Howās it going? My name is Lisa and i am 25 yo! I fight lust, but sometimes I enjoy it
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Iāve been practicing magic since I was a teenager, but nothing special. Some exercises that didnāt really do anything except develop my clairsentience. I tried working with energy, moving it around in my body, feeling it, but at the time I didnāt know what to do with it and gave up. Years later, I tried using this skill to achieve solo orgasm, without touching myself. Spoiler alert: I didnāt succeed, but I was close! 
But I hadnāt previously understood magic or the occult. I simply tried what I found online, and later experimented with sensations for the sake of sexual pleasure. The only thing I gained from these attempts and experiments was an intuitive understanding of clairsentience. At that time, I didnāt even know such a word existed. 
Now I want to delve deeper into this. I read the Draconian Ritual Book, which gave me some basic understanding. I also tried contacting Naama. There were results, but I respectfully decided to stop, as I lack the skills to communicate with her or even verify whether itās really her. My first experience with Naama was something like a kundalini awakening, which was very pleasant, like a full-body orgasm. However, it wasnāt smooth sailing, as I couldnāt eat for several days afterwards, and months later, I still experience strange sensations, though not as intense. Perhaps it wasnāt Naama at all, but some kind of parasite.
I also read about Buddhism, Yoga, Christianity, Slavic mythology, but more for personal development from a philosophical point of view, rather than mysticism and super-duper magical abilities.
In short, Iāve been trying this and that, gaining some experience, but thereās still a lot I donāt understand, and thereās a lot I canāt do. I want to pursue these magical things as a hobby. Iām especially interested in sexual magic.