I hope I’m doing this right? If I’m not please let me know, I’ll surely fix it.
I am gonna try and continue this…digital journal on this forum because I can hardly keep a physical one. Putting it here will help me be accountable and it’ll become a habit in the long run. I do struggle a lot with changing habits but change is absolutely necessary for me right now.
I feel heavy after 12pm, the kind of heaviness that makes your head feel heavy, a physical weight instead of just “being”. I’m at a crossroads at my career- I had one in mind but there are so many options now that I’m completely confused and lost.
It is hard to unlearn something that others have taught me, but to unlearn something I have taught myself is even harder.
Slowly but surely I’m working through what restricts me, it leaves me exhausted but I feel the progress I’m making. A little bit of clarity when everything is murky right now. So shadow work I guess, it’s all very overwhelming if I take on too much.
I also signed up for a writing event and there’s a check point deadline soon, it’s next week and the work count should be 12.5k by then, but I’m still stuck at 7.2k.
I do a reading for myself but it’s very confusing because I can’t bring different perspectives into it. Ah well, tomorrow is a new day and time to do new things. I should probably decide which career I want to go to tomorrow, and start studying for it too.
I hope everyone who’s reading this a good day.