@shikyou I should probably let you know, this forum is for the discussion of real, practical magick and spirituality.
You are not nor never were a kitsune, and cannot shift into one in the physical, One, they are fictional creatures from Japanese myth, and two, shapeshifting only occurs in the astral. Real life is not furry porn or an anime.
Please don’t waste your time or ours role playing on this forum, we are not reddit: be authentic and we will be real with you in return.
If you want to get serious about magick the getting started guide with all forum orientation stuff, links to tutorials and popular megathreads are here: GETTING STARTED GUIDE, Rules, Notables, Tutorials and References. The Linked in that megathread are forum-made tutorials for things like spiritual hygiene, developing your astral senses and avoiding impostors and parasites… When you can be sure you’ll not get attacked by parasites, THEN try Unofficial Tutorials: First Contact from Sigils to Evocation Collection.
For reference: The rules are here - please read them. The posting guidelines are here in the FAQ The Terms of Service are here