Saturday (Saturn), May 29, 2021
Dreams: None recalled.
Physical Notes: Finally got twelve hours sleep, Depression high, anxiety high. Mood low. Sore back, particularly middle spine and plates. Day one no THC/CBD. Seroquel added with Abilify, Zoloft and Kepppra. Out of Keppra today.
Mental Notes: Talking about and to myself here, before anyone gets a hair movement in their rear.
So, on the 220% goetia/shemhamphoresh issue, Ive begun to write down at least the Goetia, as I burnt the Shem Grimoire by Farrell, and so far I cannot locate a public document on the names of the angels. I suppose I could start with the pathnames, and the angels on the qabalah paths.
Anyway, then I started wondering why i cannot do such a thing, and some of it is swallowing pride and apologizing to others, even if I wasnt wrong, or alternatively calling them on their dogshit, and getting to restored bridges/relationships/dignities.
Either that or setting assholes up with narcotics posession with a cop right nearby to bust them, to remove their dignities.
As far as a silver tongue, carnegie and toastmasters.
Etc.
And since we all have access to the largest library on earth, the internet, we should all have the opportunity to have PhDs in a subject without the paper scroll confirming it.
So, growing up is an expectation, effort and not laziness or procrastination.
I guess today was the day they told me to grow the fuck up.
On the path of affliction or adveristy, this is probably a social norm.
Most of us know the Lesser Pentagram Ritual, some up to Star Ruby and such.
However, it seems to me odd that at a Malkuth level/Earth grade, we dont use a dodecagram and instead an invoking or banishing earth LRP/GRP.
Then at Luna/Air grade, we dont use an enneagram. Hod/water we dont use an Octagram, At Fire/Netzach no Heptagram Etc.
What is the issue in using these advanced polygram rtituals?
This. This is what Ive been looking for as a solution to the question, how to springload an advanced ritual or spell. Now to study enchantment and spelling.
Split screening is like viewing two photos of yourself side by side. An alternate view is a photo of yourself and a calendar next to it, and a seal of a spirit asude of a photo of you or another.
The latter is to send a spirit next to someone, the middle to play with tour personal time space line to merge, and the first to attyne two versuons of yourself.
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Angelic Mantras: Angelic Words of Power and Mantras - #4 by Keteriya
Remote Viewing: How I remote view
Layered Spell:
Egregore:
Synchronicities:
Readings: My notes and journals. Therapy journal and handouts. Golden Dawn ritual books by regardie and ciceros. Quareia study guides. BALG posts.
Psychic Exercises: NONE.
Scans: NONE.
Tarot readings. NONE
Synchronicities: NONE
Readings: BALG posts. Replies. My notes and journals.
Psychic Exercises: QC, White circle ward.
Tarot readings. NONE.
Object Sensing exercises - NONE.
Evocations - NONE.
Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - NOT DONE
Breathing - DONE. 4-4 count.
Tree merging/grounding - DONE.
Ward/Shield - NONE
Seven day observe mental chatter challenge. NOT STARTED
Location: Home.
Environment: Bedrooom listening to music just concentrating on breath and journal.
Posture:L shaped
Time: 5 minutes.
Distractions: Music, typing
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count. STARTED.
Visualizations - NONE
Rituals: QC
Wards- White circle DONE
Shields - QC/LIRP/QC.
Groundings - Mindfulness of breath