9th July, 2021
Studied for a bit, then got distracted so I didn’t really do much. Mood is good. Went for a walk.
Did a tarot reading for myself, on what’s subconsciously blocking me.
Past- Ace of Cups in Reverse
Present- The Wheel of Fortune
Future- Two of Pentacles
More insight on the past card- Three of Swords in Reverse.
I’m on a mail list? of a tarot service. I get a weekly tarot reading in my inbox. I’ve been continuing with it since 2018(after graduating 10th grade), and it’s always been accurate. I used to get 3 of swords every other week in 11th grade! And a lot of Wands in 12th grade. After I was done with school I started getting Cups and now I’m finally getting a mix of suits.
Tried a guided meditation for working on Clair senses. It was written in the description (which I almost skipped) that it had Archangel Raziel’s help. I was really sleepy, and fell asleep in the middle of it. I woke up, took a 15 minute nap.
Then I played Lucifer’s meditation music. I was drowsy at first but then I found myself sitting on sand. Lucifer was sitting in front me (black wings, fiery golden eyes). We were both sitting inside a circle and there was fires burning on both sides (outside the circle). He also talked me through the senses.
His hands on my eyes, “You now see”
His hands on my ears, “You now hear”
His hands on mine, “You now feel”
His hands on my temple," You now know"
He got up and turned back, “You now understand”
He walked out of the circle, and I followed after him. We entered a castle, it was huge, with spires. There were torches outside it. I stood in the middle of a hall, and looked at the roof. The roof which I saw in my meditation yesterday, in black and white, was now above me in full color.
While I was observing the details, Lucifer went up to his throne. When I turned to look at him, I saw an extremely long flight of stairs. Then I heard,“Climb up”.
So I did.
I was not wary, I was not scared.
I went up the stairs till I was directly in front of him. A snake had coiled itself around him, and then it reached out to coil itself around me. Then the floor I was standing on gave in and I fell down into a tunnel thingy.
It was filled with water. I was too panicked because it was extremely dark and I couldn’t see anything. Then I remembered the snake, and felt it biting me. It felt more of a pinching sensation to “wake up” than it did of actual snake bite. I calmed down then, and gathered myself.
Then I saw a light approaching from my left, and Lucifer was there (very fucking quickly) and started attacking. I dodged in autopilot, because I had practiced the exact same moves with Michael. One had me grabbing his vambrace, and although Michael is much much stronger than me, he always stopped at that point. Lucifer did too.
I spoke out loud, that I trust him, that I trust Lucifer, that he won’t hurt me, and that I’m not scared of him. Verbally stating my complete faith in him, and that although my lessons might give me pain, I understand that it’s necessary.
Then I was out of the castle, I went back to the door and knocked. It didn’t open so I knocked louder and called for him. Then someone told me that he’s out for now, so I sat down to wait for him to come back.
I was very tired after that ngl. The meditation ended. It was very weird but something I’ll understand in the future, and occasionally reflect on.
I also got a UPG on the Christian God. I don’t know if I’m allowed to share it tho…
Sang the hymn for Michael, but kept getting interrupted.
The tarot book is over, the card interpretations are left. I have an overview, I’ll pick up the Qaballah book tomorrow.
Spent some time in the morning with Hades.
Will train with Michael now, and study.
Today’s dinner is aloo paratha😍 I hope everyone who reads this has a good day!
Edit: Michael suggests I use this while training open eyed, I have fun with it.
Yes it lights up.