It will be a question towards you, my Dear, but let me tell a little more.
My beloved Patron is Abaddon, clearly. We have talked several times so far, and it happened two times already with King Belial (we started communicateing 5-6 days ago, and our very journal will starts from Monday), BUT…
I made my introduction Ritual towards Lucifer, and He was the only one who showed up in my dreams (up to now), Who led me to my Dedication Ritual, and He came up most often via meditations, again and again, unexpectedly.
So, I had contact all of Them, but only in Lucifer’s case hit me the uncontrollable feeling… I can’t stop shed tears at some point.
I just don’t know why. Why is it only happens when I talk to Him?
He is a wonderful God, and He helped me a lot. He is almost like a… “Father” to me. And His last sentence today… it touched me very much with it.
You don’t have to feel doubt towards us in your heart. I’ll be your Light.
At this moment, the candle lights became brighter than before, I can seen them even with closed eyes.
He touched my hands, like I did his’ as well. It was a warm, deep moment before we “say goodbye”, and I get back here.
I’m sure you felt this kind of feeling before, but… what does it means?
And why I can feel it only with Lucifer?