I’m on these sites of sugar baby and sugar daddy, I met a 38-year-old guy, married and looking for just casual – he can’t keep something fixed at the moment – the problem is I always judged people who are infidious and now I’m paying the price, because I’ve always found this thing about people without carater. Anyway, he sent me money before he met me personally, he found my pix (which is the payment method we use here in my country) through my cell phone number, so I found this very ugly and weird and returned the money to him, and then we left online online, and he left me at the same time, and he left me at the same thing. He came to pick me up at my place of work in a Mercedes and then dropped me off at home, we just kissed, nothing happened and he was super gentle with me.
We only went out once, but that impacted me a lot, because it made me get out of my routine and live something different, you know?
I know I’m never gonna change him, and he’s not gonna leave his wife for me, because there’s a lot of patrimony involved in this …
Remember I gave him my first kiss, at 22 years old, yes, I know, I’m slow rs
I’m very sad about something that didn’t even start right, but there was a involvement and they don’t need to talk about that I have to have self-loving love and etc because I don’t want to … I don’t want to follow it, but I don’t want to pursue it, even if it’s casually… I don’t want to interfere in his personal life. i want him, whatever!
And I don’t know the real reason I liked him so much, because he’s not physically handsome, it’s just mysterious and good talk and we also have many things in common – I just want to stop with these thoughts seems like another world thing, I never felt like that. When I like someone or I get very obsessed or I don’t feel anything…
I would like to know your opinion on this and very sincerely, but remember, I’m a girl with no experience… I just live in my world working and studying… I’m breaking free now at 22 and trying to enjoy life better.…
I consulted with mediums, tarot, out of desperation… I don’t see that we will have a future… but I wanted to at least have him with me sometimes… could the spiritual side help me with this? Remembering that he’s from Candomblé, I’m afraid I’ll do something and then he’ll find out…