Last day I’ve posted about my strange and sudden experience with Sitri. I’ve got no idea why is this happened, because everything what I did before it was nothing more just reading about Him and writing some not so welcomeing comment.
I never thought it will enough to get into such a situation because why should He give a fuck to it, really?
But then I’ve experienced something else, long hours later. When I was about to go sleep, and I was already in my bed, naked and tired as hell, within 5-8 minutes, I got in a trance like state. First I thought this is because the Sigil under my pillow, but
I started to hear soft sights and moans.
Everything swimmed in yellow energies and white lights, and I moved forward, then I saw Him.
He has a beautiful, slim but mostly masculine shape. His face was characteristic but in the same time delicate featured. His hair was long, brown as I imagined Him always when I’ve heard His name.
I realized very fast, where are these moans and sighs, filled with joy and pleasre are coming from and why. He played with Himself in every way how you can imagine, and swimmed in delirium. The whole situation excited me terribly, and when I thought it can’t be “worse”, He started talking, whispering to me things like:
― Touch me. Please. Help me. I’m begging you.
His moans and sighs became more and more intense.
He knew that this is absolute weak point.
I simply can’t let an entity just alone, when I hear and see them in this way, while they’re asking for help, begging for help.
…I’m fighted against this whole situation, and tried to keep up my resist.
But then I touched His thighs gently, with both of my hands, and started patting them, massageing them, sometimes very-very close to His groin, testicles. I knew He want me to touch them, but I didn’t do that, just played with Him, even when I knew that in this situation I am the only person there who is a real playdoll.
He begged for more, and I hit a new level because of it, so I kissed, sucked and licked His erogenous zones while I’m played with my fingers and hand as well, and suddenly…
I stopped and whispered with a pale grin on my face:
― You won’t overcome me.
I saw the astonishment on His beautiful face, and within some seconds, the whole environment has changed, and the “situation” itself as well.
He does not seemed angry, or anything, but in the next minutes we’re talked. Or more precisely, He was about to help opens my eyes about myself, Him and other things. There is some quotes from Him from our conversation:
Ask yourself, where came your emotions and thoughts came when you’ve heard about me based on other’s experiences?
― [I’ve answered to Him]
Your self-confidence is not as strong as you might think, show, or as big as it should be. Too many times you feels that you’ve must prove your achievements, your powers, your your internal value to others. Even when they’re doesn’t interested in about to questioned it.
These are yours! You own them, and no one can take them away from you. You don’t have to start a fight against people for something what is already yours.
What you’ve heard about me, these stories are came from people who are stucked in a far more lower level. And even in this situation your destructive feelings have risen, and you felt that you have to fight me and everything what We’re both represent, just because you’ve know these from completely different persons, from different levels, with different powers and personality. Open your eyes, Darling. I am not your enemy. They aren’t your enemy, and you are not your enemy!
After these, we’re talked about other things, but this whole experience with Him was unbelievable!
I am very grateful for it, and from this moment I’m sure that I want and will work with Him.