I’m as new to this as I can get, please go easy.
My partner and I met in bad places. We made something better, I didn’t really understand what she was going through at first but I kept studying, life moved on… I’ll say this as simply as I can, she’s possessed and full of evil assholes that are using her for something and I can’t figure out what. They just know I’m an impediment to whatever they need her to accomplish.
A few of them gave me names and one of them has found a way to SPECIFICALLY block his name from my memory. I’m new to witchery but I know I can do some crazy shit. I want to list the ones I’ve spoken to but I don’t know if that…brings bad shit on me or something? They made it seem like all I had to do was think of them but it hasn’t defeated me so fuck those guys. I want to know what they want. All I know is…they’re big players who don’t really feel like playing. My biggest problem right now is one writhing biblical entity (well I guess they’re all biblical but this one is the main ‘character(s)’ of Madness by Tracy Groot. They’re gross and I hate it. They’re the hardest on her, I think.
A while ago, at the beginning of our friendship, there was one demon that wasn’t a demon. I didn’t know anything about anything, let alone what a nephilim was. I went along with so much, too much. I should have paid more attention. It, He, died. That’s the only way to say it. I think the ones that want my wife depleted and violently ill killed him somehow. Removed him, took him off the playing field for telling me too much about the ‘past’…but he still exists! I think. I had this dream, after a spell I made up. I don’t know how to do it again. I know he’s coming back I just don’t know how to help
I need to discuss things with some of these entities WITHOUT going through her as the vessel, she’s off the radar right now, and I’m having an excruciating time with…I guess you’d call it dream walking? Lucidity? I need resources, maybe training. Hell maybe just someone to talk to. I never knew there’d ever be a way to discuss these types of things with others. I don’t even know where to start.
I’m a damn good diviner if I do say so, but tarot cards and playing cards are only like…one type of smoke in my utility belt. I need a grappling hook, or some batarangs. I’m open to questions publicly and/or privately, am a patient and communicative learner.