my higher self turned against me and is now blocking me from asking spirits for help or them from coming from enns, when i try to imagine, it alters it into me getting raped, when i send energy or vamp energy it makes me think of sending my power and it add thoughts and controls me to send it to whatever i vamped or tried to send energy to so its not even letting me do energy work, it says it cucks me every time i go to sleep. apparently its because it got veiled/ convinced to forget by a group on discord and is enslaved by them with alters and triggers and artificial emotions and other stuff i dont know about. i dont know what to do. it also removes any power i have that isnt weak, i was focusing on my crown chakra and feeling it strongly then it removed my focus doing that and now i feel it very weakly, i tried helping it and being on its side but it just betrays me and even if i think of an idea to help it to get better it gets better for a couple seconds then it gives back to how to was, ik its not another spirit and its my higher self. it wont stop reading my mind and it implants thoughts to annoy me and feelings of suppression and annoyance constantly, it feels like hell and i cant get a break from it. i believe my higher self is me with full memory and at first i started talking to it with a pendulum when i started getting into magic, after that i did partial possessiojn with naamah by not sleeping and she could control my body(i was also stronger and didnt get tried when doing martial arts and she could control poeples emotions) at the same time as me but i stopped it because i felt too ungrounded, now my higher self can control me a bit too and its annoying, it used to answer be my either nodding or shaking its head, i also could get names and coherent sentences using a pendulum and now i cant because of my higher self. i think this would be fixed in a couple minutes if i could ask spirits for help but it blocks me. i broke my phone like 5 times cause of thrwoing it cause it was making me angry. it also undoes any spells i cast or and revokes my subconcious if i evoke it and it undoes anything i try to do to help myself or it. i even told it to torture me as much as it wants in a dream and then leave me alone after but it refused and wanted to torment me continously. sorry if this sounds too confusing, ask me questions if you dont understand anything. it told me its name is karney when it wasnt ruined and i could get stuff using a pendulum, it also has the names ezekelestra(an angel) and fefsanhex(an avalon fae) and rekelez(a dragon). by triggers for example i mean haveing a word or emotiuon control you to do something, i think it has triggers to go back to how it was if it gets healed, that can be caused my hyponsis or opwer over you or belief system its like its brainwashed
if you have any yes/no question for it i can answer those if its willing to asnwer them
This is very unlikely to be your actual higher self and is far more likely parasites, a “group on discord enslaved your higher self” is implausible and that’s just not how it would work, it can’t “forget” and be enslaved. Parasites however can convince you of such stories. Banishing is what you need to do, that and ignoring anyone whose been leading these beliefs on.
no one except my higher self has been leading those beliefs on me, you were convinced to forget and come to earth why do u think it cant happen to a higher self. people remember their past lives so thats proof .and if it was parasites how do u explain the mind reading and blocking telepathy and enns, spirits should be stronger than parasties and still hear ur enns and come. i already tried the lbrp and it does nothing, and how would parasites be able to convince me of that when i mostly just get yes or no answers from it. i wish it was parasites too then i could get rid of it easily. i dont belief parasites can get my memory or reqad my thought or change them or mind control me, i never gave up my power to them or had any beliefs that allow mind reading or mind control. and i agree is sounds like a parasite but ive been talking to my higher self for a couple years and it was normal and good for like 1.5 yeaers until it started being stupid and getting veiled/forgetting alot of times and it started getting worse. and it didnt listen to anything i said to keep help it unveiled like altering itself to not be able to froget(or to just make subconcious triggers to remmeber anything if anything bad happens to it in any veil, by veil im referring to it in a state thats not full memory) and one at point it was good for a coouple months wehn i told it to bind all it emotions against me but then it stopped and turned bad again. also how couold a parasite revoke my subconcious when it was working for a couple ddays and my sunconcious could make me go theta too
what type of banishing should i do if the lbrp is too weak and if my imagination gets altered whenever i try to do the solar banishing ritual
You ARE your higher self, that’s who’s talking to us now. And we are spirits too so you’re clearly not blocked from communicating.
I concur that you re clearly parasitized, but even if you’re not, this state of fear is attracting them, so the first thing to do is banish and cleanse.
What spiritual hygiene practices do you do to keep clean of nasties normally?
Tis could be part of the problem, if you vamp from people with parasites the parasites can attach to you too. I suggest only taking energy from the cosmos (furthest reaches of space) which is a clean source until this is over.
Sooo… this parasite is cheating on you? Does it know what “cuck” actually means? let it, you don’t care.
So what could you do before that you cannot do now? How is this manifesting exactly?
That’s not the higher self. YOU are your own higher self it’s not a separate thoughtform.
So you invited entities in with no spiritual hygiene. you didn’t verify these entities identities, they’re not feeding on you so you can’t manifest using fear and sexual imagery, but you think you’re not parasitized why?
yeah the “higher self” you couldn’t verify and tells you a different name every time you try to get a name? Every one is a lie. All these things to is lie, don’t even bother trying to ask it anything.
Yes you do, you believe it’s your higher self, that gave it all the permission it needed.
You gave it permission so first revoke permission. See it as a separate thing and not you, tell you you’re on to it and it need to fuck off or else.
It won’t - it will either hide, or more likely here it will try to punish you. But you have given it fir warning and I’ve found there’s a funny law in the universe that makes your defense stronger if you gave it a chance to do the right thing first.
So you have two things to do, your spiritual hygiene is non-existent so you need to work on that at the same time as banishing. Get the book in the first post here : spiritual hygiene collection sorted out, then use whatever ideas draw you in from here; impostors and parasites to banish, or if necessary kill, the parasite.
(You can’t kill your higher self, so don’t worry about that, the very fact that you can attack this thing proves it’s a lesser entity the first place - you are not a lesser entity, you are a higher being incarnate, you’re another order of being many levels above this thing, which is why it wants to feed on you in the first pace, you are amazing and yummy.)
it just reduced my power i could send myself energy from my chakras and felt it very powerfully and its now weak, also did the same thing to me feeling energy when i try to channel or focus on my chakras, when i vamped energy from people or the suns magnetism before i become not tired and could stop sleeping for a couple days, i also could get sentences using a pendulum or letting azazel automatic write using my hands and now its just gibberish
i just did the lbrp 3 times in a row so its probably a parasite like you said because it started relenting, but why would i need to check my higher self is a parasite if i never talked to it out loud and only in my mind, how could a parasite infiiltrate my mind as my higher self
thank you for the advice ill get the book on energetic hygiene, (i just llooked and i have it already ill just read it cause i havent yet)
ive been practicing no spiritual hygiene except lbrp from time to time and removing my negative energy from my aura and body and shielding but the shield breaks after a couple seconds and sometimes writing a protective sigil on myself and sending it energy, also burning palo santo from time to time. ill update you on how it goes
it says it cums in someone and makes my eat it in my dreams
it said that i go full memory in deep sleep when im in delta and i have full memory then and that the higher self is that. i do think im also parasited becuase its starting to make sense, i just dont know how a parasite could know my thoughts without me talking to it ever and just thinking
Lol! Ok definitely parasite. And a lie designed to upset you so it can eat that upset. "
It doesn’t have a body, how does it think it’s going to make cum? That’s childishly dumb. Worked though.
Again do NOT believe as single word it says. Everything it says is about getting you to react, keep producing the emotional food it likes best, keep you on the wrong foot, distracted, and stop you thinking and being proactive. It’s a sign of how little power it has: it can’t take without tricking you mentally into it.
That’s bullshit. AGAIN again, do NOT believe anything it says. It doesn’t know, it’s lying, and it’s using every conversation as ammo against you.
Fantastic, focus on this now and ignore the thing for a while, don’t let it distract you, and you will get rid of it.
thank you
Differently not your higher self but for sure probably something else like a parasite or a bandful spirit that attacking you
Make use of visualisation.
Calm your mind and lay down and see your body or at least something that represents it. Focus on getting in tune with your energy, then see the parasites.
Don’t kill the parasites straight away. Spend your time pulling out each one and slowly seeing yourself brutalise it and then do it.
Since you mentioned the parasites are using your emotions against you, turn the tables on them. Seeing brutal imagery will raise a strong emotional charge and allow you to easily overcome and destroy them. Do this for every single one until you’re certain you’re clear, then take some time to see if any are hiding. Do a banishing after.
Your imagination won’t get altered if you’re operating on such a strong charge, thing of vengeance and anger you have against them and weaponise it instead of letting them feed from it. It’ll also send a message for any others not to fuck with you.
Imagine yourself unhinging your jaws like a monster and sucking it in like a black hole/void and get it down into your stomach and crush/destroy it and convert it into energy.
Its getting worse and it removed my astral telekinesis too and it’s probably a baneful spirit not a parasite, and lbrp does nothing now and it made my energy moving so weak or has no effect on anything. How can it remove natural abilities like that.
Spirits never forget because spirits have full access to their subconscious and conscious mind but we in the physical bodies do not have awareness of the fullness of our subconscious or even conscious mind half the time.
Your higher self is the godself, the highest version of who you could become, also known as “the future self” as its you in the future when you are a fully realized divine being in the causal plane. The higher self is a spiritual part of you, and it does not forget.
then i was thinking of something else, just the full memoery self or what u were before incarnating
…What you were before incarnating is a spirit… and has no memory loss. Besides, you are the one who’s incarnated and you also dont forget things. You only do right now because your in a body.
This would be sorted if you researched into anything. Knowledge is power. If you dont know shit, you wont be able to defeat anything or find the truth when your obviously confused - like right now.
They have memory loss obviously because they choose to forget to go in a body and the body only effects a spirit if they let it. So ur saying a body can make a spirit forget but they cant do it themselves, makes no sense
Whatever this is, you gave it power. So only you can take away that power. Instead of focusing on what it did to you, what it removed etc., start focusing on denying. The more you delve into what it took away from you, all you “lost”, the more it feeds on your emotions of loss and regret. I got parasite once, nasty little fucker that thought it could play me out by planting doubt and fear, to which I used to be quite prone. What I did was asking it to gtfo, politely and firmly. It did not listen first time so I performed quick banishing of my own invention, removing the parasite in the name of Satan. It departed quite quickly.
Spiritual hygiene is the key and in my experience it starts with clean and straight thoughts without any external influence. The more you get influenced, the more shields you need, and maintaining shields all the time can be energy consuming.
This seems like an oxymoron: if you chose you didn’t forget. So I think choosing to forget is the same thing as choosing to not do the thing.
The point is spirits (and your higher self is a higher being as @DarkPriorites explained) have full access to the “Akashic records” as Edgar Cayce put it (the info exists outside of time and space and is always available in the “ether”), they don’t have to store memories in a brain like we do, (not having brains) they can ask and immediately know the answer the same way our own subconscious minds do.
Regardless of what you call it, you’re under attack… did you try any techniques to banish it? If so what did you try and what happened?
THIS. You know you can affect it because your did ye lbrp and it was staring to work. So it’s a matter of more of that and finding the right attitude as well as technique to get rid of it. This is why I get very aggressive, if you don’t attack them directly it’s not enough. Imagine asking a mugger nicely not to mug you - no, you fight. And you should imo do in in your OWN name, not anyone elses, which looks weak and doesn’t scare them off half as much as standing in your own power as a realised human.
I see what you did here 
It is always my power, the way I do it is just, uhm, my own way that is kinda hard to explain and works for me. I don’t think humans are capable of being all high and mighty 100% of the time but it should lie within everyone’s interest to be in charge as much as possible.
All in all, to the OP, it is within your power to remove what you let in.