The Maddness of Dralukman- A Journal

Journals, Group Rituals & Free Readings
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It’s a mixture of a few different things. My grandmother helped to nurture their development by introducing me to spirituality early on through my family’s folk magic and offerings to nature spirits. She showed me how to be still in their presence and feel them.

As I got older, I started to meditate and use visualization techniques to build them (I do recommend blind evocation to help with this for example as it is similiar to what I used using objects and building to visualizing entire rooms, houses, and towns). Eventually, I started working with shamanic journeying to travel to different places in the astral to meet different spirits and it just build from there.

From what I have learned, the biggest obstacles people have is: 1) they try way too high and 2) they allow the more rational mind to interfere with the experience instead of waiting until after the ritual to analyze the experience.

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That’s like super classic every day issues i see in most newbies and their questions.

But true,
it’s the common roadblocks,
not just for them,
sometimes also for us.

Regardless of what skill level we assume to have,
we all run into it sometimes.

Sincerely,

¥’Berioth

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Very good point, I have killed meditation by trying to over analyze things in the past, mainly with Belial. He gets annoyed that I try to analyze his maddness

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yeah, well we all have those moments.

for example,
while the group ritual was in preparation,
and i charged the circle,
one of the people i channeled. (i think it was you),
started to possess me,
and went into town to go sight-seeing,
while possessing me.^^

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Yeah, it likely was. Deep desire for travel and seeing new places lol

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Hahaha,
we argued a lot about where to go,
and where not,
for example red light district.

i initially declined going there,
and in the end,
on the way back home still went through there quickly.^^

I don’t like going there currently,
since there’s tons of Lodge people around there (freemasons)

Mainly,
i was supprised how easily you had taken access over my body,
but i accepted your desire after we had a little discussion about it,
and decided on some safety terms for the possession state.

i recall you were a little impressed,
about some of the modifications of my body. xD

Sincerely,

¥’Berioth

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Oh, now that just sounds like me fucking with someone. I did something similiar when I was practicing possession when I was in college. Compelled someone to go to a local gay club who had a really bad case of social anxiety

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No, you didn’t fuck around with me,
you indeed remained respectful and understanding towards my restrictions,
mainly when i reminded that the actual main reason for your presence lies in the ritual,
not the side-seeing.

I just noticed some of your desires come through,
pretty intensely.

That’s why i adressed it.

-Plus,
during the Possession,
you actually called me out,
on being horny.^^

So,
if at all,
that joke is on me.^^

Sin,

¥’B

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Anyway,
i enjoyed working with you,
and even more,
that you responded with some feedback,
about the actual success of the rite.

Glad we did it.

Honor to OBeryon,
which helped all of us to make it work,
and aligne and combine the different strings of consciousness and energy,
during that rite.

Sincerely,

¥’Berioth

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I enjoyed working with you as well, and it was nice hearing about your end. It helps me out with my own development, as well as understand how I interact spiritually with others. Thank you again my friend and feel free to invite me to ritual in the future (as i will also return the favor to you as well).

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sure,
we’ll meet again.

In case you need anything,
you can always access me the normal way.
(evokation of my spirit form.)

Sincerely,

¥’Berioth

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Mediation with Naamah Day 7(ish)

I invoked Naamah as usual and during the mediation I was feeling pain where my astral body was pierced by a spear. Knowing I know pretty much nothing about healing beyond the physical body via herbs, first aid, certain spirits to call, and some medical training, I decided to ask Naamah if she had anything I could learn. The words “Itz Coozu Amorith” came to mind and I began to chant it. As I did, I saw the edges of the wound begin to close and fuse together, similiar to how a tree will if you duct tape the bark before it dies. As i went deeper, i felt a comforting weight as i allowed the healing into the astral body. By the end of it, my head was buzzing with energy but i felt great and at peace.

The imagery of three doors emerged before me and I heard Naamah tell me to pick one. I pointed to the one straight ahead of me, in the middle. she then said, when you are ready, that will be the tunnel for you to move on through. For now, continue connecting with this realm.

And then I was snapped back to reality. Still have the buzzing going on, but feeling good

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Sacrament of Blood-Naamah

This is a very private ritual of mine, as it involves the consumption of blood (my own) and possession. This is a ritual meant to promote internal alchemy as well as deepen a connection with the spirit one is working with. I strongly advise that anyone who tries this does this not only with a spirit they are familiar with as possession is involved but with the consent of the spirit. Treat this in the same fashion as sex basically as this is a union of energy between two beings in order to help promote change. I do not recommend this particular ritual for beginners as it is very risky for the obvious reasons. But I am not known for playing it safe when it comes to ascension.

You will need:
-A candle you dedicate to the spirit
-A sigil. (Optional. Naamah’s was carved onto the candle I used)
-A drink (Perferably homemade, but I used a monster irish coffee for this one as it was a treat I had and was something sweet to give)
-Means to draw blood (lancets preferred. I used my knife on my arm for this one as it was my means and I know how to use a knife safely)
-An enn or chant to help connect you with the spirit

Place the candle (and sigil) in front of you. Take a moment to reflect on godhood and as you breath slowly, feel yourself as the master of reality. Take as long as you need to in order to solidify this into your mind. When ready, state as you light the candle

“I, (your name or god name), open the gate of fire for (name of spirit) only. May all impostors and thoughtforms who invade my space be consumed by the flames. The Alpha and Omega has spoken, and so it is. Welcome, (name of spirit).”

Begin to chant to call the spirit. I used my mala and my standard “Invoca Naamah” for this on, 108 times. If your sight has being developed and you got consent of the spirit, you should see them emerge in front of you or nearby. When ready, state your own consent to the spirit coming within you, two merging into one being, visualizing the merging taking place.

As prior to usual, she came within the third recitation and I felt the energy flowing into the room. Surrendering to the presence, I kept going, giving her permission to enter my body, my mind, my heart, and my spirit, visualizing all of her being merge into my own. I have only done this with one other spirit (Belial) and I noticed that my posture changed during the merging. Instead of feeling the urge to kneel, I was compelled to raise my arms, as if I was commanding the world to bend to my will as a king. I felt her latch onto my spine and merge from behind, fusing our energy systems together into one. I willingly took a step back as far as control goes and felt an instant calmness wash over as I became the observer of the ritual.

It is difficult to stay focused on the task at this point and since you are allowing the spirit to have control while you watch from that point of the ritual, this is where having them on the same page is important. Give them the direction to draw blood and mix it with the drink, seeing the energy created from the union of you and the spirit infuse in the drink.

At this point, begin to separate yourself from the spirit, watching both of your energy systems separate and becoming two again (you do not lose ultimate control with a spirit unless you give it up completely). Ask them to separate in front of you as you present the drink. Looking at them say something along the lines of this:

“Naamah, Queen of Prophecy,
Bless the drink of our union,
This poisonous elixir of man and spirit.
Infuse it with the embodiment of Nehemoth
So I may become it and strengthen my sight.
So it is.”

Drink the beverage, watching the energy come into your body and begin to infuse with your essence, going into your blood, etc. Take a moment to feel the change and when you are ready, thank the spirit and dismiss as your usual method. Before you extinguish the candle, announce that you close the gate of fire. Blow it out, and leave the space to do something mundane.

This sounds complex but with practice can become a small daily ritual to help solidify your relationship with said spirit. Still am feeling calm, although with the slight headache and pressure in the center of my forehead.

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Litany of the Four Queens

Ave Reginae notis,
Amans Samael.

Naamah, Reginae Nigrum Terram,
incresbreso menus visus.

Agrat bat Mahlut, Reginae illūsiónis,
ducis meus pedes.

Eisheth Zenunim, Reginae vita et mortem,
incresbreso meus animo.

Lilith, reginae liberta,
incresbreso meus corde.

Reginae glóriae,
Effringo cavea,
Et sintis menus animo
Exululo in ventus.

"Hail, Queens of the Night,
Lovers of Samael.

Naamah, Queen of the Black Earth,
Strengthen my Sight.

Agrat bat Mahlut, Queen of Illusions,
Guide my feet.

Eisheth Zenunim, Queen of Life and Death,
Strengthen my mind.

Lilith, Queen of the freedom,
Strengthen my heart.

Glorious Queens,
Break open the Cage,
And allow my soul to howl into the winds

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Interesting dream

So, as the title suggests, I had an interesting dream last night. I walked through a forest at night and came across a giant spider web. The web was large and strong enough to hold a deer in its threads. As the animal struggled, a creature with the upper body of a woman and the lower body of a giant spider pounced onto the deer, biting it deep, paralyzing it.

She continued to feed while I watched. I believe a normal human reaction would be fear but I would be lying if I said I felt that way. If anything, I remember feeling fascinated. When she was done, she discarded the carcass and repaired the web, ignoring me. When she was done, she rested at one spot and begin to pluck the web threads like one would play a harp, filling the quiet air with sweet music. I remember thinking “The beauty and horror of nature” before waking up.

Not sure how this relates to my current workings. There are many cultures that describe half human, half spider deities, as well as spiders that can shift between one and the other. I will have to explore more on it later.

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Naamah mediation, Merging of Godself, and Sacrament of blood

I was recommended by @Morgana9 to try merging with my godself. I had put it on the back burner for a bit until I felt myself being pulled to do it this morning. But, me being me, I worried how this would affect my current pathworking, so I meditated on Naamah and called out to her with my standard chant. Her presence was more gradual this time, slowly building pressure from my chest and felt my lungs tighten in a way one does while running. Uncomfortable but not crippling, and I realized I was not as open as I usually am. So, once I allowed myself to give in, her presence overwhelmed the room and filled my being. I asked her if it would disrupted the working if I were to do this and her answer was to pull me into an area where I was standing in a circle made of stone in front of a triangle of manifestation made of stone as well. I heard a very strong “do it” from her.

Instinctfully, i stepped out of the circle, leaving behind my role as the magician and took my place in the left bottom corner of the triangle. Extending my hand i called my godself, who appeared as the usual cloaked old man with a staff at the top point very quickly, looking both annoyed and amused this time. I extend the other and evoked the shadow Belial showed as the essence of my soul, the one who crawled out of the pit I called the Prima Materia. He came immediately as a being made of black and violet flames, laughing maniacally.

Me: “We have been separated for far too long. If we are to survive, the pieces must become one once more. Do you consent to merging?”

Both nodded and we began to chant. This was less actually words but the sounds of the hidden songs of life. Of birth, of death, of war, of peace, of growth, of decay, of passion, of sorrow, everything. I saw us dissolve from physical forms into colored energy and begin to swirl and fuse, becoming a new being entirely. The form was still energetic, but I could see every color imaginable flowing ti create the form, constantly shifting. I opened the new eyes and the scenery turned to nothing but misty shadows. I reached my hand out and a throne of obsidian and marble emerged. I took a seat and waved my hand, revealing the universe to my gaze. I drew lines mapping the stars, weaving new stories of the rise and fall of societies, of wars and Joy’s, of growth of forests and their destruction. Sitting back to gaze at the work, feeling a crown of flames upon my brow.

The conscious me told me to return to my body, pulling the energy of this combined being into my flesh. I then performed the Sacrament of Blood I discussed with the intention of “I sacrifice myself to myself to cement the connection between (my name) the man and (my god name) the god. May the lines between the two blur until no difference remains”.

Words cannot describe how I am feeling right now. Definitely wired, certainly powerful, and a deep peace (as well as the lingering sensation of a crown of flames). There is much still to learn, so much still. But this was an awesome experience.

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Yes brother.
This start. Do all three of you then you’ll be able to remove and dissolve those chak.
After the the rest of you fully merged.
It’s so beyond words I can’t describe
…
Please keep going. Do it.
You have achieved great success and I am so proud of you.
Congratulations. Dark Blessings

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Naamah Mediation and Q&A

Called Naamah as usual. I have gotten used to her energy so while it is powerful and “lifts” me, it does not feel overwhelming. When I was a chanting, the sigil I provided below kept flashing in my mind. I ignored it until I was well merged in her presence and asked her various questions as below.

Me: hello Naamah, what was with that dream of the woman who was half spider?

Her: right to business again? I was showing you on of the denizens of Nehemoth who I think you should approach.

Me: Who is she? What can she teach me?

Her: Her name is Syhil and she can teach you how to better weave (I think she meant weaving magic), how to improve your bindings, slip out of them, avoid snares, and whatever else she thinks appropriate. I cannot give away her entire lesson plan now.

Me: -chuckles- okay, was the sigil flashing hers?

Her: Yes, but how to call her you will have to work to figure out.

Me: I was wondering were the catch was, but I will Naamah. What is with the increased desire for meat and urge to hunt?

Her: Your species were not always on top of the food chain. Once you were prey, but it was that fear that drove your species to invent and “conquer” nature. Your species went from being the herbivore prey for predators into the top predators themselves through your technology, which is no easy feat. But the fear remains and fills your need for more and more resources, which could lead to your extinction. You are facing the fear of being prey and the urge to be the top of the food chain at a very personal level. It is part of the shadow of your species, of your ancestors. Acknowledge it, accept it, and channel the primal power in your workings.

Me: wow, I though fear would cripple a working?

Her: Fear only cripples those who allow it. For others, fear is a driving force, much like anger. They prey who fights off is not free of the fear of death, but fights because of it. By understanding that you have had to fight to the top and that it can be taken away from you is a driving force to prevent it from repeating, if you do not allow it to blind and swallow you up. Otherwise, you are fulfilling your own prophecy of falling.

Me: Thank you Naamah, is there anything else I need to be doing on my pathworking?

Her: work more with your damn cards, they are getting dusty. And be open to any ritual ideas that come your way. Just do them, don’t question it. You’ll understand when our time is done.

Me: Thank you Naamah. What kind of offerings would you like?

Got an imagery of a bar of Cadbury Milk Chocolate, flowers and a candle. I agreed to it and said my goodbyes.

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No Tool Evocation-Reaching out to Syhil

I was laying in bed, somewhere in between being asleep and awake. I could not fully fall asleep so I decided to use this time to call out to the spirit Naamah instructed me to get in contact with. I visualized a cloud of mist in front of me, building it up until it looked like I could reach out and touch it. I began to chant “Invoca Syhil, regina arena”. It took some time to get there and I really had to push my will out to summon her but when I did, the first thing she did was put her face an inch before mine, allowing me to stare into her eyes.

I could feel the fear of being prey penetrate the core of my being, which caused her to smile. She kissed my forehead, causing a bit of pain and the numbing feeling of venom to enter my skull. She proceeded to bite various parts of my body, injecting her venom. She moved back to where she could observe me, allowing the venom to course through me. It is hard to describe it exactly, but I could see a golden vibrating light emerge from each bite, spreading until it ran through my body. Imagery of spider webs being woven and spread throughout my body kept showing up. Eventually, I could refocus outward. I asked her to show me what I need to about bindings. She did not speak but beckoned me to follow as she disappeared into the mist. I projected myself into the mist the same way I did into my black mirror with Belial, traveling to a meeting place.

I willed myself to hitch a right into her consciousness (a bit of payback for the biting, although got no resistance) and was observing her hunting a rabbit. She was shooting out threads to catch her prey but instead of directly firing at them, she would shoot them nearby in front of the rabbit, causing it to turn in the other direction. She would keep doing things, luring it to move directly in front of her where she was able to directly grab it and make the kill, feeding. The imagery faded and I was returned back to my consciousness.

Lesson: If the rabbit had jumped over the thread, it could’ve gotten away, but when things are terrified, they focus too much on what they fear instead of clear strategies on getting away from danger. This causes them to make bad mistakes that lead back to what they are trying to avoid. As far as binding goes, using indirect methods to distract your target may lead to a more effective results. As far as avoiding binding or entrapment, keep your head cool and trust your gut. A good lesson on fear.

Interesting experience.

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Incense of Naamah

2 parts sandalwood powder
2 parts Aloeswood powder
2 parts chamomile
1/6 part Vervain
1/4 part sweet myrrh
1/4 part frankincense
1/4 part dragon’s blood resin
4 drops lavender oil
4 drops bergamot oil

Combine together and leave in jar for a day out of sunlight to mingle. It is a very intoxicating sweet, with a mixture of sweet and bitter notes with a very cooling effect on the body.

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