Well at this point i feel like i am lil Child who is guided by hand by Godform Lucifer right now.
I feel like ive been the last 5 years of my practice until now the sixt especially in my beginning a traumatized kid who really didnt recognized his open bleeding bruises. And wounds…
In my prayers i allways state by all these years that Satanas Lucifer Amaymon (my trinity version of god i worship and work with in my 666 project)
That he shall guide me unto truth whisdom and understanding and he shall protect me and show me how it is…
. And he does this today more only bc i have certainly grown and am real devoted to him and to myself. And in meditation mode unbrocken! Never stop! LETS GOOOOO Well it shouldnt be a motivation post lol.
I had in my beginning years a premature enlightenment guided by Michael and was posessed by him and on some occaisons by my ancestor grandpa. It was only posible bc i certainly have removed the I from me.
And well my 16 year most part uneducated, but fiercely inspired dedicated ass didnt know much bether
With wich forces he recons with and where this is going.
INTO DESASTER. Into mental hospitalizations - retarded institutions isolation and depression and on some ocasions lighter drug abuse such as cigarets and medications and all this standard shit.
Well you can understand why i was so pissed about Michael and Jesus Christ these where i worshiped worked with to achive my sidhis.
Well we forget that for now.
My last 6 or so months where really changing for me positively.
I am in a mode to make peace with my traumatizing past and heal it completely and end it in that way. . And look for my future so that i can make bether decisions in the present for this brighter future.
It is like trowing all these skeletons out of my closet and give it a proper burial. And the the blessing been giveth by Satans Lucifer Amaymon to do that.
THERE FOLLOW MY RECENT COMMUNICATION IN MEDITATION WITH LUCIFER MICHAEL AND ME:
I: Why am i so pissed about Michael all the time?
Lucifer:I allways asked myself this question. For what?
I: Should i forgive Michael and move on? Should i try Kabbalah or betther yet practice it?
Lucifer:The decision is allways yours. You know ive allways led you into thinks where you can certainly grow it was a suggestion not only by me. But also your intuition.
I:Well i feel like it i should try it at least.
I: I know i cant explore the whole Kabbalah if i have beef with Michael, so it would be best to make ends meet to do that.To move on.
Lucifer :Go on my litle child
A VISION APEART FROM AN ANGRY EYE Right side its pupils Dark unto deep dark blue. In it a white shining logos of an Dragon.
MICHAEL: What do you want out of it you are a Dragon of Satan.
I:I know you are angry at me. I understand. Well i know i was too emotional and didnt know bether back than.
I: I want to forgive you and Jesus Christ. I want to explore the Kabbalah.
Michael disapeared and came back.
MICHAEL: Dont expect much. I let you pass unto this sphere and let it expirience what it should be expirienced into my sphere. More not.
I:Well i forgive you and i forgive myself.
MICHAEL :The offering you thought about isnt a necesety. But if you do it i certainly will recognize it that you take it siriously.
We at the same time
I:We can start over
MICHAEL:We can start over
And all this my deep sensation and intuition tells me is guided by Lucifer. He allways says to me and gives signs to me i should never be prejudicing thinks especially spirituality. I should allways make my own expiriences first before i belief others.
Before when i say it is fake shit or it does not work for me. Never belief thinks know and expirience this thinks first!
Hail Satanas Lucifer Amaymon
Thank you Michael.
We see us again.