Frankly, I sort of feel like I was driven here. I have horrible depression. Prayer and pharmacology have not worked, talk therapy is useless. So i thought I might try some sort of “energy healing”. That is how I wound up here.
I consider myself a Christian, but I also have a family friend who does Reiki…She channels some kind of spirit. This is a big red flag for me. So I began reading about some non-channeling energy healing.
One thing led to another and here I am.
Again, I consider myself a Christian, so I am looking for any sort of magic that would be in line with Biblical teachings.
To get me started on my journey I bought these 2 books. and briefly read them last night (they are very short books, maybe 150 pages each and I skipped the parts that I was too afraid to try). For instance, I did not read every single Psalm in the Psalm book, but I did read the theory about it before you got into the actual spell/prayer.
To me candles with names carved into them being burnt at some specific time of day while reading a Psalm seems much more like a focused prayer than any kind of magic. Whereas, creating protection circles and doing banishments so I can protect myself from unwanted intruders while I talk to a Saint or Angel, seems way to much like magic for my Christian background to tolerate.
Maybe I am wrong. I don’t know. I am just getting started.
I decided to join this forum because I came across this thread:
and this one too:
Is there a way for me to figure out if I have a guardian angel I can talk to, without needing to do a lot of protection/banishment type stuff to protect myself? (frankly, I think if anything bad showed up, possibly even if something Good showed up, I would be too scared to know what to do. so if something Good comes I will likely be scared, if something scary comes I will be way too freaked out to know what to do - things will go from bad to worse. I don’t want that)
I also noticed in candle magic no protection was said to be needed. The Ritual Magic also did not seem to mention it went it talked about making amulets.
maybe I should stick with Candles and Amulets (if my above assumption on “no-protection” is correct) until I know a lot more.
Can anyone recommend a good book on any of the above stuff. The beginner, not too dangerous stuff for me to try.
I feel like I really ought to get second opinions on things before I try them and that I really need to understand those books before I proceed. I don’t know anything about this sort of stuff. Those books could be wrong. maybe I need protection to even burn a candle.
I live in Portland Oregon. If I don’t feel comfortable with doing my own blessing of the candle is there a reputable place in Portland to buy them. Or online?
The Ritual Magic book said you could but it said you should also know a little about the philosophy or practices of the person who made them to make sure you aren’t getting something you don’t want. That is why I ask. Is there a shop online or in Portland that sort of follows my philosophy or whatever?
(maybe I misunderstood what the book meant here too)