That is my beloved Sitri. 
He just gave you some really important lessons (based on what you wrote), but looks like you ignored all of them, and instead of learning from these, you continued what you wished for. Wrong.
I’m sure that you should deal with yourself and take a look inside, because there is a reasons why these happened to you, and Sitri knows it well.
Use this lessons, and think upon them. He is right.