Final update from today I think. Just got back. We finally got a visit cleared with the doctor (just 5 minutes but feeling a bit of hope).My partner and I saw her in the ICU and the prognosis is grave not likely to recover from the lung carcinoma that is making it difficult for her to breathe outside of the oxygen tank right now.
Overall, however, and unexpectedly, she is improving- eating and drinking normally again, much more alert than yesterday and has some of her “spark” back (apparently got a little frisky with a parakeet that she met in passing, that’s my girl❤️), but it’s untreatable from a surgical/chemo standpoint and now focusing on comfort, accommodating her wants and needs, then reassess in the morning. I guess all depending on how she progresses overnight.
in the case of continuing palliative care at home, we were given info for equipment we could set up at home for her, but I won’t extend her suffering if she’s really ready to go, reminding myself that this is all about her, not me. I guess next steps all depend on how she progresses tonight, how she feels, and hope for continued improvements in her condition.
We were told that with oxygen support and with the recommended medical setup at home, hopeful further improvement, it’s possible she can comfortably potentially live on for some time (unknown timeframe, doctor didn’t mention and said she’d have a better estimate tomorrow after further observation), but being cancer, and unpredictable, anything can happen and I will do right by her whichever way this goes
Sorry for yesterday’s mess of not thinking straight I got a half hour nap in this morning and recognize that logic/rationality had completely left me yesterday and I was desperate and in a state I should have kept myself offline. Stronger today both of us I guess good sign
Before leaving, I sang to her again, left some flowers from her favorite tree (the doctor arranged to safely have it in her tank) and the sigil I made for Ariel invocation, which has a piece of Lemurian quartz attached, is also taped to the outside of her tank.
She got excited about the smell of the flowers, so I hope keeping the flowers there gives her hope and can remind her of the happy times.
with the information we have now, for tonight we’re going to keep her in the hospital where she has critical medical support (oxygen) and comforting palliative care and continue waiting for updates from the hospital.
So much gratitude and endless thanks again to everyone for your responses, time, support, advice, workings, well wishes and for your positive energies/thoughts❤️
The huge response from everyone and all the advice and information provided gave me strength to be better for her along with learning a lot about how to be the caretaker she needs in this time.