I kept trying over and over to soul travel either through Belial’s sigil or just to leave my body but I had extreme fear. Especially when I had my eyes closed, and as I would sink deeper, I could see flashes of yellow and green light. It’s as if I had the sunlight directly in my eyes but I had my eyes closed, but this happened at 3-4 AM.
And it was one of the few times I was able to lucid dream, so my young genius attempted to somehow manifest a succubus in my dream to have sex with. I woke up with 13 scratch marks, on my chest, thighs, quads, etc. Coincidentally, I clipped my nails yesterday so they’re short and not sharp at all. Thoughts on what it could be? The scratches burn like crazy in the shower.
I would also like to add two days prior, I attempted a more basic soul travel in my sleep through Belial sigil and had 2 instances of sleep paralysis. Also might help to note that the past two days I’ve been experiencing extreme levels of anxiety, for reasons unrelated to magick though.
This seems related to your other issues. Earphones turning on at night? But this isn’t “funny little paranormal things” any more.
It sound like you have zero protections set up at all, and that’s a recipe for disaster for the best of us.
At this point you should in no way be calling yet more entities. You need to get rid of your infestation first. Something hates you and wants you afraid and disempowered - kill parasites with extreme prejudice.
Feeling fear, anxiety and dread with no obvious cause is another sign of psychic attack, often from parasites but can be from other humans.
The simple fact that you are trying to do advanced practices and are immediately attacked also points to extreme parasitism.
My advice if you want it,: Stop everything you are doing and fix your spiritual hygiene, parasite infestation as your highest priority.
We have free tutorial and I highly recommend the book in the first link below - by Robert Bruce.
Absolutely. I do have zero protections set up and never peformed LBRP or anything. I will right away perform the necessary things you recommended to banish. However can I ask how did you know right away I had no protections etc? Just because I was being attacked immediately?
Because all these issues are very basic, often reported by new users in you situation - new to magick, have natural skills and never had a teacher to help explain psychic defense. (I had my mother and intuition - I instinctively made wards as a kid out of rings of toys around my bed before I knew what I was doing or why.)
These don’t happen so badly when you have basic spiritual hygiene in place. You’re so much stronger than any lesser entity, avoiding 90% of parasitism is as easy as 1, 2, 3:
Set up personal mirror shields
Set up a ward - like a magickal fence or boundary - around your home
Banish unwanted energy from inside your boundaries before and after workings
Doing magick as light as meditation lights you up and attracts parasites. They don’t want you getting all serene and empowered, it’s like seeing a farm animal jumping the fence, and they come get you to put you back into fear and anger.
These are preventative, you can additionally practice affirmations and shadow work to continue to build your spiritual strength and become less visible - people not producing negative energy, want, hurt, anger, fear, envy, gluttony, all that - become unseeable and untouchable.
You can also go on the offensive directly, and I have found that very useful. The surgical application of righteous anger to attack them directly and kill them I have found sends a message to others to leave you alone or they will be attacked also, and they are not all stupid and automatic. I have a post in the parasites thread about burning parasites out of existence using fire.
Ok, sounds good. I was doing just that, randomly deciding to do magick, however basic, like from Damon Brand at like 4 AM, like any other meditation. I figured it might help add to the story, for anyone else I suppose, that I was in a super negative headspace when I had the sleep paralysis, watching porn until like 4 AM etc, just despising my life. And that in the dream where I had sleep paralysis, I was possessed by an evil spirit and was attempting to scream “PEFORM AN EXORCISM ON ME!” but no words would come out of my mouth. However, that same night, I also wanted to be possessed by Belial badly, so.. And that almost daily, I slept with the sigil of Belial with my blood on it right next to my pillow, and that he did tell me things in various dreams. But yea will now get that book from Robert Bruce and perform everything necessary. Thx again!