I thought I had, at least I did in one of the rooms: I grew up Catholic, and always had my issues with different teachings that made no sense and teachers who wanted blind submission and to ask no questions. I was apart of another Christian religion for awhile. They were anti Catholic, anti gay. in fact anti any other religion but there own. By the time I was done with them I found they fed me a whole list of lies about real history. To say they did a number on me is an understatement. I still have issues to this day. Guilt, fear etc. As a child I used to see things like something was watching me around corners. I grew terrified of them and something told me I was supposed to have great spiritual power and in my fear I denounced it and have wondered if should have accepted it. The strange thing is I still feel something is waiting. Iāve been seeing religious videos and articles that gays were created by demons that we were lied to and not born this way. I can tell you as a gay man I was born this way.The funny thing is the Bible supports this. Now Iām not one of those chapter and vs persons. There is a part that says that the sins will be past down for 3 generations. So if I had an idol worshiping ancestor than Iām gay as a punishment for their sins. I found it amusing if no one else did. Another thing to know about me is I have a very unusual sense of humor.
With all the talk of gayās being created by a demon and a gay demon I started searching for my ācreator.ā Some might ask why, I wanted help. Iāve suppressed my sexuality for so long and I feel as if a part of me isnāt exactly dead but is in really bad shape. I feel incomplete and missing a key part of who I am. Plus I donāt believe in many of the old lies being told to us by many churches today. My research lead me to Asmodeus. Most of what I found, Iām now learning was video game fantasy crap, so much for trusting search engines. I found this page a few years ago, I watched some of the videos, but the books were too expensive and I was still held back by fear. It would come and go. I would try things from other sites with Asmodeus but it was āoff.ā As I found out here he wasnāt what the internet made him out to be. He wasnāt really about lust
One suggestion from here was a book. It was affordable it is then I found out that most of what Iāve been seeing and reading was B.S. With a bit of excitement and fear, I started using the book it was hit and miss. Mainly because I was in a rush, This time I started focusing on a different path. That is to change myself break my old habits. So I found several demons in the book that can help with that. Iām still learning and Iām starting to see results. I like what Iām seeing so far. Just want to keep it going and not mess it up like I have in the past. That is why Iām here to continue to learn and keep moving forward.
You are most welcome to the forum
Dear Friends,
my name is Bartholomaeus, and Iāve been walking the occult path for a little over 15 years now ā in continuous, almost daily practice, without real breaks.
I started in classical Western ceremonial magick: Kabbalah in the Israel Regardie / Golden-Dawn current, with well over a thousand Middle Pillar rituals and full work through the Path of the Flaming Sword (including Ain, Ain Soph, Ain Soph Aur). Over the last three years I have shifted almost entirely into the Nightside: qliphothic work and contemporary Demonolatry.
I approach the Qliphothic Tree very practically: my ātheologyā of it is built from experience first, theory second. Lately this is shaped especially by a Dark Pillar ritual Iāve been reworking and refining (partly with the help of AI) that includes direct interaction with what I call the trans-Qliphoth states Bohu, Choshech, and Tohu wa Bohu ā as well as two current-formulas: RM (space) and ROZSCHT (time).
In this framework Lucifer appears for me as Hielal (derived from āHallelujahā), seated between the trans-Qliphoth Choshech and Bohu: a genuine light-bearer, not a being made of light but one who carries and directs it. Thatās just a small taste of how I tend to work: experiential structure first, metaphysics built from there.
My primary focus now is a non-Abrahamic, non-binding approach to the Goetia ā working with the 72 as daimons in the older, pre-Christian sense: neutral intelligences rather than āevil spiritsā. I draw from S. Connolly and Gordon Winterfield, but I drop the angelic chains and work in conscious resonance instead of coercion. Current āhousehold spiritsā include Samaal (my dark guardian), Bime/Bune, Gremory, Marbas, Barbatos, Andromalius, Murmus, Valefar and a few others.
Besides ritual work Iām deeply involved with Hebrew gematria, Tarot, astrology and qliphothic pillar practices. Iām in the process of structuring these into a teaching current and community project I call āAO Demonolatryā ā essentially a serious study and practice space for daimon-work, Goetia, qliphothic Kabbalah and divination.
A bit of mundane background: I was born in Poland, spent most of my life in Germany and am currently based near Lisbon, Portugal. By trade Iām an industrial mechanic, at the moment working in a more ācivilianā job while I build my occult work and community structures.
Current ambitions:
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to deepen and refine a clean Demonolatry approach to the Goetia (no Yahweh-based bindings, no fear religion ā only clear pacts, respect and sovereignty on both sides);
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to integrate Tarot, astrology and daimon-work into a coherent system for divination and life-navigation;
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and to connect with practitioners who are working seriously with the Qliphoth, daimonic hierarchies, or similar currents.
Current struggles:
mainly the classic crossroads ā relocating, changing mundane work, and keeping practice intense and stable while building something that can support others, not just myself.
If anyone here is working Goetia in a non-Solomonic, Demonolatry-friendly way, or has gone deep into qliphothic pillar work, Iād be very interested in exchanging experiences.
Welcome, quite the journey you had, hope you stick around and tell us what you know. 
Hello. My name is Alexander. Iām 27. Iām from Jamaica. I have no experience in Magick. Iāve tried some stuff, but Iāve never felt anything. I only do when Itās unwanted contact from spirits and even that is rare. I donāt follow a particular tradition. I just go with what resonates with me. Iām into Chaos Magick, Demonolatry, Hypnosis, Lust Magick, Vampirism, and Angelic Magick. My current struggles include: having faith in workings that I do since I donāt sense anything, struggling with ADHD/Autism that interferes with my practice such as my ability to concentrate on meditation, being daunted and confused by more complex instructions(that lead me to think itās hopeless that I do this path). Iāve tried calling a few Goetic spirits and Iām not sure if I had an answer, did some petitions(still waiting on that) and Iāve done one to sargatanas where I asked him for something in exchange for him becoming my Patron. I have current interests in sargatanas, Dantalion, Sitri and Paimon.
Hello, Iām Levi, and Iāve been practicing for nearly 5 years. I work with angelic spells, demonic spells, and planetary spells. Iām 23 years old and live in Germany.
I joined the BALG forum to learn more and share what I know.
I use very old witchcraft and wizardry and Magick. I donāt bother to speak much. I just read your topics for my own fulfillment of old traditions reborn. I qualify as a high rank, but prefer the humble life of obscurity. Need the words for a ritual? Iām probably the one who knows. Eluheinu AMEIN. Chalu Den elasco Dera estu NIIT Ben did alsal. Ameino Amein
Perfect score on your intro Levi, thanks!. 
Attention to detail makes for a great magickian.
Welcome to the forum!
Welcome @Alexander_W and thanks for the great detail on your intro.
All the best for your open workings! The astral senses will come with time and practice
Welcome @ZiyyonJONES123
Where are you from?
What tradition is your very old witchcraft from?
Welcome @Levi910
Do you follow a specific system or tradition?
No, im eclectic
Iām Mav, Iāve been practicing witchcraft for over a year and started with demonolatry like a month ago. Iām really interested in baneful work and love magick, usually I like to focus my work on people. Iām a gray person when it comes to the ethics of magick, so Iām willing to try pretty much everything at least once
Welcome @MaVenpire
Where are you from?
Hello to all Members I am the Philomath , I am from Nicaragua , I Been dabbling with magick 1st with chaos magick 3 years ago but now I feel inclined to work with LHP , Goethic. I joined BALG to learn more and become an avid practitioner.
Welcome to the forum @thephilomath696
Hello 
. Truth be told I have little to no experience when it comes to magic, the occult, etc.. except for the fact I attempted a summoning at the age of 13. As of now in my life Iām 24 working in the healthcare industry with a focus on Psych (Ironic af) and planning to move up to Washington state after visiting some friends there (If youāve never been, highly recommend it). Iām here to hopefully gain a better understanding of what I did 11 years ago and to facilitate contact with the entity (if theyāre still present).
gah i feel really stupid reading this holy.
i was referring to the astral i just didnt thik i need to specify, also its not limited to just that. im not some weeb i swearš„²
i spend hours on this website i dont mean to be ingenuine or anything but i REALLY dont know how to express myself in words, im particularly worse irl
the implication of going back to be a kitsune is cause im an otherkin. (the desc on the site isnt fully accurate but i cant explain it either)
wow i still feel immensely dumb though. uh but id like it to be known that im not just some kid trying to turn into some kitsune because i think im a main character or some shit, i do know what im doing
Iām fae kin, I know what you mean. But you are an old soul and have been a million things, that was one experience and now youāre human, and thatās special too. āFamiliarity breeds comtempt.ā I would encourage you to keep recalling the other past lives to remember how well rounded you are and not pigeon hole yourself as any given species. Youāre much more than that. We all are.
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How long have you been practicing?
it has been a full-on YEAR that i have been doing invocations and such. BUT i started doing real inner transformation since July 8th into Satanael (adversary of God/Demiurge)
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Do you follow any particular system or tradition?
i follow Left hand pathā¦ BUT i do things on my own. Such asā¦ skipping Qlipphoth completely going into Thaumiel sphere- attaining the crown and so on. (Ya it workedš possibly cuz i swallowed golden orb months before the thaumiel thing)
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Do you have any practical experience in magick?
yeah! I dont need any candles or anything anymore! I also can go into liminal state by my will. Though it takes 10 minutes to do so. But still. When i am in liminal state i also can walk and well- the rituals are much stronger that way since im in the physical world and in the astral at the same time.
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Where are you from?
i womt say my birthplace for logical reasons, but i am in the netherlands.
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Current ambitions/struggles
my soul has been inverted soā¦ i guess the struggles are not caring about shame and sinning lol. Since it empowers meā¦ but yeah my ambitions are to merge with my adversial oversoul. I love sitra ahra and the whole Qlipphotic realms. Not even succubi can drain me.. i feel more empowered- its THAT good
