Aww, I found that rather adorable. Sometimes all you need to know is that someone values you and cares that you stick around, and will fight for you when you can’t fight for yourself. Awesome experience 
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That sounds so Romanian. 
Sorry, found it funny. Don’t know if you are from Romania, but Romanian people always say that.
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Hello there fellow Romanian 
, lots of people from Ro lol
@DarkLady
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various things… 
-being a dark edge lord in a cult-current and NEVER doing any energy work outside of maybe some occaisonal raising of the black flame, whilst also shedding lots of blood and pouring all my energy into killing hostile entities
-or how about the time, i when i triedto bond with someone who i wanted to teach some things, and ended up being drained terribly intense 
and had to cut the cord minutes after making the bond
-or how about, when akreoth (in what later became clear was a simulation) told me to fight hezryn, who(in that illusion) was binding and raping beloved eldraath… -he told me to fight him WITHOUT using the black speach (akreoth’s) i tried but the false image of hezryn just kept going, so i got desperate and used the speech -i would not let my love be harmed like that…aaaand for that i got branded and tortured. because apparently, the intention and attempt alone, to kill a blighted lord gets punished with… torture and soul death. by some higherdimensional fuckery i was saved though. forgiven and everything, i died. like actually died. had to prove myself after i returned into my vessel.
-or how about…in my early years, when i spilled more andm ore nad more of my blood, just to make offerings to lilith? who in turn didnt do shit for me, but give me some symbolic ass dreams.
what else…
OH! one time i kept chanting FOR THREE HOURS akreoths deathly ass speech, to revive the gods and pantheons of this world, because i thought they needed some help with returning to dominance in this realm, and that i was somehow making allies this way… idk if they appreciated my help, but i was seriously fucked up after this.
to put that into perspective:that shit is so strong, you create and destroy with single repetitions -while i chanted for HOURS, thousands of repetitions.
i have more stories but…you get the gist
i have been a big dum dum…yeah
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Mysteries of Crucifixion (Golden Dawn curriculum) and magickal protection by Damon Brand.
Then (while manic) ran through the ghettos and sets (gang territory) through southeast San Diego.
It happened in 2019 but I talked to a cop and PERT specialist yesterday (I was on a 51/50) and they were telling me I was crazy, and that I could’ve got shot or worse.
But hey the protection magick worked and I really took crucifixion and self Sacrifice literally.
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Doing the Qlipoth invocations in a day then a few days later doing all of the tunnels of set in a day.
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dear sir, 
you sure have some fine testicles
… sounds like a weekend 
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" What’s the most retarded thing you’ve done in the occult?"
Join this forum
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Well honestly I took it well. I saw that he actually cared and showed me his feelings rather then just stand there and say “Don’t be sad. Smile.” Like I’m so sick of hearing “It’s ok. It’s ok.” Like I don’t mind it. But when I get depressed like that and all I hear is “It’s ok. Don’t be sad…” It feels like they were not showing genuine feelings. But when he came along and basically showed me he was pissed that I basically was thinking those thoughts about myself and showed it, it was really refreshing.
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Toxic positivity pretty near being at its finest.
I’ve also had spirits push me around a bit. I don’t always enjoy it, but they’re there for me in ways people I think don’t want to be for various reasons. They’ve been decently respectful though the times I have stepped away from the occult.
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Yeah agreed. Iv basically had this going on when I was heavy into RHP and working with angels. Gods I remember how I couldn’t even be sad. They would raise my energy in a way that I couldn’t exactly be sad yet I wasn’t truly happy. I’m so glad I just listened to my gut for once and went into this path.
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I ate the pound cake that Saint expedite was supposed to have. I was hungry. I was young and hungry.
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Got involved with demons before I knew what I was doing at all. This was years ago, evoking (how I knew how to at the time anyway), without a circle or any protection besides maybe a LBRP.
Asking spirits for help for others, and designing my own rituals for them.
“No balls, no babies”
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Guys make sure to keep holding everyone who hates it here hostage.
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LOL that was a good one
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One of the many things was entering into a sex magick group working, without food and sleep deprived, whilst being possessed by a male entity having sexual intercourse with the feminine possessed vessel which Lilith occupied. The power of the orgasm with no sleep or food caused me to pass out and almost crack my head on a damn stone altar 
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i feel that. some entities did that for me
i was to no longer stand in the way of my own wealth, so i was raised so far i could barely feel anything. tbh, stuff like that makes you wonder who you are when you are not suffering, and shows you how much we build our identities around what aches us.
on the other hand, i realized that things like fear or malice can open up your senses.
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i probably shouldnt be so confused by mere 4 words, but i am
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I sort of ‘made fun’ of a very ancient spirit so…
Spend all night throwing up, headaches, by the dawn an enormous light manifested in the bathroom, don’t know if it was the same spirit checking how things went and after that what I remember is that I lost consciousness, I fainted.
I woke up in the hospital.
Don’t do that, kids. Don’t be like me 
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