importance to any reader of your words.
and I have no true freedom or dare say love either aside other things … - identifying potential Solutions, things you subconsciously know might help you get out of that bad state you’ve just described.

so yeah… -self-confirming those beliefs, to currently be true >> Here i would like to bring to your awareness, that any and all Humans, but especially Magicians (and psychologists for that matter), are capable of changing such views!!!

but I’ve tried to be strong physically and emotionally -acknowledgment of what you’ve done so far, to cope with the issue.
for nearly all my life through all of this - again, stating how overwhelming these beliefs and emotions seem current - a reminder from me: they, in fact, are changeable!
(and spirituality and magic have been my crutch -noticing that those things helped you in your experience.
but not going nowhere fast enough … -pointing out a feeling of being Stuck / not reaching the desired goals by the current approach.
and I do doubt sometimes it strength or believability… ) - questioning if those things actually helped you,
or if it’s just been comforting to cope through them.

and I’m tired of fighting for my very basic needs - an expression of your struggles - Please note that all humans go through that and that in fact, compared to most times in our past, we truly live under better circumstances.
myself but getting nowhere. - re-affirming the personal binding of those emotions, and the feeling of “being Stuck”
I’m just so tired. - Perceived bottom line, the sensation of wanting to give up: become very aware of those moments, as protective shieldings inside of you should be established, and strengthened, to avoid those overpowering your true self - Sat Nam. (remind yourself, in such moments, that those aren’t your congruent thoughts and emotions, by shifting focus, and defining meaning and value into it, with positive indicators - there’s always something positive you can also find, along with the negative)

I’ve gone past midlife - assumption that age might lower the value of your time - identify that illusion to be false.
and I still can’t figure even how to live freely a mundane normal life -what you’re longing for, seek out ways to validate this belief to be true, especially inject that positive realizations, when you’re touching the perceived bottom line, I’ve just pointed out.
with its basic happiness - the opposite emotion to Sadness. Due to they’re polarity, they push each other away, as shadow flees from the light, and light is encapsulated by darkness. - be careful and aware of your attachments there, and indeed, focus yourself more towards that, which you’ve just identified to help.
attributes freely - this part kind of seems like confusion, which usually indicates an inner blockage. Probably you had more suppressed emotion there, potentially even a cause/root behind why you’re feeling that way. Either professional Medical help, or good Spiritual guidance, can help you get beyond that blockage, and reveal, the Trauma hidden there. Once you’ve become aware of it, you then can go forward to resolve it.

but no one cares about me or my situation truly. - Sense of being Misunderstood. Since that’s been expressed several times, also an indicator to work on. Focus on Communication beings, usually, those are aligned with the Element Air.
Everyone throws that back at me -here you identified something crucial: that it’s not simply the reality you believe to be true, but it’s the impression, you perceive out of others behavior towards you.
and I gave it every time my best -acknowledging your own efforts, and your investment into getting towards that which you really want. - Mark that really big, when you copy my example or write your own.
It’s important, and it fuels you with new Strength!!
til I feel wrung out -noticing the Blockage here, and you’re identifying the effect, of throwing you back / out off track.
but I’m still here in the same situation -the sensation of being stuck - here you give power away from yourself, into the blockage, feeding it, instead of yourself.
and things aren’t getting no better really… - wanting to not have to struggle with it, wanting to overcome it. Call Vine, and talk to Vine about it. Also, notice, that you’ve condensed basically all time of your lifespan into one core expression here.
So in total, that indicates for the Trauma to come out of a time,
where you’ve felt weak or helpless.

Consciously going back,
to the Trauma indicating a moment in your memory,
will allow you,
to give yourself the missing safety and protection.
By addressing it from a state where you’re not weak,
and giving yourself company into that state which induced the trauma.

I think this was rather detailed,
and should be good base material,
to work forward with.

I hereby give my permission,
for that edited version,
to be shared with Doctors, Medical help,
Spiritual help and councelling,
as long as i’m not named directly towards them.

In case they insist on a name,
please use the name Yberion.
Never Yberioth.

Sincerely,

¥’Berioth

[Eve1]

Thank you for your time and effort going through all this. I need to reread and think through this all and try see where I can start doing myself some work here to improve.
Im not feeling well at the moment (headace etc) but I will revisit this later again re shadow work etc and add more thought. But couldn’t leave without a comment or expressing my thanks. I will start by calling on Gabriel. Thank you!!!

[Yberion]

You’re welcome.

To be fair,
i can completely understand why you have a headache when reading my notes on your post.

It’s overwhelming,
i know.

Take your time with it.

I highly apriciate that you took the time to get back to me.

Definately glad you’re going ahead,
and working with Gabriel,
he’s been really eager to get in contact with you.

Sincerely,

¥’Berioth

[Eve1]

I had a chat with Gabriel. (Thanks for letting me know ). Im not good at remembering and confidant relaying especially awhile after connecting and relaying word for word and Im not in the habit of keeping grimiors but generally in a nutshell he said (I wish I remember the exact wording though cuz it seemed relevant but you get the idea) that I need to wring out my mind first before I start any work because theres too much going on there… Like for 7 days do some mind clearing/ meditation first and get back to him afterwards for more advice.
Also, if I took away anything it would (at least be) to make sure my back/(spine) and chest is straight ( there might of been also different word used rather than just straight… some gist…)
… and at the very end asked about anything else needed to know in my enviroment like about my kids… and he said one was ‘ok’ and the other needs help, (I should help?) with her maths test… eh? I asked her ramdomly if she needed help for a maths test and aparently and it seemed to be the case … she seemed anxious about it… and flinging at me math papers after and seemed happier, I have no clue how to do any of it , but blindly trying to follow orders .
Its always nice to get abit of confirmation lol

[Eve1]

Thank you

[Yberion]

yeah,
and most propably that kind of was a method to reflect back,
that with the guidiance,
you can do stuff you couldn’t assume before.

for the mind Clearing,
and Meditation,
please take a look around balg,
for guidiance.

If you can’t find good Material,
type into Youtube: EA Koetting Blue Ray Meditation

and after watching that,
also look for:
Actulized.org - Meditation Guide,
and for Actulized.Org overcoming addiction,
as well as 1 Rule for acing life.

The Actualized.org guy looks much like a Monk in normal clothes on Youtube,
and you’ll know it’s the right one,
when you see a guy who seems to take a lot of time,
for saying rather simple things.

He’s an absolute expert on Meditation,
and i recommend those specfic pieces,
because you can draw a lot of understanding from there,
to aid you,
in your own meditation practice.

Which,
after what you’ve described,
seems to be really importend,
for the next step.

Also See:

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Azathar won’t let you skip the Meditation completely,
with it being pointed out to be so crucial for your development.

But it may be helpful for getting there,
with doing the meditation,
or at least,
help maintain the benefits reached,
once you’ve gotten your mind cleansed.

Sincerely,

¥’Berioth