Your so freaking awesome!! Super Daddy!!
Baby girl 
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1/4/20
Day 6:
Some light chakra work and the blue flame meditation around 3 PM. Experienced some minor tingling in the Ajna, and quite a bit of warmth in the Muladhara.
Performed the fourth repetition of the Enochian ritual at 1145 PM. There was no sensation of energy this time.
I did no shamanic journey today.
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2/4/20
Day 7:
Did my chakra work late in the day, around 4 PM, before taking a short jaunt to the grocery store. There was more buzzing in my Ajna today, but less warmth in the Muladhara. The blue flame meditation made me fairly lightheaded.
830 PM I tasked the elemental legion I received from @Qayos with further opening my chakras and augmenting my energy system to help facilitate a greater flow of energy. Upon giving the command, there was an immediate swelling of power in my Ajna, and, ten minutes later, when I was cooking supper, I experienced a wave of dizziness that dropped me into a momentary altered state, until my roommate peeked into the kitchen and snapped me out of it.
It left me with a bit of a headache that lessened after I finished eating.
1205 AM I performed the fifth repetition of the Enochian ritual from Brandās book. Nothing was experienced.
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3/4/20
Day 8:
11 AM: Increased my daily meditation practice from 15 minutes to 30 minutes. Iāve also decided to include another session before bed.
435 PM: Did my chakra exercise and the blue flame meditation two hours after lunch. Had a difficult time not blinking during the blue flame meditation because the air was very dry in my room. I could feel the energy swirling in my Ajna though.
I think Iām done with the preliminary exercises of the Soul Travel course now, so tomorrow I begin Section 5, and try to leave my body for the first time.
8 PM: Took another shamanic journey to the Lower World. My intention was to receive any signs or information that the Powers That Be thought I should know. Perhaps that intention was a mistakeā¦
I entered the Lower World fine, with my guide, Sam, rubbing up against my legs. Nothing was amiss, and we sauntered along, taking in the play of shadows on the rock. Sam stopped by a rock face and began licking it, and when i walked closer, I saw there was a trickle of water coming out. I noticed there was a larger stream coming out higher up the wall, so I picked up Sam and placed him on an outcropping where he could get a good mouthful of the water. He seemed pleased.
There is something about the drum track that Iāve been using that makes it really easy for me to lose focus and drift off into daydream, and that is what happened at this point. When I brought myself back to the journey, I was in the middle of some kind of mist that had swept in from somewhere, and had lost sight of Sam. While I called out to him, I noticed what looked like tombstones, or grave markers, all around me. I moved over to one to see if there was anything engraved on it, but it seemed to be blank, whatever used to be there having been worn away by time.
It was a stereotypical Hollywood horror movie scene, but I was getting a very creepy vibe from the situation, and I felt a bit anxious. I heard Sam meow, loudly, close by, so I followed his voice, and found my way out of the mist. I scooped up Sam, who kind of looked at me reproachfully, and decided it was time to return to the World Tree.
Once I popped out back at the Tree, I sat down with my back against the trunk and thought back to the fog, the graveyard, and what it could possibly mean. It had given me a feeling of apprehension, and doom, but I donāt know if it was supposed to be a warning, a threat, or simply an image connected to the current pandemic. Whatever it was, it was unsettling.
I came out of the journey without waiting for the track to signal the return. Total time journeying was about twenty minutes of the 30 minute track.
1145 PM: Performed the sixth repetition of the Enochian ritual from Brandās book. No sensations to report.
2 AM: second 30 minute meditation.
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4/4/20
Day 9:
130 PM - Meditation. Followed my breath for 30 minutes. My mind was very active today so it was a struggle.
During the meditation I was hit with the idea to do another offering of ritual to the forum, so I did. Itāll be some experimental magick so weāll see what happens.
5 PM - chakra work and blue flame meditation. I think Iām getting a high from the energy. After the meditation, I feel very lightheaded and slightly dizzy. Today when I stood up, I almost fell over. It was quite the head rush.
Had some nice slow cooker chilli for supper. Very delicious. Would recommend.
1130 PM - seventh repetition of the Enochian ritual. Nothing was experienced.
Thatās it for the first ritual. I think I will wait a day or two before commencing the next set, and try to remain open.
2 AM - meditation
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Forgive me for the dumb question (I skimmed up top again and didnāt easily find the answer), are you just normally up at 2 AM? Or is there a special significance to meditating at this time?
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5/4/2020
Day 10:
Today was a day of rest. Didnāt do any magick or energy work, just took care of mundane things like laundry and grocery shopping.
@SagaMysterium There is no significance to that particular hour. Itās simply before I go to bed usually.
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6/4/20
Day 11:
Today was another rest day, butā¦a weird one. Iāve been feeling a strange sense of contentment, like somehow I know everything is going to be okay. Itās a bit hard to describe, and at first I didnāt notice anything different, but, with the day coming to a close, it just occurred to me that my thoughts havenāt been dwelling on, or worrying about, the virus, politics, or anything truly negative. I know Iām going to be alright, no matter what happens.
Huh. It is so odd, and very alien to my usual way of thinking. Itās not a hide - your - head - in - the - sand - and - hope - it - all - goes - away kind of thing, just a general acknowledgement that āthis too shall pass.ā I wonder if this is a result of the first Enochian ritual in the Damon Brand book, which is supposed to give clarity to your perceptions. 
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7/4/20
Day 12:
Another day I didnāt do any magick or energy work. Iām not sure why, but I just didnāt feel like it. Iāve kind of lost motivation to continue my 100 day intensive. Itās almost like I have no need for it, so there is no desire to do it.
Iām not sure if this is just my natural laziness rearing itās head though, because I donāt feel depressed or anything, and iām not procrastinating. I literally have nothing that has to be done, so there is nothing to even procrastinate on. Iām left wondering if this laissez- faire attitude is related to the Enochian workā¦
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8/4/2020
Day 13:
Slept most of the day away, and as a result felt very tired.
4 PM - performed my chakra exercise, and the blue flame meditation. I felt a tangible release of stagnant energy when I drew down the cosmic energy to flush my chakras. It was difficult to refrain from blinking while doing the blue flame meditation. My eyes were really dry.
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9/4/20
Day 14:
I forgot to update this, so here are the musings from yesterday.
Iāve been dwelling a lot on @Lady_Evaās Block World concept, here and the quantum locking found here in the context of working with the Enochian forces.
Iām trying to overcome my personal spiritual chains (which, as far as I have been able to determine, seem to stem from a combination of a past lifeās karma and what my soul needs to fulfil its evolution). My path is apparently a long and winding one, and I feel like Iām being forced back to the beginning of my journey by universal forces greater than I.
I performed no exercises or magick this day. My thoughts have been on loop with reference to the above.
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@DarkestKnight I am pretty sure you arent a fan of new age desciription of karma, whats your take on it?
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The karma Iām talking about is a binding visited upon my material prosperity by some uppity āHigher Powerā who took it upon itself to punish me because my previous incarnation was someone who caused untold suffering in his pursuit of wealth. As the spiritual and material are really one and the same, by binding my spiritual prosperity, the force also bound any material success.
I donāt believe in any universal check and balance kind of karma, as in you do bad and so bad is done to you. This is a personal thing that this higher power decided to do on its own for whatever reason. I donāt know enough about the why of it, only that it happened, and with the help of @Lady_Eva, Paimonia, Belial, Odin, and a nameless African shaman, a few years ago, I believe Iāve broken the binding or at least lessened itās grip by doing some form of reparations. However, I am still struggling with material prosperity, which I think is linked to a deep sense of guilt over my previous life.
Various divinations have pointed to some really serious forces at work behind my life right now, that Iām still trying to identify, but they are moving pieces around and setting me up for something big.
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Are you able to do a blind evocation of the forces behind the changes in your life?
Maybe the roomick system might help?
10/4/20
Day 15:
Another late start. Havenāt been sleeping well lately so I wind up waking late in the day.
Iām still working on increasing my energy sensitivity and decided to chant some Words of Power to get a feel for the distinct energetic signature of each.
430 PM - relaxed into a light Alpha state, and vibrated the Divine Name EL for 5 minutes. I then rested for a few moments, and then vibrated for another 5 minutes. The Name resonated deeply in my chest, and cause a light shift in my trance.
After taking a few deep breaths, I vibrated the Name again for 5 minutes, this time in a sing-song way, with a rising and falling intonation. The energy of the vibration moved from my chest to my throat and back again, and there was a definite shift in my head.
8 PM - Connected with the angel Yisrael using the visionary pathworking from the book Razielās Paths of Power Volume 2. I found it fairly easy to slip into the visualisations, despite the electric light being on in my room which it made it difficult to imagine being in darkness. The method felt remarkably similar to a shamanic journey. I tasked to angel to improve my imagination.
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11/4/20
Day 16:
3 PM - Tried an Enochian version of the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram. Stumbled over the pronunciations, and the movements were awkward. Itās been a long while since Iāve performed a LBRP. Will require memorisation.
6 PM - Relaxed into Alpha, followed by vibration of God Names for ten minutes each.
EL - the energetic effect of this Name was subtle. Vibration was contained in the chest, and seemed to stir the Anahata chakra. The external environment felt energetically lighter, and fresher, like it had just been aired out by a summer breeze.
EL SHADDAI - the effect of this Name was stronger than the previous. Felt the vibration ripple through the whole body, though it was more pronounced in the upper chakras. Internally, I had the impression that my subtler bodies were shaking loose. The Name seemed to ripple outward in the external environment, like a heat mirage.
YOD - HEH - VAHV - HEH - the vibration of this Name had the strongest energetic effect. It moved throughout my body, making my skin tingle, and causing some light dizziness. Itās effect on the external environment seemed to be one of demand. It felt like a very pushy, almost authoritarian energy compared to the others.
1130 PM - chanted the angelic mantra for the senses found here for 25 minutes. The effect was light and subtle. Felt energy move along my hairline and on the crown of my head, in the Sahasrara, then down the back of my scalp to the Zeāal chakra.
2 AM - breath awareness meditation with Theta isochronic tone for 30 minutes.
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12/4/20
Day 17:
8 AM - Some basic yoga asana followed by meditation on the breath for 30 minutes. Mind was a maelstrom of activity this morning.
930 AM - Enochian Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram. Itās well known that Aleister Crowley reversed the cardinal directions for Fire and Air in the LBRP, so I attempted to perform this ritual today with the correspondences given by Damon Brand in his book Archangels of Magick, putting Fire back in the East, and Air in the South as they were originally attributed in the oldest known Kabbalisitic writings and beginning in the North, instead of the East. i did feel a distinct shift in the energy, but will need to practice more to confirm that it wasnāt just in my head, as the ritual is still a bit clunky due to having to follow directions.
330 PM - Soul Travel practice. Relaxed into Alpha, pulled energy through the chakras, and performed the blue flame meditation, before syncing breath and using the exhale to exit the body. I believe I was successful, and projected to my bed from the chair in which I was sitting. It was more of a mental projection though, with my awareness split between the projection and my physical body. It was difficult not to be sucked back in upon inhalation. Need to practice solidifying the connection to the object I projected to, in order to prevent the return to the body.
7 PM - Relaxation into Alpha and vibration of Divine Name IAO for ten minutes. This Name carries a nice energy. There is less religious controversy regarding its orgins attached to it, and it flows very nicely. It felt similar to the energy of EL, though perhaps not as refreshing.
Followed IAO with the vibration of the first Enochian Key. This was the first time Iāve tried the Keys, and it was very unwieldy. No one agrees on the correct pronunciation so I used a phonetic guide I found through Google, but even with the struggles to pronounce the words, I felt the energy inherent in them. The Key seemed to affect my head mainly, making me lightheaded and dizzy. More practice is required though.
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13/4/20
Day 18:
I felt off the entire day. Donāt know why. Performed the Enochian LBRP around 3 PM, but didnāt do anything else. Wasnāt focused and found myself easily frustrated and angry. Little petty annoyances made me seethe. Almost blew up in the grocery store.
Was unaccountably tired and fell asleep early which is why Iām just updating this journal now.
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14/4/20
Day 19:
1045 AM - Breath awareness meditation for 30 minutes, followed by the Enochian LBRP. I got a definite sense of the energy moving. Using the elemental correspondences of Brand, instead of those of the traditional LBRP, seems to click things into place better. Standing in the centre, the pentagrams were stronger, and the archangels felt more present.
Iām not sure I will continue with this particular banishing for much longer though. Iāve always had a sort of meh feeling towards the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram and the Enochian version only somewhat alleviates that, probably due to its novelty.
I do have to say, though, that it feels pretty good to get back to my ceremonial roots. Strengthening my basics is something Iāve sorely neglected in my zeal for evocation.
330 PM - Stillness training for 30 minutes. I was able to remain completely still for most of the allotted time. Lying on the floor in the corpse pose helped as it wasnāt so comfortable that I could fall asleep. Itās good to know I havenāt lost the physical stillness. Now, I have to add the internal element and thatās always a bitch. Even on a good day, my brain never wants to remain quiet for too long, even with a focus.
7 PM - Trancework and chakras. I was able to slip into a nice Alpha state and practice the pendulum visualisation from the Soul Travel course (itās also in the OAA curriculum) for ten minutes. Couldnāt keep it straight though. The visualisation kept wanting to swing around in circles. I followed it with pulling down power through my chakras and vibrating the Bija mantras. I completed the work with the blue flame meditation.
1200 AM - Breath awareness meditation for 30 minutes
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