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Okay, so here we go with another update …

First of all, working with Azazel has once again given me results. I’ve made a habit of gazing at his sigil and formulating a spontaneous petition, and so far the events that followed were very similar every time: At first I am falling into a black hole for one or two days, feeling very down and depressed, after that a strong sense of what to do next arises. First time around, I suddenly changed my daily routine, got up at 6 am every day for a week (I usually work in the evenings and rarely get up before 10) and spent every free minute contemplating and feeding my mind with all kinds of teachings; second time was the “fuck it” moment where I decided to drop out of my current situation and start my dating game again; and now I feel a very strong urge to discipline my mind and get rid of all the monkey brain bullshit, which has always been a huge issue for me due to ADHD - once again this feels kinda unpleasurable, but I can also sense that it’s a necessary part of a huge shift. Long story short: Azazel has been very kind with me and I will continue working with him on a weekly basis.

I also just finished a five days series of petitioning to Sargatanas with a ritual I kinda cobbled together out of intuition:

• First of all I placed three red candles on a table, with my amulet of his sigil in front of the center candle. I sat in front of this and placed my left hand on the amulet. Then I smoked a cigarette, putting my focus on the taste and sharing it with Sargatanas; after that, I put the focus on my heart chakra, sending the energy through my left hand into the amulet (this felt very intense and made me tremble every time). Then I took the amulet from the table, gazed at it for a minute or two and put it around my neck, thus ending the first part.

• After placing a drawing of the sigil on the table, I practiced void meditation according to this post by @AdamThoth, which has been very effective with putting me into a trance state:

Psychic Development for the Magician

I decided to go ahead and cut and paste some of my psychic development methods in it’s own thread as to not have to keep sending it via individual PM. I will start this off with the Original Void meditation. It’s what I have developed it to be the best sort of universal meditation to get you in the “zone” from where one can astral travel, spirit eavesdropping and many other activities one needs to be in a theta state. Binaural beats can be used to enhance the meditative state. This is it, thou…

• Then I gazed into the sigil, chanted the enn, visualized the desired result with strong emotion (this worked very well, making me tremble once again) and worded my petition (asking for my love interest to be enflamed with passion for me) in two short sentences - done.

I don’t expect any immediate results coming out of this, but it certainly felt “right” while practicing the ritual, so I’ll just let it go and assume that something has changed due to my workings.

My next step will be ritual 1 from Magickal Seduction, starting on thursday (new moon). I started preparing today by reading the alchemical rite that’s included out loud just to get a grip of the pronounciation, and after finishing the words I suddenly felt very energized and uplifted - I take that as a good sign for sure.

Besides that, I also create and charge sigils more or less at random, whenever I feel like it and without much consideration, sometimes aimed at my main goal, but also adressing other things where I’d like to see some change happen. This attitude came up thanks to some very valuable postings by @Norski , which I hereby recommend to absolutely everyone who (like me) is new to all this and confused on how to get into the right mindset:

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