My journal to talk about whatever

[Yberion]

@Maxwell

My abs are immensely firm compared to what they could tighten to before, as a guy who had absolutely no core strength before now.

It’s not easy to notice at first but I’ve been doing it for a few hours, and this is faster than exercise, and it’s much more pleasant

Draw Void from the Space between the planets and stars.

it’ll feed you, brother!!!

:void:

[Maxwell]

I’ve been doing that actually.

Let me get a ton

[Maxwell]

Wait so you mean draw it into the expansion or what

[Jack_of_Tridents]

After I read your sigil post, I was going to ask why you didn’t like Ronaldo but now I see why.

[Yberion]

@Maxwell

@Lady_Eva

the only problem I notice is that I almost see through the illusion of reality. I am Totally present, I plan on staying physical, but what should I know about this state to live in it better and alter it?

interesting.

please expand on the current effect / trance sensations.

[Yberion]

@Maxwell

That being said, I have begun work with Belial. I figure limits are what are keeping me from doing it at the rate I’d like. I’ll post tidbits of whatever is important daily. Belials gate is open in my room and he told me to take in some of the energy.

Belials Black Alchemy Experience!

After performing belials black alchemy. I could feel electricty inside and outside of the body. The speed at which the energy vibrated was fast. The feeling was like insanity but not. an unlimited number of thoughts; sounds, visions, energies and beings all happening at the same time. Embodied within my energy self, pouring over into the physical world into my flesh. I decided to take a shower. The water ran over my body as i vibrated the names of each of the spheres of the Qlippoth. To remem…

Devil Gene : The black alchemy of belial

I was wondering if anybody had any In-depth knowledge of this process. A deep understanding of it. What are some of the abilities and features of it? Are their different ways to achieve it? Is anybody working on it? What are the first steps towards achieving it? Does it lead to ascend?

Black Alchemy of Belial

Hi! Is this kind of black alchemy related to Adam Valentins black alchemy or is it something totally different? Has anyone tried it? Benefits?

https://forum.becomealivinggod.com/t/belial-path-working-black-alchemy/69536?u=yberion

Belial talked to me about the black alchemy

"the black alchemy is the art of spiritual metamorphosis, changing the ones self into a greater deegre, many called or magnum opus, some not, The alchemy has been forbidden and forgotten by many, It was feared by many, learning through this path you will know the secrets of transmutation and change, far better than the known ones, within my gate there is the great glorified infernal empire, the where I am a great king, I have armies of soliders if you wish I will show them, Starting with the …

[Maxwell]

God I’m so hungry after manipulating my body

[Maxwell]

111/111

Lol

[Maxwell]

I’m just passively working on the muscle thing

I’m realizing that it would not be very hard for a boy to seduce me right now.

[Maxwell]

I got my ass kicked at gym for one reason; they’re fucking HARD on you calves. Even the fucking marine boy fell on his ass because it was so tough, and he’s the most fit guy in the class.

So in other words, I need to immensely improve my calves, unless I want to bleed for my A in this class.

Also, I just had a weird success with telekinesis on accident. I guess It’s because I’ve been using physical improvement on my own flesh for a while.

[Maxwell]

No one cares, but I need to write this out. I can’t stop myself from hurting any more than I did. I’m done. I can’t boil down my feelings to be more simple. With as many negative patterns that I’ve destroyed, with all the times I’ve forgiven myself and corrected myself, for all of my healing, and ALL of my healing, even when I finally accept my forgiveness, even then, I still hurt when I see him, and I finally know why. It’s simple.

I’m in love with him.

and that’s really the only reason why. That’s sad, isn’t it? I can’t kill this feeling without killing my love for him. Because no matter how many times I heal, no matter how much I search within myself, I just hurt from love. That’s almost comforting. I am done. I can’t do anything else.

That’s not something I’m used to, it’s the nature of real love. Leaves you hurting, and it leaves you questioning. Leaves you stronger. I feel light and airy. But still, the truth remains; the only thing in my way is love, and that was always the goal.

What’s next?

[Maxwell]

@Maxwell

I am not motivated. I am just sort of waiting for my Knight of Cups, although I’m not sure that will work out.

Cringe

[Maxwell]

My calves are unproportionally powerful

my calves are the most worked on muscle in my body.

[Maxwell]

jesus fucking christ.

Okay core is next

[Maxwell]

Okay, nevermind, working on my cardio-vascular system for a few minutes.

Seriously, My leg barely can flex tough but my calves can flex like a god.

its like pudding consistency then stone

[Maxwell]

Literal proof of my work.

[Maxwell]

I’m just gonna write down a small list for my physical fitness goals in the order I Want to achieve them.

Cardio Vascular

Flexibility to a decent extent

Core/Much less belly fat (abs haha)

Probably some strength physically

Beauty magick

FUCK YEAH

[Maxwell]

i feel amazing. Did shadow work and feel my life moving faster than it has for years.

[Maxwell]

Fuck, that was short lived

Helloooo retrograde mercury

So I was able to literally make my mask smell like mirth incense. What the fuck

I don’t even have mirth in this house. Unfortunately it doesn’t really last for long. I wish it did

[Maxwell]

It’s happening. I feel like I’m going crazy

I think I can do weird things. I see everything. I see literally everything all of the time . If I become my true self for a moment, I can hear people’s heartbeats

I see their skeletons

What the fuck eva

@Lady_Eva