This isn’t anything special - this is just some portions of my journal being shown to others who are new to these spirits are currently working with the spheres of the Qliphoth. I am using Asenath Masons approach to these spirits before trying others first, as I felt it as a good idea to at least start with a very clear and solid set intructions to make my journey as smooth as possible. And to those who have read some of my other stuff, I know I have been inactive for a time but I will update my other journals in the days to come. However as I was recording my experience of the workind of today. I suddenly felt I should share some of it and without further ado here are some experiences I’ve had so far.
Note: The pathworking and the methods I use are within Qliphothic Meditations by Asenath Mason and due to copyright I can’t reveal the steps but the experiences are after all mine and therefore I am entitled to share them. I’ve chosen not to share some notes in there because I find them very disturbing and some of it are also very personal stuff to me, which I don’t feel comfortable sharing with the public at this point in time which hopefully you can understand. And I will say this, using Mason’s methods and workings appear to work suprisingly well so far. I have already completed the first sphere but none of those notes will be made public. Along with the experiences of each sphere I find are worthy sharing with you, will also include my interpretations of their meaning (when I find the time), I might also share what they lead to along with the end ritual at the end of each pathworking oc each sphere.
GAMALIEL - Pathworking
I managed to get a hold of the ritual mat that went along with the book back when it was released, however I’ve always been skeptical about working with Qliphoth because A) I feared them.- and B) I wasn’t sure I were ready because of lack of spiritual development, I am not a pro however I am not necessarily lacking so much in clairvoyance and astral travel anymore. These sessions are just guided meditations so no soul travel going on. Necessarily unless you so choose to travel to them.
2019 – 05-31
Visions: it’s very disturbing actually. After entering the moon from the water and calling out the name of Lillith. I was transformed into a black snake, with yellow spots at the back of my head and yellow underside. I wrangled away to the outside where I was warngling onto an altar that looked like traditional sarcophagus except it was shaped like an altar and a chalice had already been prepared for me. I was laying on the altar and a hooded man cloaked in black robes sacrificed to me to something, I could never hear his voice. He more or less stretched out his arms in the shape of the cross called on something chopped my head off and proceeded to offer my blood into the chalice, which he drank. And I entered his body and then I was back in the cave I started, where I was born out of Lillith as she was humped by some shadowy demonic being, that looked like a mix between between smoke and shadow condensed into a form, with pearl white lidless eyes. Bull like horns that where very thick, huge leathey bata-like wings, with talons like a reptile, and a tail like a classic devil.
I was about to exit the cave and I was back where I started as in I was back at the same glade, with the same altar and once that happened I was transformed into the demon I just described and I was united in sexual union with Lillith. It was really weird seeing this. And I somehow while in that moment I was somewhere else entirely like I was transformed into something looks like a Yan’ti (snake man) exiting a large cave opening indentical to the one I had just stood in. Then I was near a new clearing, making out a glade with solid rowan trees. And the silvery moon was shining down on me on the surface of a huge lake. The light illuminated me and I was memerized by it somehow and I basked in it, internally I saw it inside my minds eye yet I felt incredibly peaceful just like I would if I watched the real deal. Then the scenery came crashing down like it was just some sort of simulation, like a brickwall hit by a wrecking ball. Then I was inside darkness, me and my own shadow was the only thing that was visible, don’t ask how I could ser my own shadow in the pitch blackenss thatbsurroubded me. My shadow was pure white and I was the dark one. Suddenly the godess was standing before me. White eyes, blue skin, fiery red hair, and a deadly blood stained grin on her face. She looked very alluring, savage and terrifying all at the same time.
She kept looking at me until she faded away in the background just standing there and it was like she was pulled away from me until i couldn’t see her anymore.
2019 – 05 -31
Visions: This time it started out in a very similar way but the visions I recieved in this meditative state where very different from last time. I only remember fractions like where it started out, the cave opening led into the glade I have seen in previous visions, a moonlit small portion of a island laying next to a huge lake, where a silvery full moon hung above and cast reflections into the water. I still remember seeing that same chalice – the chalice adorned with the face of baphomet. This is where I slithered into in my ophidian form that I had once more shapeshifted into. I was laying in wait there until then I were ingested and swallowed hole. The rest is really foggy.
I remember that she; Lillith, drained me of my blood at the end of the pathworking, her skin was white as ash, and she had wine red lips and yellow eyes. Her hair was black as a ravens feather. And she had my blood smeared all over her face and I could even see her fangs as she she seemed to roar it me as if she was furious with me. She then said something that stuck with me ever since. While she was moving away from me as if I was pulled away from her by a string she told me this: ”you must learn to relax and then release.”
For future working I should attempt to do the pathworkings closer to each other preferbly once a day, and see if I can extract a meaning of some kind from the visions, this will be the hard part.
2019 -06 -10
Visions: Lillith usually isn’t a very talktaive being – I base this idea on observations made in previous wokings in this relam, today however was very different in this regard. After I had entered her cave like the previous sessions, she appeared to me as a naked woman but as silvery as the moon emitting a very strong but soothing light off of her skin as well as an aura, in the darkness surrounding me she shone brightly. At this point she told me to release my fears, doubts and inhibbitions in regards to my desires, wants and wills. I should do so because if I don’t consier these viable or ignore them others will too. Meaning I should show what I want and take what I want when I want. With that as I was standing there wet and naked she bit my neck and drained me of blood. I was then transformed into a snake and I was back at the same glade in part, it was like I were at an another destination at the same island. I had tansformed into a viper. And I was poked at with a stick and then suddenly killed and decapitated in a ritual designed to extract my fangs, a ritual in Necromantic Sorccery comes to mind. And they were grinded into a powder and then put into an elexit of some kind which was drunk by a hooded man that had a chainmail like a night but tattered and torn clothing like a bandit. He had an altar with red table cloth and tons of tools that I can’t name. He was hunched over the table the chalices that were golden formed and inverted equilateral triangle pointing towards the man. The effects of the potion now kicked in and three snakes appeared along with Lillith. she released us and two of them held the man body down allowing me to rip out his adam’s apple and enter him through the hole in his neck, and I somehow (I don’t know how) aligned myself perfectly with his spine, and integrated my consciousness with his. Then once the previous had occured, he then saw a vision which I experienced as someone looking over his shoulder - of a sarcophagus, or rather an altar that looked like a sarchophagus. It was surrounded by darkness except a solitary beam of moonight shining onto the altar, illuminating a naked woman with purple hair with misty white eyes, appearing as if she was possessed by something. This part is rather graphic- the man pulled out a knife and proceeded having intercourse with her and then at the peak of sexual arousal (near orgasm) for both parties, he slit her throat first and then his, bleeding to death ontop of the altar and upon his death - me and the other two snakes were released from him and now formed a triangle outside of the cave I had exited from at the start of this meditation, our formed bodies was set on fire within the inner perimeter of the triangle and through the orange flames the goddess rose. Her appearene had slightly changed, her skin was white like ash , white eyes like pearls and pruple hair not red which I have seen her in a few times. She gripped me around my neck in my current snake like form and said many things as she was lifting me up to her face, the only thing I remember that really stood out was:
“Before you can rule the passions and desires of others, you must first release your inhibitions to power, before you can steal or take the power of others you must for release your own. Let go of your inhibitions and let your desires ride you, but do not become a slave to them.”
With this she guided me to otherparts of the relam a dense thick forest, with trees that looked like they belonged somehwere in ancient greece:
except there was a ton of them and they were very closely put together. Very little light was shining from the full moon however the rays that did illuminate they are was very strong like a silver sun. In this place there where male demons with large bent phalluses and an owl watched me, she told me in time I would guard her relam just like them but for nowI should leave. So I did and here I am writing about this expereince. This stuff is strange, confusing and rewarding, there are many other things I’d like to mention but there isn’t enough time now, I’ll attempt to get back tomorrow and also attempt to extracta meaning from this pathworking somehow…
I have yet to sit down and decode the symbology contained within all of this will have to do it some day
UPDATE - forgot to include this
2019 – 06 – 12
Visions: After entering the cave and called out her name. Lillith appeared as a naked woman made out of by silvery moonlight. She then grabbed my hand and flew me way above the ground and we danced or rather spun in circles she smiled and then let me go. And towards the verdant forest I fell, quickly and mercilessly I hit the ground although this wasn’t painful in any way, it still took some time to get up. Once I got up I saw a fountain made out of white marble, I think, instead of water it contained blood. I drank from it and I could see my features change into that of what I can only percieve to be those of a monstrous vampire. I had blood around my mouth and white eyes, and my skin was that os blood drained corpse. Once this transformation had occured Lillith appeared behind me and grabbed me by my collar and then pulled me down to the ground so I was kneeling and then she broke my neck and as I laid in a pool of my own blood. I was then sucked as if yanked by a hook of some kind and was transported to the moon and to the darkside of it, I noticed a black building with large talons or rather tusks erupting out of the earth, the gate had some golden ornaments and I was apparently in a desert at either sunrise or sunset because the sky pure red like blood. Suddenly I was sucked through the gate front gate, it was closed by the way, into the temple where the goddess beautiful yet monstrous was sitting on her throne butt naked and pale as the winter snow, with eyes black as coal and wavy but well kept purple hair. She had servants, all of them were women dressed in golden ornamated shawls with hoods, even their bodies where semi transperent you couldn’t make out a lot of these womens features, they poured her what I intuitiely registered and just knew was my own blood. Which she drank. Her fangs were visible as she grinned at me at first and then she became very serious and cold and she said:
”I am not going to teach you anything more unless you apply what I already taught you. Come back once you have completed everything else.”
Just like that as quickly as I got in I were teleported outside. And I was under the sky orange scorching sun and the temple was gone. Something was seriously messed up with time as the clouds moved accross the sky infront of me as someone had pressed fast forward and a TV – remote and then suddely the couds move backwards, towards me but as if someone had pressed fast backwards instead. I then saw another fountain except water didn’t spurt out from this one. I walked up to it and then drank from it. The rippling effect revealed my living room where I sat and I was sucked into the room from above and landed into myself. I both saw this while at the same time experienced this like: I fell from above and into myself - internally I felt as if something really heavy landed over my shoulders, like someone had a dropped a heavy blanket with weights and my awareness was immediately turned to back behind my eyelids. I opened my eyes feeling very much out of place, along with a feeling slightly disoriented I also had the ”luxury” of experiencing a really annoying and persistent high pitched ringing in my ears, along with intense electric sensations spreading out from the middle of my forehead /vibrating specifically the my ajna (third eye (brow chakra)) - and Sahasrarah (crown) chakras.
Vision: this time after sitting on my bed on the ritual mat and connecting with Gamaliel and floating towards the moon and into the cave. What followed next was a bit much. After seeing the goddess as a woman with red hair appearing in a red dress, she was beautiful though, she wasn’t as fair as whe usually had appeared before she was more tanned and her eyes were still golden yellow and her pupils was a bit dilated. The dress didn’t cover he arms and was sort of dragging behind her. She walked with me a bit and then just pointed to the exit.
I don’t remember much for some reason, I only remember that the minute I walked out my body twisted and started to transform into some kind of reptilian humanoid with horns that was a mix between draconian and devil like more than anything else. I was just walking knowing that I should walk towards something, and eventually I reached a stone altar in the woods were two male demons were sodomizing a human a male. My view suddenly changed and I was then one of demons who did that. The human me…that was pretty disturbing to me. Then I heard the voice goddess echoing to me saying:
“Your friends and family will use your desires and you and rape you like this for as long allow them. If you stay in this delusion you won’t ever do what’s in your best interest. Unless you enjoy staying this way?”
To which I replied I didn’t. I was then transported to the temple I described earlier in an instant. She was sitting on her throne was a black transparent dess that hung like a robe, the fabric appared to made out of something like a spider’s webb. It was transluscent but had motiffs of leafs, and branches covering it. It also had sleves. her legs were crossed and she held a ornated chalice in her right hand. Her skin was pale again and she was gazing intently at me. Her expression was hard to descipher. The godess was surrounded by the astral hand maidens I’ve deatiled before. Attending to her needs. she followed up by saying:
“Then from this day you should work on releasing yourself from yourself. You belong to the fold now and I will guide your step but you have to trust me and above all lose yourself in this, and let nothing stop you. You deserve to revel in your pleasure not bound by shame. Now you may leave.”
Then in that room a font appeared, a font as in the place you baptize babies in. It was filled with astral waters. I then peered through the waters and I was looking at myself from behind. I then without warning was sucked into my body and I was about as disoriented as the least time. And the bloody ringing made itself known this time as well.
Asenath Mason wasn’t kidding in a way working with the Qliphoth is pretty disturbing and you never know what you are in for, sorry for the graphic nature of the updated post. But I figure let this be an example of what you can come across whe undertaking these workings.