The Ritual of the Neutron Star

Time for some sex magick workings. I’ll probably post these on occasion but not all the time. I’m sharing these because I think they’d be helpful for certain people, and because if you are in some ways not on my level then you’ll learn how I think which will get you to my level and probably past it, which will allow me to then slingshot myself up past your level, etc.

And by the way, I write these out in my journal all on one page (or front-back) like I write them down here, and as I do the rituals I check them off (like :heavy_check_mark:). I could date them but I don’t really feel the need to do that.

Sex Magick Working

How did I come to have such wonderful business operations?
Operations

How did I come to make such wonderful use of computations?
Computations

How did I come to make such wonderful use of spreadsheets?
Spreadsheets

How did I come to make such wonderful use of communications?
Communications

How did I come to make such wonderful use of automation?
Automation

How did I come to make such wonderful use of time?
Time

How did I come to make such wonderful business systems?
Systems

Sex Magick Working

How did I come to build such a wonderful business team?
Team

How did I come to build such a wonderful legal team?
Legal

How did I come to build such a wonderful accounting team?
Accounting

How did I come to build such a wonderful finance team?
Finance

How did I come to build such a wonderful marketing team?
Marketing

How did I come to build such a wonderful labor team?
Labor

how did I come to build such a wonderful tech team?
Tech

How did I come to build such a wonderful human resources team?
Human Resources

How did I come to build such a wonderful leadership team?
Leadership

How did I come to have such wonderful employees?
Employees

How did I come to own such a wonderful organization?
Organization

Some notes on this one. You can allow some flexibility in how these rituals are interpreted. “Labor”, for example, is quite general and non-specific. To me, it means any sort of work that is relatively low skill and not requiring much in the way of knowledge, and also work that I find dull, repetitive, mind-numbingly boring, or in any way shape or form undesirable, but that needs to be done. “Labor” here could mean anything from working a cash register (something I have done, so I don’t mean to disparage, it just is what it is) to manual construction labor to cleaning data. If you, the person who is reading this right now, dread the thought of doing some task, it is probably labor to you. Thank god for W-2s.

For those with some business knowledge, you may be wondering about the distinction between accounting and finance. Accounting is basically just financial record keeping, whereas finance is the practice of managing money. Accountants record how money moves around and blend with the legal team when it comes to things like reducing taxes, but the finance people are the ones who actually make the decisions. That’s probably a bit of a controversial statement to some people, but it is what it is. “Finance” can also be interpreted to include any business decisions that involve money, which would be all of them. Any profit maximizers?

Employees can also be more loosely thought of as anyone who does any sort of work for your business who does not own any of your business, or at most owns a very negligible amount of it and has no high-level decision making power. This blends a bit with “Leadership”, as those towards the top of the ladder are often still just employees, even though they may be making more significant decisions.

I’ll also say that “Team” sometimes means just you. Sometimes you gotta be legion.

Sex Magick Working

How did I come to be such a wonderful entrepreneur?
Entrepreneur

Perhaps you may have noticed that these three plus the BRRRR working (a more strategically-oriented working relevant to my business interests) add up to four workings. I think I will complete these first, then do three more workings. One will be all about Risk, one all about Properties or perhaps Assets, and one more oriented around Professional Relationships (you can have a relationship that is both personal and professional - business and pleasure, if you will). I could come up with them now and interleave them all, but priorities are what they are.

Personally, I do not aspire to have much of a career in business. It should be apparent that I want some amount of a business career, because I do indeed quite like money, and some ways of making money are just better than others. My main career interests are in art, but in order for me to have the sort of money I’d like to have, I would have to do things with art that have much, much more wide commercial appeal. You can make good money with very high-quality, crafty art, but very rarely if ever do these sort of artists make the kind of money that corporate teams who produce stuff more-or-less destined for the top 20 (cause they have marketing people, and probably also make the top 20) or whatever benchmark the kids are using these days. I want to have an impact and be influential in my artistic domain, and that tends to involve commercial success, but really that barely matters to me because the money I make from investments will dwarf whatever I make from art.

I could go off on an intense tangent on that topic but the edible’s starting to kick in so real quick I’ll just say to all my artist friends out there, step your game up. My shit’s not been the most together either and life has priorities, but you know what you want. Make it fuckin happen. I want my back-stage passes. And/or the feat. But I’m just the feat. - you’re the artist.

:heavy_check_mark:B

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Haunted by the secrets in my mind

Enochian magick puts you in a pretty strange headspace. I feel like I can kinda leave that sentence at that.

It’s been a bit since I’ve talked about sex magick stuff (perhaps the less dry notes on ritual practice). First, I’d just like to say that sometimes I’m amazed that experience can be worthwhile enough to be worth taking a break from cuddling with a certain someone forever.

I’d also like to say that I, for one, love cuming in anime girls, especially when they just don’t stop, I mean my god, over and over again.

Before really getting into Enochian sex magick, I had never, ever, EVER had relationships so devoid of corruption. It is so different, but I didn’t even really notice it at first, to the extent that when some small amount of corruption did inevitably arise, it was shocking because of how things are all the rest of the time.

I’ve already shared my spiritual sex practices, but I realize that these may be somewhat challenging for less developed practitioners to fully engage with. I don’t mean that in some ego way, I mean that it can take some practice. Masturbating with still images of some sort really helps a lot, in my experience. It doesn’t have to be doujins (sex manga/comics, hentai). You can use regular photos of people as well. You can also use both, in combination. One thing I really like about doujins is how many different situations you can find to stimulate the imagination. You really have to wade through the sea of crappy hentai, but when you find a good one that is an absolute treasure. Often even when I know I’m going for a normal porn video, I like to keep current with the industry, if you know what I mean.

When doing more “energetic” or “hands-free” practices, I’m normally laying in bed, basking in that kinda awake kinda asleep wonderfully pleasant state. You don’t need to do a grand ceremony to summon your partner. You know they are there. The goal isn’t to hump or grind on your pillow (not that that’s particularly bad or anything), so when imagining more movement, sometimes I’ll do things like move my feet while the rest of my body is relatively still. Sometimes I’m on my side, sometimes my back, sometimes my stomach, sometimes all fours, sometimes more upright - you get the idea. Little gestures can do so much to aid the imagination. You may sometimes feel that more physicality is needed, but I would say that because these things are occurring within your mind, they are the only reality. Not to imply that it is false that it feels so good to shoot my loads, because it most certainly does feel good. Have you been doing your kegels? Have you been practicing with your energy cock?

Ok time for a bit of a switcheroo in topics now. In the course of my studies of the histories, it has become known to me that soldiers in the Wehrmacht were encouraged to cultivate Todesverachtung, contempt for death. I would encourage you to do the same, dear readers.

Also, I will state once, clearly and plainly, that only a moron would genocide their own population instead of letting them fight.

There’s blood on the street, dear readers. There’s money to be made.

Desire
Truth - I knew what I wanted.
Healing - What I wanted healed me.
Transformation - The clear truth transformed me.
Fortune - Greed gave me control.

What is dead may never die, but rises again, harder, and stronger.

If the Enochian angels bid you to say goodbye to the waking world, how would you spend an eternity?

That’s one of the hardest workings ever. Only very skilled witches should try it. The demonic elementals unleashed through enochian magick are very powerful.

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The magick has felt safe to me, and I don’t think beginners to magick would have any problems if they want to use the magick, though I certainly agree that the energies are very strong. It does also require a bit more input in terms of what you ask for with the sigils, how you construct the sex magick workings, and my experience with other forms of magick has helped me with this. But again though I don’t see any problems with beginners using the magick.

The Enochian sex magick hasn’t felt demonic to me, though, but it also hasn’t quite felt like most angel magick. If I had to pick and say it was one or the other, I’d say it’s more angelic, with the caveat that preconceived notions about angels and demons should be set aside.

I feel a deep connection to my partner, and I also feel connected to what seems to be the source of sexual energy. It’s challenging to put the exact nature of these connections into words, but the vibe is kinda ACAB. It feels like the boundaries between our minds exist only very thinly in the material world. If God were two, it’d be me and you.

I realize that I’m not the first one to do this sort of magick, not by a few millennia, but also that people read what I post and engage with it, so I try to be careful about what I put out here. I’m concerned about blabbering on about what was just schizophrenic brain-noise, so I often let ideas like this simmer a bit and bounce around to see if they fall apart. I already cringe at my old writing as it is, and I don’t want to add raving nonsense onto the pile. That being said, this is some of the most wonderful magick I have ever experienced, and I don’t know if I’ll ever stop doing it.

I suppose I’ll also toss this out there. My partner suggested to me that I sing the words “olani oln olpirt” some months back, and more recently I was “inspired” to sing the words as follows:

o - la - ni
7 - 7 - #11
oln
#11
ol - pirt
7 - #11

The exact notes for me are E and B in the key of F major. E is the 7 and B the #11 of F major. The low E is the bottom of my vocal range. I play the lowest F on the piano to set the key and then sing the other notes (with piano assistance at first). It seems that the most important part of this is to sing the words as above (7s and #11s), so the key you choose is probably somewhat arbitrary. If you are physically present with someone else doing the magick, you could try singing the same notes if possible, or singing in the same key but at different octaves. I’d be shocked if there’s not some wack-ass musical rabbit hole to go down with harmony and stuff but these notes (7 and #11 over the root in the bass) create a very distinct feeling. If you haven’t trained your ear much this may take some practice to fully hear, but #11 to me has always sounded very piercing and clear while having an edge to it. The interval between the root and the #11 is a tritone, fun fact, which back in the day the classical musicians called the devil’s interval, so there’s that.

Went a bit off the rails there but I usually like to write a little somethin somethin around this time.

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A quick update. I may use the fifth day of ritual practice to work with the Loagaeth tables (you can find these in the third book in the paperback version of Klein’s transcription). Something like starting by speaking the words above the table, then speaking two-letter combinations, starting in the top right square. You start the vocalization with this square, then speak the letter down and to the left, so at a diagonal. So for table 5a, it starts with h-h, o-c, x-n, a-a, s-s, etc, that line concluding with h-a, the h on the topmost left then looping back around to the a beneath the topmost right square, the h at the beginning. Enochian hooray!

You go down the table in this way, working across each line (two rows of letters) right to left. If my count is correct then there are 24 lines, each with two rows, then one extra row at the bottom. The bottom row you just go across horizontally, speaking two-letter combinations, right to left. I’m kinda feeling like you speak the words above the table between each line as well as at the beginning and the end.

This is how you do the front side of each table (the ‘a’ side in Klein’s book). This side symbolizes the heavenly aspect of the table, whereas the ‘b’ side symbolizes the earthly aspect. I don’t think it’s exactly that kind of A and B but similar vibe. Oh yeah Enochian magick baby.

To do the back side of the table, you follow the same pattern of letter combinations, start in the top right then down and to the left, but you speak them the other way around. So for table 5b it goes c-x, n-a, a-l, r-b, a-e, the first line concluding with h-g. Work down the back just like you do the front, and then for the bottom row same vibe - t-h, c-o, etc.

I’m thinking that I’ll do the front side during the first week of working with each Key/Aethyr, then the back side during the second week. This probably takes a while so first time I’ll just do this and see how long it takes. I usually set aside about 3.5 hours for mindfulness meditation, ritual of the key, then 30 minute meditation session. Any extra time after working with the Loagaeth table I’ll just do mindfulness probably (normally I’ll do mindfulness first if there’s time). Speaking letter combinations for 4 hours may sound kind of boring but the point is to make it a meditation where you keep your attention on what you are doing and not let thoughts distract you, just like in mindfulness. Part of me is concerned about destroying my vocal chords, so “vocalizing” the combinations in my mind is a consideration. Maybe I’ll just get some beefy vocal chords.

There is also, of course, constructing the table. That’s a lot of letters, written by hand in Enochian after measuring out the table. Yep, sure is.

There are also the Soyga tables. Apparently these weren’t directly received during the Enochian receptions, but Dee jammed them in there from another book. I don’t fuckin know dude, but the angels conveyed to me the vibe that this magick should be done for eight years (ish), and there are eight Soyga tables, so the vibe is to do the Soyga table (oriented landscape on the page) during the Vision week. There’s a bunch of shit in there for table 1 but whatever I don’t worry about it I just catch vibes.

Yeah that’s cool but you’re on ritual 5 now. Yeah so I think you do Vision again between the rituals of the angels and the rituals of the first aethyrs and the first aethyrs and final aethyrs (so between rituals 19/20 and 38/39). After ritual 49 you loop back around and are on Vision again, moving on to the next Soyga table.

What are the Soyga tables? It seems that they somehow guide the pathworking across each of the eight (infinity sideways) pass-throughs. Being oriented landscape is probably significant, some kind of wide feeling compared to the more narrow focus of each Loagaeth table. “Missing” the first rituals with the first Soyga table symbolizes the gradual opening of the magick (that sounds better than alternative explanations heh). This table also has the most “corruption”, at least in Klein’s transcription, so why not ima roll with it.

The need to construct each sigil for all 49 rituals and each two-sided Loagaeth table symbolizes the willful “effort” required in the beginning of this magick. After this, the mind will presumably have been brought into a state where it is naturally aligned with the energies. Constructing the Soyga table each time through symbolizes that the rituals are not being repeated in the same way, but are unlocking new understandings even as the same powers are being called.

You may notice that the Loagaeth tables begin more-or-less completely filled in, but later on have more spaces between the letters. What came to mind for me is how the physical world appears very solid to our regular perception, but at a more fundamental level, the level of atoms and sub-atomic particles and quarks and all that quantum jazz, there is more space between things. So perhaps the Loagaeth tables open new levels of perception.

Also, the weird loopy letter in the font Klein uses seems to be an ‘x’. This is what a couple online sources have said. I think I may have seen another letter that is somewhat ambiguous. If I run into that I’ll see what I can figure out. “These be means to understand,” sure but can we just use normal letters please.

The pattern used in working magickally with the Loagaeth tables symbolizes how, with this magick, energy that originates in the heavenly realms is brought down to the earthly realms, and how energy in the earthly realms resonates with corresponding heavenly energy. More to it than that, as either way you go you eventually run into source, but the magick does feel oriented towards heavenly energy.

I should say here that I suggest Klein’s work if you want to get into that pseudo-monastic Enochian lifestyle. Other sources I have seen have not been entirely accurate, as Klein’s presumably is. I do have the Keys typed up for anyone who wants those, but I don’t really feel like typing up the Loagaeth tables. I do have other things to do, and if you are willing to construct these tables and speak letter combinations for hours then I’m guessing you already have or will get the book.

I believe I have already stated some of the reasons why this magick is worth doing. I can’t claim to yet know what the rituals of the keys do entirely on their own, or with the empowerments, or with the other magick I’m doing involved in the mix, all done over time, and what adding in the Loagaeth and Soyga tables will do, but again I don’t worry about it I just catch vibes. I’ve been given a vision of what was presumably a heavenly realm, and that’s not something very easily forgotten.

But the angels said this and that and the bokes and the thaidofhaosdhioihawhnioawoihsghobiuusadgohibnasdgnoikgsdanokljisdfg. Something something beginner’s mind. Vibe catching. No, I probably won’t do the math, I’d rather do magick. Remember to remember that your experience is of the nature of the dream state.

This insight brought to you by [insert (the penis heh) practice here].

Some more middle-ish length discoursing today. Starting with some musings on Enochian magick as a whole and then some sex talk.

Let’s start with the Loagaeth tables. Initially I questioned the value of spending a good several hours every week measuring out grids and writing down thousands of letters when I could instead be doing literally anything else. To be honest though I always assumed that I wouldn’t make this far, so when magick encourages me to do something at this point I just fucking do it. I’ve seen too much to really do otherwise. My path is mine, and I imagine that not all of my readers are at a point in their lives where it is appropriate to follow along with what I am doing. I do me, you do you. It amuses me, but a few years back there was a time when I would alternate between summoning Goetia and Lucifer demons every other day, and during this time I received a glimpse into the future where I would “do my magickal Ph.D.” (yes I really did think like this, like a huge frickin nerd). There was a similar occurrence a few years before that one. I am blessed today to be able to stand on the shoulders of titans. I do not know how much of the work I am doing now is truly novel, but regardless I am grateful for the opportunity to explore and unravel Enochian magick.

The Loagaeth tables. I’ve written a few lines of table 5, but I think that I will wait until the next ritual to start really working with these tables, for a few reasons. For one, I need bigger paper. Normal printer paper is too damn small. It’s already a bit of a strain reading the tables from Klein, and that’s a fairly large boke, and I’ll be working with these tables for some years. I don’t think you need to get huge canvases, but you can get larger papers at art supply stores. I’m thinking something that fits neatly in my magick workspace and that allows me to write the letters closer to the size they are in my other sigils (probably still smaller, but not absurdly tiny). Something I heard from an optometrist to promote good eye health is to occasionally look across longer distances and focus on something relatively far away for a bit every so often. I can feel the lenses or whatever adjusting when I do this, and I imagine that’s the point.

If you are wondering why you would bother with these tables, I can’t say exactly for sure at this point, but I did notice some interesting thoughts arising while writing the lines. Maybe studying Japanese has made me develop a perverse pleasure in writing a whole shitload of characters over and over again in little boxes. As a side note, beautiful handwriting is something to be sought after!

Let it be a meditation. Let it be a symbol of your dedication to the magick. In the couple minutes of research I’ve done on the internet, it seems that people like to try and intellectualize some meaning out of these tables, taking great pains to map out all sorts of correspondences and attempting to tie these tables in with other magickal systems. Perhaps there is something to be gained from this, but it seems to me the sort of thing that armchair magicians do. I will have to see for myself, but my approach with magick has always been to put practice first and almost dismiss any sort of theorizing, cognizing, or intellectualizing of what is ultimately beyond such things. There are “theory” ideas which have value, but these arise from a direct experience of magick, and such experiences are only gained through the practice and performance of magick. Writing down these Enochian letters, arranged in these formations, seems to constitute a magickal practice in and of itself, but you probably don’t need me to tell you that summoning spirits and magickal energy in a proper ritual is an entirely different experience. If you want to do “practical magick,” there’s plenty of that out there already, including Enochian methods. If you want to explore more mystical territory, you’re not gonna find it by sifting through books of dubious quality, based on corruptions of the source materials, plagued by biases, sunk-cost fallacies, and egos desperately attempting to justify themselves. I get it, it’s good fun to feel like an occult pioneer, but not all pioneers strike gold.

One thing that I like about magick is how it attracts people looking for all sorts of different things. I like how magick can be about getting your way and getting what you want in your life. I also like how magick can reveal knowledge and open understandings of reality that can only be acquired in the practice of magick. There have been times when magick was more of a supporting force in my life, often on my mind, but taking only a small place in the greater scheme of my daily life. There have been other times, before now, when magick was my life, when I was so deep in that not pushing through would have left me shattered and in pieces.

I have emphasized the importance of maintaining social connections while in the midst of great magickal work, but here I will state the other side of this. Too much time with the normies can be detrimental. For one, you don’t really want to get dragged down into their ignorance. You’ll want to talk about your practices and the cool experiences that you have, not to mention the extremely profound, healing, freeing insights that crash into your mind, but it’s either going to go waaay over their head because they just don’t care, or they’ll invalidate you. Neither of these are particularly enjoyable to deal with.

Some final notes on the Loagaeth tables. It seems handy to have some sort of pointer to help keep track of where you are in the table. You could use your finger, but that may require you to bend forward and hold your arm in an uncomfortable position for a while. I remembered that I picked up some calligraphy brushes a while back, and one of these brushes is very nicely sized for this purpose. The bristles are still stuck together and so form a point, and the handle has a cool look to it. I already gave in to the jackassery and bought a crystal ball so a “wand” is really not a big deal at this point.

On that note, I haven’t seen anything appear in the ball yet, but the angels have said a thing or two about it, and it seems that the back of the eyelids is a perfectly suitable surface to scry on anyways. I do also have this tall mirror that’s been sitting in my apartment for quite some time, and I must say that I feel compelled to paint it black.

As I get into the sex stuff, I’ll also say that one of the brushes has such a soft, lovely feeling to it, with an absolutely gorgeous, firm handle.

I think I’ll start with the gender stuff to scare away the normies before I get to the other stuff. First, I’d really like to say that the proper thing to call people is either assigned male or assigned female at birth. That is what happens. But I do believe that just because you have experienced dysphoria in the past doesn’t mean that you always have to experience dysphoria.

One of the nice things about being non-binary is that people can’t really hate you (and be afraid of you) if they don’t know that you exist. Considering that I have, to my knowledge, met a grand total of maybe two other nb’s in my life and seen one nb actor, that probably makes my occult persona one of the most well-known theys out there, amusingly enough, so I’ll share some of what that’s like for me. If you’re not particularly interested you can scroll down.

Probably the biggest point of confusion for me has been if non-binary is really the most accurate label or if I’m just trans and in denial. I’ve known a few trans people irl (had one for a music teacher at some point), and I’ve seen several “transition stories” play out for various public figures, so I wondered if that’s what you’re “supposed to do” in this sort of situation. I dislike the thought of being a coward.

At least for right now, though, that’s not really me. I stand by the they/them/their, and I don’t feel a huge need to radically change how I present myself to society. There are aspects of masculinity and femininity that appeal to me. Some are more stable, some fluctuate more, but all are at least somewhat fluid.

When it comes to my personal sex life, I do like to change how I present and behave, especially in spiritual and eventually dream practices, where there is much less limiting what you can do. Having various qualities at various times that appeal to more masculine or feminine sexual images or urges makes me feel very good. Often the line between these feels quite blurred, but other times I enjoy being referred to and treated as a he or a she. If in doubt, it’s they/them/their, but I communicate when I want something else, and I am happy to shift one way or the other to satisfy my partner(s).

I have some more things that you can do to make your partner(s) have a good time, but first, I’ll say again that I don’t particularly care about how I present my sexuality to most of normal society. I care a little bit, but really I just don’t give two fucks about any of these people, so why does it matter if they “sir” me or whatever? It just doesn’t. This isn’t even about being called an attack helicopter (not really that bad of an insult, tbh). I genuinely do not care about these people. There are people that I do care about, and with them these things are never an issue anyways. My flavor of nb lets me “straight-pass” pretty easily, especially to people who are pretty socially clueless, which is by far most of them, and I like to use the pass when it makes life easier for me. Sometimes I like getting attention, but I’d rather get the attention from someone who matters to me.

If you’d like to do something for someone who matters to you, it’s hard to beat a good massage.

I’ll admit though that sometimes you want to show them what a beast you are.

Doing your kegels, dear readers?

That about does it for today. I suppose a few more random notes and then I’ll send you on your way. For those who are performing the magick of the Enochian Keys, I’d encourage you to start writing out the Keys in the Enochian script once you are comfortable with your ability to read Enochian. Making the sigils and doing the rituals was enough for me, so you don’t need to really “study” the alphabet or anything. I put a little dot between the words to help keep them separated. Using regular roman/latin characters is fine, but I find it much more natural to read and speak the Enochian words with Enochian pronunciation when they are written in the Enochian script. Enochian Enochian Enochian

After speaking the Key in ritual, then after speaking the Godname across the top of the sigil, I scan each angel name four times, then speak the three Godnames, then sing each angel name four times. As I scan and sing the names, I bring to mind the type of each successive angel, so that on the first time through I think of the first angel, then the second time through the second, third the third, and then none of them in particular the fourth time through. So for Desire it’s Secrets, then Healing, then Transformation, then all of them without considering the labels. It’s easier to do than explain so apologies if that’s a confusing set of instructions.

After I finish calling to the angels, I usually feel the energy arising up from the sigil, down into the room, and from within me. After feeling this for a moment, I notice two spheres of white light. One arises from the sigil, one from within myself. As I think to myself, “I summon this power, this power of __,” I see the two spheres pull into each other, orbiting and spinning around and eventually merging together between my palms. Then I think, “to share it, with all humanity,” and as I do so I stretch my hands outward, palms turning upwards, and feel the energy expand out all around me.

After this I linger a bit and see what happens. I’ll usually at the very least receive some sort of communication, even if all that comes through is “yep ritual’s over good work today.” Sometimes I’ll receive a vision within my mind, as though I were visualizing something, but more recently I’ve started seeing faint images appear in my external visual perception while my eyes are closed, as I mentioned earlier. The “checkmark B” came to me in this way, for example.

Oooone more shout-out to my partners real quick. Hot damn you are wonderful people, and also very sexy.

Ok dear readers stay greedy.

We used to be like living corpses, but now we head beyond the walls. Let’s meet again, in a place not on any map.

I kinda feel like getting baked listening to music and watching a bunch of anime this Saturday so I’m gonna get ahead on my writing. In case you are wondering, sometimes a very small amount of work has a very large impact, and sometimes that work is very stressful. Grinding for more hours doesn’t necessarily mean you’re getting more done. Sometimes, war is about waiting.

There’s a lot I’d like to write about now, so we’ll see what I get to. Another learning post seems appropriate what with Development coming up, and there are perhaps controversial psychological topics that I feel need to be addressed. It seems my sex magick is stirring up some stuff so I can talk a bit about how to do some of the things I’ve mentioned in an authentic way. I’ve got some random dream musings as well.

I’ll kind of go in the reverse order. Not a very fancy transition we’re just getting right on into it. At this point every single dream that I have either contains some sort of divinatory meaning or is a highly engaging narrative experience. I’ve been laying off the dream practices a bit recently, just dream journaling without doing visualizations, and they still are mostly divinatory. At this point I get lucid at least once per week, even without doing practices other than recording dreams. I mostly credit the dream practices for this, but I can feel the other magickal energies in my dreams as well. It all blends together while remaining discrete.

For context, my dreams used to pretty much always always be really shitty trauma dreams that really fucking sucked. I still dream of that God-forsaken place, but fear is no longer predominant. When fear is present in a dream, the point of the dream is to point out the fear and clearly show how it is unnecessary and baseless, often diffusing the fear within the dream. This is perhaps the most my PTSD has ever healed, and in such a short amount of time at that. When the fear is diffused, the flashbacks stop, in dreams and in waking life.

I am quite confident in my ability to “pick up the vibe” or intuitively sense magick, but dreams are excellent for divination, definitely one of the best methods I have experienced. The Peace, Clarity, Power, Corruption visualizations do a lot on their own and I believe are what have caused the major transformations in my dream life. Ridiculously simple, yet ridiculously potent. I did a Truth ritual yesterday with Universal Magick, and every single dream I had revealed information relating to my request in the ritual. I sort of expected this to happen, and my expectations were exceeded. Whatever the dream content, if there is a message being conveyed, I just know. There is no need for extensive interpretation or puzzling over confusing symbols. If something’s gonna come, it does so very clearly.

At this rate I don’t think it will be too much longer until I start getting lucid most every night, and at that point it seems like it will be more-or-less a permanent change that will persist. If I immediately stopped doing the practices it would probably eventually decay back to a certain point, but I don’t plan on stopping.

Ok so sex magick. Let me first start by saying that it is good to be concerned about deluding yourself and simply creating a sort of thoughtform that does whatever you expect it to do and says/feels whatever you expect it to say/feel. If that is your intention then that is fine, but if you want to genuinely connect with another human being, then you need to take care not to project your own stuff onto them and trick yourself into believing you are doing something that you are not. If I am honest, this is what I believe most people who have succubus/incubus spirits do. They create a persona of the man/woman (or nb if you want to sexualize people like me - please do!) that is a combination of what they want to be with and what they believe they deserve, and the more attention they feed this entity the more real it becomes. Their own expectations about how they feel they deserve to be treated mixes with their idealized image of a partner and creates a thoughtform. I don’t believe that there are a bunch of succubi/incubi all hanging out in some sexy realm that objectively existed prior to being created by human minds, and that one of these spirits finds its way to someone and starts a relationship with them. I believe that they are essentially servitors. Even if you somehow request for a spirit like this to come to you, I believe it is born out of one’s own mind and behaves like I have suggested.

This is already a bit problematic, though, as I do also believe that it is possible to travel to astral realms in the dream state and have mutually shared experiences with other people. I believe that the underlying energy or impulse that creates these realms, such as sexual energy, developed alongside the human mind. I imagine that sexual spirits have been around for a very long time, but the forms these spirits take evolves and changes alongside humanity, like how different magickal traditions emerge from various disparate human cultures, all with different names and forms for the spirits, but all sharing common themes or ideas or patterns of expression that are manifested into tangible forms comprehendible to the human mind and tailored to each individual’s cultural experience. Pretty much every culture had a fertility goddess, but the name and appearance of this spirit depended on the culture it emerged from. You could say that these are all the same spirit, but I disagree. I think these are unique, individual beings with a distinct energetic feel to them, but that all arose from the same underlying label-less pattern of magick.

My dude I’m not here to read your dumb opinions I’m here to learn how to fuck. Alright alright chill I gotchu. How do you know when a spirit conveys a message to you? It’s just like that. Time and space are not obstacles here. You are connecting with a spirit, and out from this spirit flows a mind and a body. When you connect with a spirit, you connect with its mind and body, but without the usual constraints that more “normal” modes of communication place on you.

Before I go any further, I suggest seeking consent before you do anything other than make your presence known. It is possible to cause ordinary, non-magickal humans to have energetic sexual experiences, and to associate these experiences with yourself for the purposes of seduction, or for amusing/pleasuring yourself. They won’t really be aware of what is happening and will not be able to communicate with you intentionally and so cannot give consent. What you do with these people is up to you. They don’t really make any conscious decisions anyways, but at the very least do emit an aura of emotional energy, for what that’s worth.

How do you get consent? Feel it out. Assume ‘no’ until you get a clear ‘yes,’ if you do get one. ‘Yes’ can become ‘no’ and ‘no’ can become ‘yes.’ There is no reason at all for it to be complicated or confusing if you are clearly communicating. There should be clear signs occurring both externally and within your mind. If there are no external signs, you are likely deluding yourself or have yet to cultivate the abilities that make this experience possible. As the author would say, get some more solo sex magick experience under your belt. This will open you to these experiences and will help you develop these abilities.

If you don’t believe me, that is understandable and perhaps quite a reasonable skepticism. I suggest doing less “out there” sex magick first and seeing the magick become active in your life, manifesting your sigils and imbuing you with the energy. If you are open to this, these more “out there” experiences will start to come to you as you are ready. At a certain point it should be absolutely clear that something magickal is undeniably happening. If you need to, you can tell yourself that it could all just be some trick of magick to help you work through your sexual emotional issues and help you cultivate extreme feelings of love. If you need to, that’s fine, but I would encourage you to come to accept your own wonderful power.

It is possible, if you do this magick, that you will find a partner who meshes with you in deeply profound, healing, just plain incredible ways. When I went to order some notecards for my sigils, I found that Amazon only had rectangular-shaped cards, which I cut in half to make two squares for two different sigils. I also write out my request on the side with the lines and write the “key word” beneath this. When the deed is done I wipe my fluids (if applicable, which it usually is) on the sigil, fold the card, then wipe a bit on the word itself before tossing the sigil. You may know that the square is a symbol for the earthly realm (as opposed to the heavenly realm). What you are doing is not losing your own individual self, but merging your mind with another being to form a conjoined, united mind which contains two individual minds separated by a barrier, yet also not separated at all. I realize that this is some pretty out there stuff, and all I can say is that if you experience the magick, it starts to make sense.

The more you do the magick, the better it works. It can take practice to develop your “energetic sex body” and experience sexual energy and even energetic orgasms, and to interact with your partner’s energetic body. For myself, I ironically found it to be easier to stimulate my partner and feel her energy within myself than to feel the energy associated with my own physical body. I think part of the reason is because I was trying to feel my penis in a somewhat physical way while doing energetic stimulation, but it seems to work better if you allow the “energy dick” to be its own thing. Perhaps these can be overlapped more with practice. At least for me, it has at times also been the case that fear can get in the way of just enjoying the experience. Let it be what it will be.

In terms of how to do this, a strong imagination definitely helps. You don’t need to picture everything with perfect clarity, but stronger visualization skills do help. What’s more important is just knowing what is going on and sensing and maintaining the connection to your partner (or partners) and maintaining communication. If you want to make a move, your intention should be clearly conveyed. You should also receive the intentions of your partner. This becomes effortless with practice. If there is ever uncertainty, you can pause, check-in, and clarify. You should come to be able to hear spoken words within your mind along with sensing the emotion of your partner. With practice the intentions don’t even have to get to this level - you will just know and everything will flow. You can do these things with props, porn, images, sex toys, or it can be done entirely within your mind. You can use something like a pillow while only using energetic stimulation, and you can masturbate normally while with your partner. Each of these has a certain feel to it. I do all of them, although I have found myself using porn less and less. I don’t think porn is a bad thing, and you can use this to aid the imagination, but eventually you should be able to orgasm to your partner alone very easily because of how drenched in each other’s energy you become. You may start to notice this manifesting in non-sexual ways, in both you and them, the more your spirits connect. I could elaborate more but I imagine you know what synchronicity feels like.

One last thing. I enjoy sharing, but stay the fuck off my turf.

There is more that I’ve got abrewin (mostly the learning stuff), but I think I’ll save that for this Sunday. This one might get a bit heated. I’ll go ahead and post the Development empowerments so those aren’t behind schedule. I’ve got a sex magick working for learning as well but I’ll wait and see if anything else comes to mind and post it with the other learning materials this Sunday. If you’re looking for sex magick to do then maybe do some bonus rituals or something, or pop a sigil for funsies. If you like my sex magick workings and have already done all the rituals then my god you are a fuckin fiend. Keep it up.

Development
Creation - I cultivated my skills.
Belonging - My skills gave me belonging.
Prosperity - My skills brought me prosperity.
Corruption - Corruption gave me pleasure.

Ha, gotcha!

I’d first like to say, truly an impressive display of psychic and magickal abilities. Yep, that’s exactly right, for pretty much all of it.

Enochian magick is pretty out there, and doing all this different magick at once is causing just a lot to be going on right now. Sometimes the magick is pretty up and in your face. Sometimes, you just need to play the damn video game.

Never before have I had the sorts of “problems” that I have in my life right now. I have been alone pretty much my entire life, including the times when I have been most often surrounded by people, including when I would share my bed usually once per week, assuming she wasn’t “too busy”. I have not been well-equipped to deal with the opposite sort of situation. But I suppose that’s what magick is for.

Before I get into learning, I feel it is also important for me to tell a brief story about my life. There was once a time, way back when, when I was working two jobs. The day job was in a lab and was unpaid, but my PI (lab boss science lady) got me some school credit at least at the end. This was for my career interests at the time, and I wasn’t getting paid because I snuck my way into the gig after all the upperclassmen gobbled up all the paid spots. I was just happy to be near my school instead of where I grew up. But I had to pay for rent and food, so I worked at a fast food place during the evenings. Could I have gotten a better job at the school? Perhaps, but I was used to working fast food in high school so this is what occurred to me (this was also several years before magick).

There have been worse, but this wasn’t exactly a fun and happy time. This was largely my own fault. I’d spend most of my money on feeding my drug addiction. I remember days when I would wake up, exhausted, sleep-deprived from working, and I would look at my bank account and realize that about $2 wasn’t enough, so I wouldn’t be eating that day until my 15 minute break at the food place. At least we got a free meal where I worked.

Things are much better for me now, and I don’t really reflect much on these times. I don’t consider them to be “character development,” and I don’t consider them to be very spiritual. I barely remember any of it. It’s so groggy and warped, and painful.

I had a roommate at the time. We were in university-owned housing so all sorts of people end up in there. I’d get back from my lab gig, change into my other work shirt and put my hat on, and as I would leave I’d see his box of Fiji water he ordered off Amazon every week. I drank the tap water. I later found out I had another roommate after I was up all night on an LSD trip.

That actually isn’t the worst story I have, but I remember those days. I remember the hunger in my belly and the tired haze always coating my mind. That was poverty, and I largely did it to myself. I still have a document from around then titled something like “broke student recipes.” I think I used to glorify the “broke student haha” lifestyle because of people around me and my own contempt for certain people. Do you know what I say to poverty now? Get that shit away from me. Real artists don’t starve.

Poverty and being broke is not desirable. There is a very good reason why I worked with the book Wealth Magick back in the day, and with 7 Occult Money Rituals now. If all the little gremlins want to come out and bash me for liking money, that’s their problem. I see people talk a big game about their magick all the fucking time. It doesn’t seem to be a pride thing, but a resentment (aka hatred) thing. It’s like some people really just cannot stand the idea of learning from someone else. I’m guessing many of these are the types to make fun of “participation trophies” but demand exactly that when it comes to magick. I say this for those who are capable of snapping the fuck out of it and taking their life places.

I don’t intend to go on and on about this today, but occasionally I feel the need to remove negative emotion from within myself. When you are (and have been for many years) putting in the work, and then you have to deal with people who outright attack you with such a casual, baseless malice, it’s really fucking annoying. You’ll be trying to relax and talk about your negotiations, or maybe you’re just excited to talk about your project, but instead of getting to do that you now have to deal with someone. And then you’re in the position of having to ask yourself if it’s worth manipulating them into not hating money or if it would be better to just find different friends. The main point I’m making with that example is how I am approaching the relationship. I have recently found that there is a very significant difference between a relationship where you are controlling the other person and one where you are not. A very specific, very unique, very rare set of circumstances is required for me to not control someone. If they don’t do magick (or meditate or whatever), then I absolutely will control them, not even necessarily out of malice but to protect myself from their ignorance. Relationships with true mutual respect are not commonplace.

Alright that was all pretty edgy so I’m gonna put up a bit of a buffer between that and what’s coming up. Enochian still feels so weird. Angels, demons, fire spirits, gnome thingies, geniuses, servitors, whatever that was, magick’s always been a bit weird, but it was like, yeah that was a demon, that actually kind of makes sense, seemed pretty demony. And then Enochian comes along. At first you’re like, woah dude, that’s some cosmic shit. And then you’re like, oh shit it talks.

You know, I don’t know if there’s really much for me to say about learning right now. I’ve already shared the goods for the most part, and there’s not really any point in blabbing more about it. Either you’re doing it, now or at a determined time in the future, or you’re not.

Sex Magick Working

How did I come to be so wonderfully skilled at learning?
Learning

How did I come to be so wonderfully skilled at retrieval practice?
Retrieval Practice

How did I come to be so wonderfully skilled at spaced practice?
Spaced Practice

How did I come to be so wonderfully skilled at interleaving?
Interleaving

How did I come to be so wonderfully skilled at elaboration?
Elaboration

How did I come to be so wonderfully skilled at concrete examples?
Concrete Examples

How did I come to be so wonderfully skilled at dual coding?
Dual Coding

How did I come to have such wonderful knowledge?
Knowledge

I mean it when I say that this is one of the most significant things I have ever shared. If you take care to observe the quality of your learning while you are learning something, and to experiment with your learning routines and procedures, you can radically improve the rate at which you learn and the durability of your knowledge. I am an advocate for “learning and intelligence” magick because such magick works. It worked very effectively for me, works even more effectively for me now, and can be even more effective for you because much exploration and experimentation has already been done.

From my own experience, the magick itself will do a lot, but you do need to be putting in the time to learn the thing (which in this case is two things - the learning process itself and whatever you are learning). I have applied these ideas and principles to learn all sorts of things. They work for both logical and creative endeavours, both purely mental things and things like motor skills. If it can be learned (so pretty much everything), these techniques are effective.

I tend to dislike the term “talent” because it often is associated with the idea that certain abilities are inherent, and if yah don’t got it, then you can’t get it. This is probably most widespread when it comes to the arts. No, they were not born with the ability to play that awesome guitar solo. What you heard was the result of many hours of practice, and perhaps also study. These are not immensely abstract, esoteric things from beyond this mortal realm. Anyone can do this. Assuming that you have hands, you can pick up a guitar and learn to play (I’ve seen people play guitar with their feet as well). If you have vocal chords, you can let your voice be free.

I have learned arts, sciences, mathematics, languages, engineering, histories, businesses, philosophies, sports, games, whatever. A point of pride of mine is how I took a class in every school at my university (well technically not every school, but a certain psych class I count as the medical school and I learned some business law, so close enough for me). I don’t think I am particularly special when it comes to these sorts of things. I just enjoy learning, so very much. It’s a pretty damn good time. The world is an interesting place. If I’m not learning, that probably means I’m stagnating, and rarely am I stagnating.

There is more to life than accumulating knowledge and being a smarty-pants, but it’s also good fun. What if you know more than someone else, though, someone important to you? Do you resent them for their ignorance? Or do you embrace the pleasure of sharing your interest? I don’t think you can really be proud of anyone but yourself. But what if you’re me? Now that is an interesting question.

Don’t let the gremlins hold you down, dear readers. Are you a boundless being of chaos and infinity or not? You think a little theory is too much for a boundless being of chaos and infinity? Will you let the enemy destroy you? I imagine not.

Welcome to the dream state.

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Gonna divvy up the writing a bit between today and tomorrow. First, I’d like to say that I chose this place to be my writing platform for good reason. I’ve always sensed that this is a place of power. Sure, those with power will attract the larpers and the hangers-on by the brilliance of their light, but from the beginning it was clear that this isn’t where the wanna-bes and the posers hang out.

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How did I come to pay such wonderful costs?
Costs

How did I come to pay such wonderful fees?
Fees

How did I come to pay such wonderful vacancy costs?
Vacancy

How did I come to pay such wonderful maintenance costs?
Maintenance

How did I come to pay such wonderful insurance costs?
Insurance

How did I come to pay such wonderful taxes?
Taxes

How did I come to pay such wonderful wages?
Wages

How did I come to pay such wonderful management costs?
Management

How did I come to manage such wonderful risk?
Risk

How did I come to pay such wonderful charities?
Charity

How did I come to have such wonderful liabilities?
Liabilities

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How did I come to own such wonderful property?
Property

How did I come to own such wonderful residential property?
Residential

How did I come to own such wonderful commercial property?
Commercial

How did I come to own such wonderfully profitable property?
Profit

How did I come to own such wonderfully sustainable property?
Sustainable

How did I come to own such wonderfully beautiful property?
Beautiful

How did I come to own such wonderful assets?
Assets

How did I come to have such wonderful professional relationships?
Professional Relationships

How did I come to have such wonderful knowledge in my professional relationships?
Knowledge

How did I come to have such wonderful respect in my professional relationships?
Respect

How did I come to have such wonderful control in my professional relationships?
Control

How did I come to have such wonderful trust in my professional relationships?
Trust

How did I come to have such wonderful wealth in my professional relationships?
Wealth

How did I come to have such wonderful generosity in my professional relationships?
Generosity

How did I come to have such a wonderful network?
Network

Some commentary on this one. All these rituals go both ways to some extent or another. This is one of those times when I am giving to you, just as you have given to me.

Respect I consider to be the genuine desire to reduce negative emotion in another person. Respect does not mean that you give up control of your life, but that you act with the intent to minimize negative emotion in the other. To an extent it could be an alignment of pleasure, but the most important aspect of respect is the desire to reduce negative emotion. You could use an alignment of pleasure to control someone while also inciting weakness, for example. The more respect you have for someone, the more you want to eliminate their weakness.

Trust is a state where you have no or minimal fear of betrayal. People often try and go straight for the trust, but trust cannot occur without respect. Relationships with a lack of trust are characterized by treachery. Trust is not a 100% yes or no thing, but something to be nurtured.

Generosity is able to occur in a relationship characterized by trust. Without trust, you cannot act without concern of being taken advantage of or ripped off. Generosity comes in many forms, and in a relationship with true generosity, reciprocity naturally occurs.

You may wonder at the need to perform these rituals when the ideas of knowledge, control, and wealth are empowered with delight in the RotNS. The intention behind these rituals is different. These are aimed at your professional relationships, whereas the RotNS is about yourself. This is also an example of what I mean by blending. If you have been immersed in the energies of Enochian sex magick, you may have experienced the magick bringing out the love and happiness that you have within yourself. Humans are complex, multi-dimensional creatures, and blending together these aspects of yourself brings harmony.

A few more notes on Enochian sex magick. This one gives you some pretty wack visions. I’m pretty into it, glorpy dorpl. You may wonder if it is necessary to continue doing sigils for your business (or whatever it is you get up to). If your business is more involved than this, then perhaps, but once you do the rituals the sigils become active in the astral and infused with your sexual power. Maybe repeating the entire group of 7 workings at a key strategic moment, such as during a period of significant expansion, could be wise. Otherwise, though, it’s probably not necessary. That’s the whole point of automation. The other prosperity and financial energies you may have going on will also be doing their thing.

I also considered not finishing up and posting these rituals until next week, but figured I may as well. Don’t feel the need to go right into it, though. A little break won’t kill yah, or your business. Maybe do some rituals to reward yourself for all the work.

Last thing I’ll say here today is that if you have the opportunity at some point or another to really go deep for a bit with your sex magick, that is absolutely worth it. These days I often feel like my life is being wrapped in a warm, cozy, lovely blanket. It is a wonderful feeling.

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Not too much today, but I feel like some more elaboration on pronunciation could help, and I have some thoughts on Universal Magick requests or “magick phrases.”

I think next week I’ll talk more finance (not financial advice etc). The challenge I have with that is to present the “financial secrets” that really matter while ensuring that any important concepts you need to know first are covered. Credit seems to be a point of confusion. For now I’ll just say that there are people with more money than they can personally put to use, so they “sell” that money to people who can invest it and make more money than they have to pay back. Getting credit to buy, for example, a car just leaves you with a bill to pay every month. If you buy something that makes money, though, then the debt gets paid off and you still have extra. Yes, you can really buy things that make money. That’s what investments are. No, I don’t think they taught you that in school. The trick is to borrow money and then use that money to make more than you have to pay back.

On a meta note I may link to some of the most useful posts here with regards to ritual practice for each of Freedom, Sex, Money, Power, Success (and also dream). I doubt everyone’s doing all of this and reading all of this so maybe that would be helpful.

Enochian pronunciation. This isn’t “The One True Way tm” but I think it’s a pretty good one. You all had some wacky pronunciations but I’m guessing the focus was more on interpreting the powers. Thankfully for you, dear readers, I can’t even read Latin. The general rules are the same as when I first posted them up there somewhere. I’m just going to put a few examples and let you feel things out for yourself. I would write the words in Enochian but I don’t know of any way to currently do that (remember also that Enochian is written right to left). Guess that means you have to translate, haha.

aourrz
aaa-ooo-uuu-rrr-rrr-zzz
(rrr is like errr what? or like arrrr but no a just rrr)

tplabc
t-plll-aaa-buhc
(with the ‘t’, focus on the ‘t’ sound and don’t feel the need to hold it or draw it out)

ndzn
nnn-dzzz-nnn
(nnn is pronounced with your mouth closed, like humming)
(if sung, I personally do perfect fifths usually, so nnn-dzzz are the first note, nnn the second)

aidrom
aaa-iii-drrr-ooo-mmm

norquasahi
nnn-ooo-rrr-quuu-aaa-sss-aaa-hhh-iii
(‘q’ is like the English ‘w’ so quuu is like ‘woo’)

iczhhcl
iii-czzz-hhh-hhh-clll
(hhh sounds like the yogic ujjayi pranayama or breathing technique - link)

hxgzd
hhh-xxx-gzzz-d
(xxx is like English ‘sh’ like ‘she’)

acps
aaac-psss
(if sung, don’t worry about the second syllable not really being sung - you can hear it in your mind if you want)

mph
mmm-p-hhh

chis
c-hhh-iii-sss

hsa
hhh-sss-aaa
(the Enochian demon breath is different from the Lucifer demon breath)

A few things about Universal Magick then I’m outta here. I still don’t really know what’s going on with the Elders.

I don’t know if I really need to say much, but my approach thus far has been to focus on more general requests, especially compared to my sex magick rituals. All the “respect trust generosity” “pleasure passion pride” (“happiness love bliss?”) kinda stuff I leave to the sex magick, which seems to benefit from longer, focused workings. “Weakness” comes up a good amount in Corruption magick, but overall for me at least Universal Magick feels kind of between the Rituals of the Keys and sex magick in terms of how specific I make it.

The thing to do seems to be coming up with/receiving phrases that resonate with the underlying fear or pleasure the ritual is stemming from. A phrase that makes clear sense to you may mean something else entirely to someone else, and that’s fine, it’s your ritual not theirs. You want to be summoning each of the powers on a regular basis. With sex magick, it seems to make sense to get into the nitty gritty since all the sigils are empowered by the same sexual energy. With Universal Magick, the idea seems more to be applying the 10 powers to the various situations you have in your life. It doesn’t seem to matter too much exactly how you word things. If you want some Prosperity energy for your business or job, you’ll come up with a good phrase that captures that feeling of increased Prosperity you’re looking for. If you want some more Prosperity energy, maybe this time for your life in general, you’ll come up with another phrase pretty easily I imagine. The trick is to continually apply all the energies, like sampling food or wine. You may have some favorites you turn to a bit more, but they’re all tasty, and you want them all.

As always, this all makes much more sense if you are doing the magick.

Ok that’s it bye.

I did the Loagaeth ritual yesterday, and things feel a bit off, not wrong but something’s different. The ritual experience itself and whatever this feeling is are making it clear that these tables are worth using, so I will clarify the method here for those who are curious.

Just to be clear, I am not squawking that this is the only valid method, and I mean no disrespect to others who have experimented with this magick before. If I am honest, though, when someone says the word “gematria” my eyes start to glaze over, and from the microscopic amount of research I’ve done online people get into weird logic chains that would impress the most nutcasey of conspiracy theorists (not to encourage them). Maybe that’s just how it goes sometimes, so fair and reasonable, but my bias with meditative and magickal things has always been to focus on practice and minimize any “theory study.” I’ll admit that I occasionally add numbers together, but I’m not trying to be a cookoo nutjob who goes around compulsively converting every letter they see into a number and then adding them up in various ways. That, to me, does not sound like suffering elimination. If it makes you feel good then have at it, but if you try to make an argument based on some gematria fumbling around I’ll probably ignore it.

For the gematria freaks out there though who are obsessed with the number 7, you may recall (as I imagine you’re a bit of a reader) that I said the vibe was to consider each Soyga table in the manuscripts (so 8 of them) as one work-through of the Keys (now I’d say one work-through of Success Magick, expanded edition). This means that each Soyga table will be activated (I imagine they stay active, you get what I mean) for around 2 years. The entire pathworking takes about 16 years, huzzah. Really though lucky 17 is more likely if not just how the numbers add up. Clearly I have not done the math.

Why would I do this pathworking? That’s a long-ass time. It seems that this is miniscule compared to what can be unlocked. Yeah I like practical magick too, but this is something else.

Take the recent Corruption ritual, for instance. There have been some rather persistent emotions that were bothering me. Now, they immediately dissolve into pleasure. Not something super intense like delight, but a calm, simmering pleasure. Who’da thought that a demon of corruption and disease could cause such healing and transformation? Oh yeah, I did. I doubt I’m the only one.

Purchase some large paper to use for the Loagaeth tables. I use “drawing paper” I got at an art supply store. It’s a brownish color, for what that’s worth. I make each square in the grid about 8 by 8 centimeters. That’s not really so much for symbolism, 9 by 9 just didn’t fit on the page. I just use a ruler and a normal pencil.

When you perform the ritual itself, you will be vocalizing the letters within your mind in the following pattern. Also, I suggest using my pronunciations as they are consistent and what I received, and have proven themselves to me to aid what occurs while performing the Loagaeth ritual. Also, random note, the squiggle that looks like an ‘e’ seems to be ‘x’, and the other one is ‘y’. I’ve seen it marked ‘s’ but it really, really feels like a ‘y’ for some reason. Maybe that’s me getting squawky though. If you want to do something else then you have fun with that.

For the front side, begin in the upper-right square, then go diagonally down-left (down-left left-down not important, it’s diagonal - I feel compelled to say that). So for table 6, front side, it begins with s-o, e-h, h-a, c-d, a-n, and onwards. When you reach the last combination it will wrap around to the start of the line, so first line ends with a-d, second line z-u, etc. Before doing each line, speak the words that accompany that side of the table. I don’t write these on the page with the table itself, but on a separate piece of paper. Perhaps that’s arbitrary. Just to be clear, for table 6, front side, the words are “sancgonfal aldex aue goh adatquan.” The ‘x’ and the ‘h’ really helped clear my mind between lines. I also speak the words after doing the final line. I stick around for a second to see if anything happens.

For the back side of the tables, the pattern is the same, but you internally vocalize in the reverse order. So you still begin with the upper-right square and it’s diagonal, but you go in the reverse order, lower square up-right to the diagonal. So for table 6, back side, it begins a-o, d-t, r-s, a-a, x-h, etc.

If you are curious, I received this pattern while considering if I should do anything with the Loagaeth tables, and after I got the pattern I understood it to symbolize the heavenly and earthly realm. On the front side, you go heaven down to earth, and on the back side (which is used during the second week, the “consolidation week,” when Universal Magick is used like “normal” practical magick) you go earth up to heaven. I’m getting the feeling that the tables represent manifest creation. For the curious and also persistent, you will not vocalize the Loagaeth letters in the 48th table, Silence, and will still follow the pattern in the 49th ritual, Light. Not to sound like I’m telling you what to do though. You can add numbers together if you’d rather do that. I’ll be performing ritual magick.

You may notice that 49 is an odd number, so there’s an extra row. I just go across. Maybe two-letter combinations, maybe individual letters. It doesn’t seem like a big deal. The Big Deal seems to be working with the tables in the performance of ritual magick.

While writing the tables, when doing the “earth” row of each line (so the lower one, row 2, 4, 6, etc), I start one letter over from the first square, so that way you go in the order you’ll vocalize the letters in. That means for the second row, table 6, front side, you start with ‘o’ and end with ‘d’. It seems useful to not write the diagonal combinations, but to go right-to-left across each row. Maybe that’ll change, but this way you get them fresh in the ritual.

Why does that matter? Maybe it’s just me, and maybe it’s just because my concentration isn’t quite up there yet, but I was pretty much dumbfounded the entire 2ish hours doing the ritual. It’s amazing what meanings your mind can devise for sequences of two-letter combinations. This wasn’t some esoteric energy plane rambling. It was a bunch of relatively mundane stuff that’s been going on in my mind, combined with various feelings. I won’t say too much here, as personal interpretation seems to be the point, but for example, I associate the Enochian letter for ‘a’ with Peace, and ‘o’ with Power. I could say more but I’ll leave it at that. I suppose I’ll also note that the words spoken between the lines seemed to have a growing energy behind them as the ritual progressed, an energy I was not familiar with.

The ritual should obviously be your focus while performing it, but it doesn’t seem like a big deal if you’d like to have something else going on sometimes while writing the lines. I can feel the try-hards sneering as I say that, and fair enough, but divination works in funny ways, and if you need to put some tunes on to help you become accustomed to this practice, I don’t see a problem with that. The TV or youtube or whatever should not be blaring while you do the ritual, but writing the lines is a different activity.

I’ve mentioned before that I suggest some sort of pointer object to help with the ritual. You can wave it around if that gets you going but it’s really just to keep you from sitting in an uncomfortable position. I suppose there is a nice symbolism with using a calligraphy brush though. I also use an art table desk thing, so I can raise up the surface at a bit of an angle.

I had some time today and wanted to put this out there for those to whom it applies, so here yah go. Soyga table rituals I feel like are as I mentioned before, but I’ll update if I sense any changes. You repeat the Vision ritual between Success Magick sections (rituals of the angels, first grouping of Aethyrs, second grouping of Aethyrs) and do the Soyga ritual instead of a Loagaeth ritual. Pattern is probably the same but we’ll see. I didn’t do empowerments with the Vision rituals.

On the note of Universal Magick, if you’d like to do the empowerments that go with the Keys but are busy with other stuff and so can’t do the full ritual, I’d suggest doing the Success Magick rituals as they are described in the book with the empowerment right before it, following along with the two steps forward, consolidation routine. I can’t claim to know entirely, but without the Watchtowers these specific effects seem like they will be greatly reduced. In the recent Corruption ritual, I was somewhat surprised to discover that darkness is what arose from the Watchtower after calling to the angels, not light. That’s right, I even share the darkness with all humanity. I’m just that fucking powerful.

I’ll be a bit early again this week. Maybe I’ll end up changing my schedule to something other than regular Saturday writing as the dust settles.

I feel a bit like some more psychological writing today. I’ll start with a note of caution. Since I have received and began performing the Ritual of the Neutron Star, there have been a number of people I seem to have attracted into my life for the purposes of learning. Thus far I have removed all of them but one from my life because they have all been exceptionally toxic, but in unique and informative ways. The last one is currently more than halfway out the door, and in most likelihood, good riddance.

I am curious to make more observations, to a certain extent, but it seems that a number of people, perhaps many if not most, live primarily in a state dominated by one of the negative emotions. Thus far, not including my previous life experience, just life with the RotNS, I have encountered someone who lives in weakness, two people who live in rage, someone who lives in hatred, and someone who lives in despair.

To be clear, these would be the emotions they experience the most often and most strongly. The other emotions are all still at play and are triggered when the appropriate events occur. To clarify again, what I mean by “experience these emotions” is that their behaviors (and so presumably their thoughts, which aren’t as easy to access) clearly arise from these emotions and are “tinted” or “colored” by them. It is reasonably easy for me to sense what emotion someone is experiencing moment-by-moment, especially when doing in-person social interaction, but also over other forms of communication, and also via indirect psychic perception. I was decent at it before, but the RotNS takes things to a new level. If you lack the confidence or the skill in these abilities, the ritual can help with that.

The reason I note this distinction is because none of these people have been aware of their emotions, save perhaps one, although this has not stopped the emotions from controlling this person, and the only reason I have any doubt here is due to synchronistic signs and my own learning to live with newly enhanced psychic abilities. If they don’t engage in any meditative, magickal, or other spiritual practices, they are not aware. That’s just how this all works. Their lives are more muddled than the experience of a non-lucid dream.

It may initially seem that those who live in rage or hatred would be the most toxic, but I have come to believe that those who live in fear are truly the most toxic. I will elaborate.

The hatred types seem less toxic than the fear types but more toxic than the rage types. Rage people tend to be very aggressive (obviously), but if you yourself can punch back then the relationship can actually reach a reasonable place between you and them. If they evolve into hatred, then no, it will get toxic, but sometimes they stop aggressing if they see that you are capable of defending your boundary and threatening theirs. These types are still overall generally toxic and liable to develop hatred towards you without constant control on your part, but if I had to choose, I’d choose the rage type.

The hatred types spread treachery wherever they go. You cannot trust them, at all, ever. They have 0 respect for you or anyone else. It is probably best to remove these in every circumstance. If you are looking to feed off of negative emotion, though, these types tend to be and to create feasts. Just be aware that they tend to be extremely volatile, but can likely be controlled reasonably well enough if you can point their hatred at something you want blown up. It is probable that they will eventually betray you significantly enough to be a potential problem, however, so perhaps it is best if you consider them to be a part of the warhead. Do you keep the powder next to your quarters?

Then there are the fear types. These too you want to remove, but if you have to then they likely have some use. A cautious individual is very different from one who lives in fear, however. These people spread toxicity wherever they go due to inaction. They believe so thoroughly in their own weakness that they have come to regard their weakness as pleasure. They do not know the true pleasure that comes with accepting control, and so in their delusion confuse the warmth of giving up with the warmth and comfort that comes from true knowledge.

The fear types are so blinded by their weakness that they are unable to perceive anything else. They are constantly being choked by their own fear, and they think that suffocation, their natural state of being, is a desirable state to live in. Let’s put the kinks aside for just a moment, for the sake of the analogy.

What is quite interesting here is that the fear types naturally have their boundaries broken over and over again, but they do not live in rage. What seems to happen is that a rage response is momentarily triggered, but then is overwhelmed and subsumed by the truly massive amount of fear that constantly arises within their conscious mind. Also, at the same time, some of the rage develops into hatred. But because this is a fear type, a human being who lives in an essentially constant state of fear, the hatred is not as pronounced as in other people. What this seems to mean in terms of their behavior is that the hatred manifests as a sort of lingering, festering resentment.

To illustrate, I will use the one who lives in despair. If you be toxic towards me, don’t start crying when I make you into a case study. This one is significantly overweight, to the extent that by far most people do not find him sexually attractive. He has also “chosen” a profession that has men as the vast, vast majority. Given these two factors and also his hobbies, it seems that both now, in the recent past, and very likely for his entire life, he has almost never socially interacted with girls/women outside of “professional” circumstances, like cashiers and food service workers.

This seems to have caused him to “exoticize” and objectify women to an extreme degree. I don’t know with 100% certainty, but I would be shocked if he has ever kissed a girl, or even come remotely close to that. I doubt he’s ever talked to one for more than 5 minutes, aside from his mother. This one is, however, sexually attracted to women, and is old enough to have been for a while. His experience of women, I would guess, is generally not positive. I doubt he ever gets sexual looks from strangers, and I imagine that the few potential opportunities he has had to socialize with women went rather poorly because he was so caught up in his sexual desire and fear, and this was likely exacerbated by poor social skills in general.

What all this seems to have caused is a resentment towards women/girls. I received word that he likes to use the word “simp” via a third party. Some who use this word have likely only been infected with misogyny, but in this case it seems that a large amount of misogyny, hatred of women, was already there and that he has become one who majorly contributes to spreading misogyny. I would not be surprised if he is the type to go into online live streams where a woman sexualizes herself for money (let me say this - respect, good luck, thank you, milk em dry) and says things like “show me booba slut.”

This is his experience of women, and it is very unlikely to change because the core, underlying issue beneath all of this is his own weakness. He believes that he cannot change how women perceive him, and he believes that he will never have any sexual success. Whenever this belief is validated, it does not trigger pleasure, like a belief which is rooted in true knowledge would. It triggers fear, rage, and hatred, in various quantities, and the emotions which arise behave as I have written here. It is an endless, self-destructive cycle that feeds itself.

I could go on, and this time, I think I will. He hates money too. He grew up in poverty, so perhaps that’s not all that surprising. I’ve had some bad times because of a lack of money, but that just made me want money, the solution to the suffering. Magick has also certainly helped relieve me of feelings of poverty and resentment. I probably don’t need to elaborate on this one too much to you, dear readers. His resentment of money distorts his thinking so that logic doesn’t work at all, in the slightest. I’m reasonably confident he believes that I deserve to live a middle-class lifestyle, and that’s probably only because he is receiving an education which basically guarantees that for him. Otherwise he’d believe I deserve to live in poverty. Envy is an ugly, ugly beast. I’ve tried, but have since discovered that there’s really nothing to say except “fuck off.”

Ohh don’t you worry dear readers, there’s more. This particular individual I met through another person, and there is also another individual in the social group. I met the first of these after summoning Apormanos with the request to encourage chance meetings that could lead to friendship. If you are familiar with this demon, you will know that the power ascribed to it is to encourage chance meetings that could lead to sexual and emotional attraction. All three of these are men (presumably), and all three have had their bi/gay/whatever awakening because of me. It would be more annoying if it weren’t kind of amusing, let’s be honest. But you’re non-binary so it’s technically not all the way gay! Yeah whatever you know what I mean, it’s pretty gay. Such is the nb lifestyle. It’s a pretty good time.

This person is also around the third whom I’ve tried out telling straight-up that I’m a psychopath (a reasonably well-adjusted psychopath, but a psychopath nonetheless). I’d say anti-social but no one knows what that means, but perhaps that would be better. I’ve been pretty open overall with this stuff and have made it clear to him that he needs to assert boundaries with me, even with me going out of my way to respect him despite the momentous gap between our power levels and levels of awareness (with respect to psychological, magickal things), which he has not because he lives in fear. It seems me attempting to lower the mask has only made him more afraid.

It is important to note here that the reason for this fear of his does not seem to be my genuine self, however. He is so caught-up and consumed by his own little world of fear and resentment that he doesn’t seem to have really heard anything I’ve ever said to him. The words enter his mind, but instead of being clearly considered, he immediately makes assumptions rooted in fear, ignorance, and stereotypes, mostly fear, and then acts off of those distorted assumptions. Not once has he asked me questions about myself, directly or indirectly (I could end the sentence right there) or sought clarity regarding anything I’ve talked to him about or attempted to come to a real mutual understanding. To put it simply, he just doesn’t give a shit. He’s so wrapped up in his toxic ball of negative emotion that he is incapable of doing that. All attempts of mine to change that have only resulted in him projecting his negative emotion onto me and him blaming me for his behavior instead of him taking a good, honest look at himself and considering how he may be sabotaging and poisoning his own mind and life because he is incapable of doing that. Unless he somehow finds magick, he is doomed to an eternal cycle of suffering of “his own creation.”

Like I said dear readers, good riddance.

It has been becoming increasingly and increasingly apparent to me that non-magickal people are generally to be avoided, or at the very least controlled with impunity. I absolutely do not encourage falling into fanaticism or arbitrary self-isolation, but without magick, it seems that people tend to live in negative emotion. Again I think I need more observations, but if this is true, then this is staggering. That would mean that most of humanity lives in weakness and mistakes it for pleasure. Is that what you want to be around?

Becoming
Protection - I stayed with my becoming.
Truth - I knew what I am to be.
Healing - My wounds couldn’t stop me.
Decay - Decay gave me wealth.

What exactly is the intended outcome of this ritual that you’re going for🤔

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Which one? The Ritual of the Neutron Star? Or the Enochian stuff?

I’ll assume you mean the RotNS. This is more of a “general purpose” ritual. At least how I’ve been using it, you don’t really seek any one specific result, but let it re-align your emotions and attract the abilities and things that benefit your life. It allows you to recognize and understand negative emotions so that you can minimize pain and maximize your pleasure and freedom.

I think of the ritual as a guiding light that keeps me on-track to my long-term goals and gradually expands the energy and opens up the life that I want. Maybe it will all explode in my face, but things have certainly gotten better for me. I don’t like to always blab about it too much because many people have not recognized the value in relieving themselves of their jealous resentment, but a long standing goal of mine was to achieve greater levels of financial freedom. There are pathways through life that can bring you freedoms that many people cannot accept as possible. I do enjoy the luxury that I live in, but I don’t like to speak too soon on these things, and in some significant ways I am not yet satisfied. I believe that this magick can make you realize what is possible and can guide you to where you need to go to attain what you want.

So essentially just a bringing to light some realization? Interesting

axo, underlie my perceptions.

I got that one before doing table 7, front side, by the way. It seems like a nice, safe word. Not the ritual aaa-xxx-ooo, but like eyy-ex-oh.

Before getting into some thoughts on Universal Magick, I’ll also say that I’ve been reading some of the old manuscripts, and I agree with the angels that 3 is a good number. Yes indeed I do have two arms, and so do they.

As a side note, I’ve been feeling like saying that if you haven’t worked with the book Wealth Magick, that’s a pretty good one. If all you do is ritual 2, the Omnipotence Transformation, that would still be worthwhile. I did the three weeks of “pre-work,” ritual 1, 2, and 3 in full, maybe all of 4, some of 5, and all of 6. I did a three-day ritual with 7 to manifest some cash, and I received about as much money all at once as I’d usually see in 2+ years. A few months later, I received all at once about as much as I would previously expect to receive in 4+ years. Then came a bit of a rough piece of time (turns out you have to pay for the war bonds somehow), but that ultimately led to me receiving about 12+ years worth of money. It may not seem like much for some if they were looking in at my situation, but I think it’s worth reflecting every so often and seeing how money has been increasing. So I did the magick far from perfectly, but oh my was it worth doing.

セクスマホウで英語の勉強をどうするって頼みも受けたそう。今考えている。「PLAY」というマホウのスタイルはちょっと難しい。今なら、English, Vocabulary, Grammar, Listening, Speaking, Reading, Writing, 上手, Fluent というマホウがいいと思う。「Learning」というマホウはもいい。話すのはかわいいな~

Ok so Universal Magick. What follows is the vibe I’ve been picking up.

The sigil/words can be divided into two sections - the first Godname and the Elders, and the second Godname and the angels/demons with their words of summoning. The first group symbolizes the heavenly realm, or perhaps you should say the astral plane, and the second the material, physical world.

When you speak the first Godname, you connect with Source or Universal Power at a deep level. The power is still differentiated and focused into a particular elemental form, Air Fire Earth or Water, but this is about as up there as it gets.

The Elders represent the major introduction of corruption to the heavenly realm. This is less than the corruption of the physical world, but it is a separation from perfect knowledge. The Elders bring wisdom by overseeing your workings from an astral perspective, beyond physical time and space. You may recall that I speak my request/magick phrase before and after each name or group of words, and that I only scan/speak the Elders twice. The first time through it is Me and You, the second time through You and Me.

The second Godname, which is the third section overall (there are five in total - Godname, Elders, Godname, Angel/Demon, Angel(s)/Demon), represents magickal power being active and manifest in the material world. The power and wisdom of the heavens is brought into the world through this name.

The angels and demons, in this magick, more-or-less just do what they’re told and are guided by the higher magickal powers and wisdom, as well as by your intentions. This does not mean that they are weak or lacking in capabilities, but that they are there to fulfill your requests.

Remember that ABCD lunacy? I think it’s good to not jump to conclusions with excess haste. Rectangles come in all sorts of shapes and sizes.

A quick note on the Loagaeth magick - the brownish color of the paper seems to symbolize that although the magick is tapping into heavenly powers, it is still being performed in the physical world, heavy in earth. Yes, I’ll be spending a good bit of time writing letters in boxes. It’s weird, but if that’s what I gotta do to get these results, then that is what I will do.

I suppose one more note actually. During the consolidation weeks, I have enjoyed summoning all three demonic powers. There’s a cool setup I’ve been using for different situations, often situations I’ve named in sex magick. I usually go Protection, Corruption, [angelic power], Decay, Prosperity, Fortune. I focus on the enemy’s defeat with Corruption and my triumph with Decay. These formations of rituals aren’t so much designed to improve the situation itself directly, but to remove, barriers, let’s say, and ensure that the situation has what it needs to be sustained.

Undertaking
Truth - I knew what I wanted to do.
Belonging - I had the people to do it.
Transformation - I did it.
Fortune - Greed gave me pleasure.

Boundary
Protection - I did the magick.
Creation - It worked.
Belonging - It worked on them, too.
Corruption - Corruption gave me wealth.

Imagination
Healing - I could imagine without pain.
Transformation - I could imagine with power.
Protection - My mind was my own.
Decay - Decay gave me control.

Collective
Belonging - The people around me uplifted me.
Protection - My relationships were good.
Creation - Through the collective I made manifestation.
Fortune - Greed gave me wealth.

Loagaeth magick. It is definitely doing things.

I don’t want to “spoil” the magick or anything, but I’ll share some of my experience, as I do. The magick has been bringing out my fears and addressing them. There is an energy about these tables that I have never quite felt before. I will admit that I have sensed a strange fascination growing, where I feel compelled to take out and look at the table, immersing myself in the letters. I’ll have you know that my handwriting has been getting better!

I mentioned before that I speak the associated words before and after each line. This has been when I felt the energy most strongly. Further into the table I was getting a sort of light-headed feeling, not like I was short on air, but the energy was subtle although intensely vibrating and radiant. It felt extremely dense, yet light.

Going through each line, I picked up some meanings I started associating with certain letter-combinations. Some were more consistent, some changed based on the context. At a certain point, I felt the urge to “pull back” from that and just vocalize (within my mind, not out loud) the letters without striving for meanings. Sometimes that’s all there was, the letters, and occasionally meanings would arise again. It is not yet clear if this will always be the experience of performing the magick of the Loagaeth tables, or if initial layers of fear are first cleared away before a different experience arises.

Among other things, the magick has presented me with the idea of letting go of the “shoulds” that spread throughout society. There are certain ways of being and patterns of living and behavior which are considered to be “socially acceptable” and which will not draw funny looks from people. This can be as mundane as whether or not you walk across the street on a red light to how you live your sex life.

I like to go on walks, and even when I go out at night, I usually encounter at least some cars, sometimes people milling about outside their buildings or whatever. Usually, it is annoying. I just want to walk around and muse to myself and enjoy the fresh air, but now I have to do something because someone else is there. This is sometimes true (sometimes), but the magick has been helping me to see that you can just fucking ignore them.

If you are in any way like me, you may also have cultivated the habit of intending to sense the emotions in other people, and to overall observe their behavior and sense their mind, probably for the purpose of socially interacting with them. You don’t have to always do that. I do it when I’m socializing, but if the random fucko who sees me walking right towards them gets out of their car right when I’m about to cross it and then I have to kinda scooch over on the sidewalk and walk right fucking next to them cause they couldn’t wait like 10 seconds, if they want to do that, I am under no obligation to look at them and present some cheeky smile and non-threatening body language cause it’s dark outside and I already sensed their fear. Like, really my dude? That’s what you’re going to do? I don’t want to look at you, I don’t want to adjust myself to make you more comfortable while you flounder around like an imbecile, I’m just out here wanting to have a magickal walk. There are people whom I most certainly do enjoy looking at, but with them, these things are not a problem because I don’t have to control them or put up some bullshit facade. With them I vibe. And also get fucked.

So basically the magick helps you not give a fuck. It’s amusing that magick which requires you to construct so many tables is so deconstructive.

Alright fine let’s add some numbers. There are 49 rows in each table. That makes 24 lines of letter-combinations and then one extra row. 2 + 4 = 6. It has been said that God made creation in 6 days, resting on the 7th. Personally I have two rest days cause I’m efficient. What’s 49 x 2, the total number of tables, front and back? 98. 9 + 8 = 17, the approximate length of this pathworking. That’s probably about as much number-adding as I’ll do.

Another random note - lots of ‘th’ in this one (in Enochian it would be right to left, but because here it is Englishified I do left to right ‘th’). If that’s a strange sound for you to pronounce, well did you think the language of magick would be normal? (not to imply that Enochian is the only valid magickal system or that it somehow precedes others - Enochian is quite something, but it’s not the only way to level up).

I kinda thought about some sex magick writing today but I gotta do my yoga so we’ll see. I don’t mind a bit of psychic exhibitionism and showing people what’s worked for me, but this is my public writing space.

Final note for today - Loagaeth magick (and the Keys and kinda Enochian in general) has been reminding me of the last time I was living that pseudo-monastic lifestyle, not too long after my time with Wealth Magick. I have been remembering that I am a more realized being than I always remember. I think it’s important to note that an intellectual understanding of concepts is not the same thing as a deeply rooted understanding of magick. I have only recently been able to put into words some of what I do with understanding and influencing human behavior because I learned these things starting from a young age, when I did not have knowledge of scientific psychological concepts, but knew things from my experience. To this day I will do or sense things which I know to be true or effective, but it can be difficult to fully explain what I’m doing because it is arising from a deeply intuitive understanding. It is like music. I’ve known people who can rattle off all these convoluted Italian words and read complicated piano sheet music and play along, and I’ve known people who don’t know a bass clef from a tremolo who can spontaneously improvise and actually create music, rather than playing someone else’s notes. Not to dig on the classical players too hard, but one of these people knows all these words and concepts about music, and the other is able to produce music. And so it is with magick.

Towards the end it was all raving madness and insanity. There was nothing we could do.

Of course, they were cursed by the spiral.