I am able to just about everything and anything, but one thing i cannot do is call on one specific entity, since a child i was haunted this being, manifested blood hand prints all over my mother’s room.
This entity was always seen standing by my cot as a baby, it moved my cot at nights to.
We moved and my mother cleansed the house, it still came back then as a young child, i would begin seeing portals physically opening in my bedroom walls, with being coming out of it, i told my mother she said it was my imagination. Until one night she heard a loud noise, she could see the same being and a shadow like spiral on the wall and my bed was shaking like fuck.
We moved again and again, we had priests, witches, psychics you name it, they tried all they could but this spirit would not budge, it still returned. It tried taking me once with it, but i closed my eyes and used all my will as 6 year old child to stop what i was seeing, this resulted in me closing my spiritual abilities.
Later on in life i reawakened them, but it would still follow me just it became silent, it used the name " The crooked man ", this spirit however was not a thought form or servitor or an egregore. It was far beyond powerful and influential. When i started calling on this being to understand the situation, it wouldn’t appear.
I tried everything, meditation, soul travel, shamanism, divination, evocation, channeling even the demon’s i worked with refused to tell me what the ’ crooked man ’ was, i understand the folk lore of the crooked man, but i believe this spirit used that as a mask to get close to me.
I had powerful magician’s try everything and still they can’t get to it, no matter who me, or someone else no matter how much power we send out, the spirit won’t budge it remains silent hidden and waiting. This entity i can still feel it watch me but no matter what magick is performed its invulnerable which never has happened for me.
Even Forum members and past covens and lodges i’ve been in couldn’t summon it either, so this is my confession, the biggest mystery to me, this is my confession.