Venom/Energy
I’ve got more used to these now, so sharing some experiences, also an exercise people could maybe try, and a new entity to check out:
If I enter the astral through my crown chakra (which I was never in the habit of doing, then it started to happen automatically), I immediately form into a black dragon with a somewhat different way of thinking than my normal one - I’m more aggressive, and also it seems to draw more attacks from all sorts of random places.
If I kind of shapeshift that down into a humanoid shape, instead of becoming my normal form, I turn into a sort of rotund black figure, who has almost bulging limbs (like a combination of fat and muscle) and the kind of belly you see on Buddha statues, he’s jet black & shiny, like petroleum, and has actual horns - the shortish stumpy kind you might see on a halloween demon horn headband.
This is TOTALLY weird (I’m a slim white woman - and no horns, I promise) so I’m not sure what that’s all about - in that form I think and feel more like myself, and the form changes back to my normal one when I enter the higher astral realms.
(Since we all use different terms, I mean the ones where I encounter godforms, the “higher self” of human people, and so on.)
I can enter the astral as “me” just by doing my usual method, closing my eyes and stepping forward out my body, so it seems like the physical location of that energy from the first “bite” has something to do with it.
I’ve learned to use the base chakra energy selectively, to pinpoint memories in the same way they teach in EFT, where you go back to the first time you remember feeling in a particular way or being affected by something, and only releasing those, which has been rather wonderful - to be healed of emotional imprints and stuff from the past, while retaining the memory and the lessons learned.
I’m wondering if that’s not a visualistion anyone could use, since the muladhara chakra relates to time, memory, and the physical manifestation of the self - here’s a link about how to find that seed memory just in case anyone wants to try it out: Finding the specific event.
It might be possible to manifest the image of yourself getting that first wound, standing on the lotus of the muladhara, and heal it, talk to it, or otherwise interact, and then let it be absorbed back into the lotus, changing the energy stored/channeled through that chakra - if the venom represents power of sorcery over randomly occurring reality (which I believe it does, among other things), it could work for other people as well, because the intent’s the same - to overcome “reality” through the exertion of will.
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During the endless nights of vivid dreams during the first, Ahriman-invocation stage, I encountered Isis, and to cut to the chase I got the impression that she’s a godform who represents an era when humanity first began to understand both the “clockwork” natural order AND sorcery, and that (unlike later dualism) she teaches and represents mastery of both.
This is pretty much what I want, since I don’t believe sorcery is, or always must be, “evil” and destructive, nor do I think the “natural” order of things is always good or right, hence my rants about the idea we should accept “everything is exactly as it should be” and so on.
Her cult ran from at least the Old Kingdom in Egypt (circa 2400BCE) and survived on to the 6th Century CE, and during that era, although her cult consumed those of other goddesses and she occasionally took on their symbolism, her core attributes of both supreme sorceress and wife/mother don’t seem to have varied.
I checked this with all my trusted spirits, divination, and so on, so I’ve been working with her since last Sunday’s Full Moon, and so far we’ve done some work that’s included Belial giving me a new system of divination to try (more on that if it works out!) - he asked me what I wanted, I said a new coat (which is true, by the way) and he looked at me like my head was full of hamsters, and indicated he meant something spiritual… oh well! lol
I also found a muse-like entity called “Dorr” who IS a door, like the one in the old Twilight Zone titles - edit coz I’ve started a new thread for Dorr in Soul Travel, to keep this on topic - soz.