Made me interest? This question for me is… something like a person asking you about: “Why do you interested in everyday things in your human life?” You can not avoid and ignore them, because this is a part of your life, and not a decision.
Now this is what is the answer in my case.
I grew up with Demons and with hundreds of different entities around me. They tought me things, and followed me, wished for me. But my life and death game was very tense in the beginnings, and I’ve gotten saved several times by my beloved ancestors. - what does it meant? They want me to continue. And I will.
It was clear - this is my/our choosen path to me, and I must going forward, no matter what. Even death won’t stop me. Cancer, drowning, deadly infections, accidents? - all of these are lost the fight against me, in a wonderful way, and now I’m strong enough to do it by myself.
I’ve used strong spells and knew the magick outside my “consciousness” from my very young ages (I saw the future - even accidents - I’ve caused several deaths within 2 days to 2 weeks and healed or caused illness and bad or good luck). Most of knowledge about magick and about the Gods came from me, because I’ll be honest, I’ve never read any of books about magick and occultism before (or watching any videos, at all). And that’s it… I knew things already, from my birth, without any support.
In my life, I’ve I met again and again with Lucifer and some other Deities - I felt something strange connection towards Them even when I was 12-14 years old, but I’ve just ignored these - , and after long years, at Marc 6. I’ve accepted Abaddon’s calling, which changed my whole life, and droved me my beloved Deities Arms.
But lot of people - even magickians, sorcerers - they turned away from/or against me after they figured out my truth and powers (they do it even nowadays as well / but they can not touch me) - and some of them started attacking me. I’ve had no choice - I had continue learning without anyone’s guide (as I do all the time - and what could I say, even in my childhood I’ve got no father or loving mother, at all) and growing, growing as fast as I can. I knew already what do I want. Became more, became better.
Lucifer, King Belial, Abaddon, Azazel, Sitri : my beloved Family - my Love towards You never goes out.
Pazuzu: You are a fantastic Lover, ‘Father’ and Teacher Who helped me against a pack of parasites’ attacks, then holded on His hands.
Chernobog I’ll see you later, I know it, you has some fantastic advices to me.
What is my goal here?
To become more, to become everything.
To call out my true powers, hiding inside me, and find out my relationships’ root with Those Deities who are called me, guides me and loves me.
Who was I… who am I really - They kept telling me to accept what They told me, the signs of who I am.
― Merging with Lucifer, when the time has come. I know, we’re both wants it.
Keep helping and/or saving others here and outside the BALG, as I’ve always did, and give them what I’ve never had. Love, care, helping hand, protection - I don’t need even a single “thank you” - I just do it, because I can.