Tuesday (Mars), May 25, 2021
Dreams: None recalled.
Physical Notes: Fair/multiple broken sleep pattern. Attitude positive. Energy medium. Depression low, anxiety high.
Mental Notes: Getting better with not freaking out after smoking weed in public by microdosing and micro exposure to public, with or without earplugs.
Synchronicities: Looked for none and received none.
Readings: My notes and journals. Therapy journal and handouts. Golden Dawn ritual books by regardie and ciceros. Quareia study guides. Grimoires. BALG posts. Replies. Profile topics by senior BALG members. My notes and journals. Modern magick, angel grimoire, other grimoires.
Psychic Exercises: 54321 closed eye visualization. DONE.
LRP, QC.
Scans: NONE.
Tarot readings. Day Meditation on card pulled – Peh yesterday, Kaph today – Kaph, or the Wheel of Fortune, was pulled today. Esoteric meaning hand or fist. Well, woven hands are common in a lot of places. Karma, perhaps? Time cycle, turn of the wheel. Mercy and Magnificance (nice day today) of Victory. Jupiter acting thru Jupiter directly upon Venus. DONE
Object Sensing exercises - NONE.
Evocations - NONE.
Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - NOT DONE
Breathing - DONE. 4-4 count.
Tree merging/grounding - 54321 DONE.
Ward/Shield - NONE
Seven day observe mental chatter challenge. NOT STARTED
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count. STARTED.
Visualizations - NONE
Rituals: NONE.
Wards- NONE
Shields - NONE
Groundings - 54321
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Wednesday (Mercury), May 26, 2021
Dreams: None recalled.
Physical Notes: Fair/multiple broken sleep pattern. Attitude positive. Energy medium. Depression low, anxiety high. In evening before midnight, had idea while organizing playlists for affirnmations and shamanaism, to try to pronounce two letter workds through english alphabet. Upon hitting EhAh (EA), it pronounced once as Yah. Not too far away from Ay-Uh-Huh-Yay from Middle Pillar Ritual, was going from A-B then decided to hit vowels first and stopped there.
Mental Notes: Getting better with not freaking out after smoking weed in public by microdosing and micro exposure to public, with or without earplugs.
Synchronicities: EA pronounced for english by a shamanic chant would eventuially be heard as Yah (Jah).
Readings: My notes and journals. Therapy journal and handouts. Golden Dawn ritual books by regardie and ciceros. Quareia study guides. Grimoires. BALG posts. Replies. Profile topics by senior BALG members. My notes and journals. Modern magick, angel grimoire, other grimoires.
Psychic Exercises: 54321 closed eye visualization. DONE.
LRP, QC.
Scans: NONE.
Tarot readings. Day Meditation on card pulled – Peh yesterday, Kaph today – Kaph, or the Wheel of Fortune, was pulled today. Esoteric meaning hand or fist. Well, woven hands are common in a lot of places. Karma, perhaps? Time cycle, turn of the wheel. Mercy and Magnificance (nice day today) of Victory. Jupiter acting thru Jupiter directly upon Venus. DONE
Object Sensing exercises - NONE.
Evocations - NONE.
Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE BUT REMINDED OF IT
Core Shamanism - STARTING REVIEW/INFO GATHERING
Breathing - DONE. 4-4 count.
Tree merging/grounding - 54321 DONE.
Ward/Shield - NONE
Seven day observe mental chatter challenge. NOT STARTED
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count. STARTED.
Visualizations - NONE
Rituals: NONE.
Wards- NONE
Shields - NONE
Groundings - NONE
Mindfulness Exercise- 54321