In my experience I also had a hard time and still have slightly a hard time. It started when I moved to Las Vegas. There I was taken an interest in working with Goetia spirits and other gods and spirits of this area. That’s when things went nuts. My friend basically turned into a lunatic and I was forced to move. I moved across the US to another friend and from there a similar instance happened. I then found a job with this one lady to be her aid. Turned out to be one of the BIGGEST lessons of my life.
I left her after a point of basically couldn’t take it anymore. I then however started to see my life start to form. I got my own place though it’s only a room but it’s good on the wallet while going through school. I got an entry level medical job that will pay for my schooling once I start. Basically free nursing degree at my fingertips. I am also now starting to get into the things Iv been wanting to do for myself but couldn’t for a while. Like tattoos, dying my hair, expressing more of my authentic self and best of all more of my own room. I have a space for me and myself that no one will disturb me and that I can just be. I know much more is on the way but this from start to now is about three years.
I am still going through some tough lessons but I know I can do it. Who is helping me with all this mess? Who is the ones that basically made me move to this point and forced me to go through experiences that many would break from or give up? Belial is definitely one. Satan is another. Abbadon is one other and Lucifer is the other. There is a few others. But these people are naturally known to NOT be easy. But in my experience if you just learn how to handle what is thrown at you and able to quickly get your mind in order and think on your feet, you will see that all this is to pave way to what you want. However like many know, it does not come cheep or easy. Easy is not in any of their names I promise you.
So me personally, either go and get your self centered and grounded and really look at it in another angle. Use your rage,your hatred into a spell. Learn to use that as a energy to help propel your self forward. Use this energy as a means to better your self. Know your weaknesses and flaws and learn from them. Once you start to show that you are trying and not fighting the current, Belial will come and even teach you things that CAN be helpful. He can be hard, he can be tough but he isn’t heartless.
Or you can go and break the pact. You can just go to either an experienced practitioner or do it your self (which in the state your in may not be for the best…) and have it closed. Then either you can call on other spirits as stated above to help mend things to the best of abilities and you go on as you are now.
But I suggest not to do this. Why? Because at this point the pact is in its up swing per-say. So in this stage things are escalated and much is unstable. If you pull out now it might be fixed but your basically are in a in between stage. Be like some one taking a puff pastry out to soon. It’ll just collapse on it self. So basically part of you is changed/changing while the other is yet to start. So to say the least you at this point can’t go back to how things were. Because you are now different. You can try but you will find out that it may not be exactly a fun time. BUT if you want this the door is right there.
Now even though there feels like a huge rush because of X,Y and Z is happening and loosing your place is no fun. However use this time to use that energy in a spell, use this time to ground and center your self also use this time to start the healing process. Just like your body as it grows, it gets damaged like your bone or muscle, however with the proper diet and care that pain and aches goes away quickly. So really look on this as that. But if you feel you need help during this time there is other spirits that can help you, just be carful of who to call on. To many will make things worse. But a spirit for healing for example would be beneficial and when it comes to law, money ect well Belial is the go to person besides Lucifer, Satan or Lilith. But since you have a pact with him, try to approach him with the mind set of “I want to better my self…” and not “You bastard has ruined EVERYTHING! I want it back!” Cuz yeah he definitely won’t come to you with that lol