So you have low self-esteem. You’re honest,and that’s a good trait to have on the LHP.
You don’t hide your weaknesses, you own them. Again that’s good. Now you just need to apply yourself to ritual self-improvement.
Conjure for money using money rituals, using this, then this, then do these multi-rituals for a few months. Or if you prefer, create your own rituals using these or these books as your financial foundation.
You wanna get laid? Check out the posts i put here and here. Click through ALL of the links for more rituals, i got you covered. There are even more rituals here and here, and you’ll find more again in the Search feature of this site.
For spirit contact, check this out. Make sure you contact the spirits in earnest so you get the best results from doing this work. Also, check this out. It’s a simple way to contact the spirits, and you know, simple works.
If you feel like you’ve been cursed, give this a shot.
If all is lost and absolutely nothing you do works, try this.
Ask a lot of questions; there are some genuinely badass magicians on this board here and there.
Do a lot of magick to change your circumstances. Your life will change as you apply yourself.
Keep us posted on the changes that happen to you as you dig into the work and it rewards you.