I thought it might be interesting to talk about this, and I’ll go first:
After I finished working with Azi Dahaka and had rested and sorted myself out a bit, I had planned to work for a lunar month with Isis, because she had appeared during one of the dreams I had at the start of invoking Ahriman, and I already had some knowledge of her and affection for her.
BUT: I didn’t somehow gel with the work, maybe it’s a flaw in me and maybe sometimes things just aren’t meant to be, even when the divination’s positive and the spiritual side of it seems interesting.
The first week was good, the second very patchy, and it just felt like a mismatch in all kinds of ways: I still love Isis, and I’ve done a couple of things with her, but this pathworking as it had been given wasn’t feeling right.
I called that plan off, after a bit of soul-searching, and instead began in a different direction. In this case, I didn’t abandon the basic concept of doing intense and almost daily workings, because I was building up towards the daemon child project I’d had in mind for months (update asap) but I did change the whole set-up and at the moment, I plan to approach her again and ask for help some time later this year.
So, I thought it might be useful to share some times when things didn’t go quite as planned, and how we handled it, and what happened next?
Am I gutted I don’t have a 28-day pathworking with a goddess who is, arguably, Queen of the Sorceresses, under my belt by now? A bit, yes.
But it just didn’t work, and sometimes you have to push through the barriers, other times it can feel like a better use of energy to focus on something else.
And I’ve had this happen before - years ago when I was first learning healing, I was offered a pathworking through the elements by entities I’d met through trance work, and I did the opening ritual and offerings for this, and started the work, but again it wasn’t the RIGHT kind of hard work, it felt wrong, and I called it off.
I probably lost some knowledge by doing that, but I got lucky and learned some different methods further along that might have filled the gap - I’ll never really know. I felt like a total failure back then - this time round, and with work to be done, I just figured it was one of life’s little speed-bumps, and carried on along a new route.
Maybe that’s the fruit of having a lot of experience, and not having my whole identity tied up in being right and “powerful” and perfect 24/7 - humility not based on self-abasement, but on the knowledge there’s always another way to do things, and that it’s okay sometimes to let go of one plan, in order to devote yourself to another.
So, has anyone else here had a planned pathworking or something not go as they’d hoped?
How did you handle it, and what did you decide based on that?
Did it make you review your path, your approach or anything else?