I awoke last year and it wasn’t easy. I evoked a demon who knew me from the dark ages. He assisted me in his physical form with the other ancient ones in sacrificial offerings. I was raised Babtist in this lifetime and believe me it has been a rollarcoster. I evoked my old demon friend not remembering my past and he stayed with me for two days. I’m thankful he knew me because I started getting sick and had to call on the Angels for help and they came down and they spoke in a language I wasn’t familiar with at that time and made GUSION leave. It was because I didn’t know he couldn’t hear me in my mind at the time. He made spirals on my stomach over and over till I fell asleep the night before I got sick. He was amazing and forgiving of my ignorance and loss of memory. It has been a year of fighting with myself and remembering what I’ve done in the past life. I remember they made us avert our eyes we weren’t allowed to see them. Lucifer came and held my hand while I cried for 2 hours last year. It was to a point I left my body and fled to heaven in the security of GODS throne where He held me and gave me an eternal gift. I came back down and faced the ancient ones and Satan was pleased ironically that I fought for myself in vain. I found a power inside of me that I can possess any spirit which it was supposed to be the other way around. I got really scared and I mean TERRIFIED and I called someone and needed help which I didn’t mean to disrespect him but I had nobody. I was alone and TERRIFIED but finally I fell asleep but later that night I heard the one I called voice to let go and I finally let it go. THANK YOU! You know who and I thank you very much! Anyway, I’ve been with Azazel and he’s helped me considerably with the deep dive into my soul and he told me that I have made enough sacrifices and I don’t need to fear any of my demon friends because they were there with me in the beginning when they walked the earth. I have cried so much that I cannot cry anymore. I don’t have anyone to talk to but them. My heart and soul are pure and I would never hurt anyone yet the ancient ones have been by my side throughout my lifetimes. I remember being born. I remember one dark soul on my left side and one pure light one on my right just before entering my infant body. Is there ANYONE out there who is an old soul like me? They tell me I am a chaos magician. Imagine having to pull yourself up from demons who you’ve been told were evil yet they weren’t when they came to me nicely. I’m not going to tell everything on here for some things must be kept secret they say. Thanks for listening.
I must add that any old soul out there like me who was born a mage and had their God powers very young and didn’t understand them who may have made bad things happen you must forgive yourself. For that will be the only way to ascend is to master yourself.
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I just began practicing in this lifetime as instructed by Azazel in Chaos magician. I’m hesitant because I don’t think anyone would believe me about my past lives and I can’t blame them. My areas of interest are horses really but I’m just remembering how to use herbs and spells. I use my God powers when I need things. I just really wanted to find someone who also remembers the ancient ones and the dark ages. It’s very important to me. They say I’m supposed to metamorphosis into what they and my higher self meant for me to become. I’ve been running away from them since I was little and they aren’t going away because I called them and it’s best for my evolution.
I mean, how many months or years (in this lifetime) have you been practicing?
What are you areas of magickal interest that bring you to this forum?
I don’t talk a whole lot about my past lives either but UPG (unverified Personal Gnosis) is UPG. Sometimes it’s relevant to the topic and if not, I leave it out.
Eh, as far as I know, there’s only really one golden rule on this planet, and it’s that free will is paramount. There IS not “supposed to” anything, it’s always your choice. Maybe you had plans and forgot, as we do, but it’s still up to you and nobody else. In my opinion. It’s always nice o have help though, in which case you want to find out more about what’s on offer to know if you want to go there, again, imo. It’ll all come with time anyway, if it’s designed into the plan it’ll sort itself out.
I’ve been practicing off and on a year. I usually just call out to the angels or demons before I ask them for what I want or need then they do it. I really need to know how to evoke them individually instead of just my spirit friends who already know me that listen when I call them. I’m kind of a mess as far as order goes. I’m working on it though. E.A. Told me to read the Evoking Eternity and I did which brought back some deep memories anyway it’s hard being alone in this so I’m asking for help with familiarity. I’m coming into some money soon and I would like to assist in your cause.
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Thank u!!! Is there anyone who can help me shed the rest of my babtist self because I’m tired of going back and forth? I need to fully integrate my past lives into this one cause it’s frightening!!!