First Background Into My Mental Health.
I’m going to be utterly honest, I have had so much counselling over the years that I began to feel as if I was a piece of furniture in those doctors rooms.
I’ve had a lot of bad shit happen to me over the years, best friend committed suicide, my favourite cousin died in my arms from a epileptic fit. My grandfather who was in my mind “my father” died of a heart attack. I was moved house to house, I’ve probably lived in over 30 different houses and over 19 or more schools.
Me and my family were homeless at one point and starving, we moved to a homeless refuge for endangered families. Afterwards we moved into a home with a lot of domestic violence. I was eventually taken away from my mother, forced to live with my father, were I endured sexual abuse, physical abuse, mental abuse. I was abused daily, I was locked in a room, I then turned to drugs and alcohol, self harm and so on.
This is just a glimpse into my past, it’s still not the fill story. Doctors gave me all kinds of diagnoses, CPTSD, Insomnia, Anxiety, Depression, IED and so on. It became all too much and on a few occasions I contemplated suicide and at one point in my life, I attempted it.
Guess what ? I was an idiot.
Your Intelligence Has Turned Against You.
Having western minds, mathematical inclined logical ways of thinking, is dangerous at times. Our intellect we believe to be our biggest strength, believe me it’s not. After all I went through you may think
“I don’t blame you for being stressed, depressed, angry and whatever”.
Here’s a secret for you, I didn’t have to feel like that, see I cured myself of these psychological, mental and emotional afflictions through meditation.
Once you attain a level of oneness, a new stage of meditation you can shatter the illusion, the illusion of what you think you are, who you think you are.
Looking at yourself with new clarity, seeing the ego and the self that you and society has created and then ascend above it.
Ascending above the intellect, above the logical mind, surpassing the mind which is actually only useful for specific things in life. Once that is done you can just reach peace, no matter what the circumstances. You could sit in a room with a person you hate, a person that you’ve actually always wanted to kill. If you enter into this state you can look at that person and just smile, not because they make you happy, cause they don’t, they don’t make you sad either.
You ascend above the isolated rays of the emotional spectrum, once this is mastered through strict daily meditation, you can withstand anything.
You’ll understand no one, nor anything makes you depressed, your mind does it to you, your intellect does it to you, you are poisoning yourself.
If you’ve been beaten, raped, kidnapped, witnessed a murder, whatever it may be, it’ll seem so unimportant to you.
You are becoming immune to the self poisoning, cause depression and all these other psychological issues many claim they aren’t treatable or curable.
Yes they are, they are trust me, look at the practice of yoga, do you know what yoga means ?.
It means “union” once union can be achieved, a level of enlightenment is possessed, allowing you to be unfazed by anything and everything.
No fear, no pain, no sadness, no anger, no confusion, no frustration, just absolute expansion, ascension and oneness.
Realise all these things are self inflicted, even if someone tells you “it’s hereditary” or “it’s because of your surroundings” it doesn’t matter. Your mind will take that temporary event or even a continuous event and make you attach every fibre of your being to it. It isn’t the situation, the experience or the person, it’s your mind. We are poisoning ourselves and we don’t realise it, I have and I have surpassed it.
I invite you all to do the same.