"You are not alone"
Personal journal observation, upon integration of a past-life selfhood:
Past-life energies and influences, karma, dharma, expectation and desire, all things are cultural; they are NOT personal.
Any mistake you made in life, now or long turned to dust, examine the ways in which your society set you on track to make that mistake, and I am not talking about personal acts of petty weakness, I am talking about the larger deeds which may have scarred your life now, the bloodlines upon which your soul, a bird, alights across the centuries, your evolving self as it transitions through lives.
You have been born into an asylum, for generations, possibly even millenia, since the waters subsided.
Acting sane in the asylum was never an option; the extent to which you complied with its madness was often merely your attempt to better yourself using misremembered rules, in a rigged game. But you may have paid a high and lasting price, for raving with the best of your peers in any given form of madness.
Even the mythical ideal of “individuality” only exists relative to the people around you. Raised by another tribe in another era, your ethics, just like your wardrobe, would be adjusted to that setting, and you would not miss what you had never known.
Yet the choices made in that framework, as fleeting as fashions in clothing, can and often do affect us across time. Personal responsibility? This week’s fashion - contextual, and learned.
The magickal thinking of early childhood is the definition of rejecting this idea, of understanding self-as-axis, around which everything dances and upon which all things act, for nothing is broader than the shoulders of a thoughtful child, who bears every burden he encounters, and yet sees how easily family tides can sweep him away; we mature from this to some kind of balance, or in the case of our current iteration of madness, over-emphasis.
You are not alone: words everyone wants to hear in a crisis, and words no-one wants to hear when they believe they have finally excelled. Funny, that.
We have a lot of work to do, if the future is going to be any better than the past.
Be only tactically sane.
Suggested viewing: Adrift, 2018