I must remind you that I don’t have any physikal stuff at home that are related to this path working except the book except candles and its holder…
I practice it’s recitations and invocations-evokations of the Luciferian trinity the Qlipothic prayers and such.
I don’t even have a robe due to my for now living circumstance that are hindering to perform it completely.
I have my own room and my own occultic stuff in it it is only not that big that I can blend with other traditions physically that much. l practice to now my own created tradition of JoS practices to Rune Mantras and yoga to meditations some traditions related to the black flame and such.
And to now I in some way integrated the Qlipothic standard work in it and it’s like for me the whole picture I seeked and needed. To develop my dark essence more and give it a clear picture and direction.
And that happened when I started with naamah.
When she entered me or it’s spirit I felt whole empowered loved and such and of course with time it’s effect vanished but it was a sure sign for there waits something important and crucial step for me and my developments.
Of course on some nightly occasions these succubi and incubi visited me and did their sexual vampiric work with me but in both beneficial way I didn’t felt drained and such I only felt reliefed and somehow changed.
In a way that many sexual related stuff made sence to me that on some parts these blockages of trauma and insecurity vanished trough each spiritual influenced orgasm and its exchanges.
There where feminine entity’s and maskulin entity’s that had in a sexual way worked with me perhaps sexually I could do both in this aspect?
Physiycally I am not that type of guy. But maybe I am? I will not lay finger on it and say I am this or that and get into a role of specific sexual tastes and preferences. Love is love also in sexual ways. But I could see myself as hetero and a good portion Pansexuality in it the rest Asexual if I lay some of my fingers.
That part cleared in me.
My root my sexuality my ego had clearance of this mental fogines I say. I am not anymore that unsure and confused about myself and my sexuality. And where I see myself going.
And many piled up emotions came trough… nothing more to say that this big pile lost its size but not completely as of yet…
But so much that I know I make progress…