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Basically, I need to very strongly manipulate my own mother, and change her will on one important subject and change her attitude towards me back how it was when I was a kid.
Before anyone thinks badly of me for attempting such a thing - my mother is a HORRIBLE, selfish person. She is currently destroying both mine and my four year old child’s lives purely by her own selfishness and inability to act in the interests of absolutely anyone besides herself. However, she wasn’t always this way.
This has been going on for four years now. I had my dear son when I was 18, and I was so happy and embracing life as a mother. My son was thriving in my care, he was absolutely fine - but my mother decided that she loved my son so much that she wanted him for herself. She thus one day out ifcimpletely nowhere made up a load of total lies about me and got custody of my child.
I literally have PTSD to this day of seeing the cops come in and tell me what she’d said and that I had to leave the house and leave my son there with her. This has haunted me for all of these years and I am a broken young woman. The loss of my child, the loss of my home, the loss of my relationship with my parents as I knew it, and just the stinging betrayal of the whole thing. The INJUSTICE is what gets me more than anything.
If I had been being a bad or neglectful mother and made my child unsafe in any way I WOULD DESERVE IT. But I truly was not.
After 8 months of crying and praying on the floor and paying god knows how much money to practitioners for unsuccessful magical workings to get me back inside the house, I put everything in my heart and soul into a ritual from the necronomicon soellbook using the spirit Ziku and managed to get her to start letting me spend weekends back at home with my family. It happened in a horrible monkeys paw effect way, but I managed to get back in the house and that’s all that mattered.
Ever since then, she’s tried to get my weekends diminished and shortened and stopped several times (just because she wants it to be just her and my son in the house) but I always manage to work my way back in.
Until last year, I was so broken down by the whole situation, her kicking me out has led me in the last four years to homelessness, prostitution, living in squalor in a deep depression, eating disorders the worst things you can think of, problems I NEVER had before my life was ripped from me at the age of 18 - randomly on Christmas Eve she told me I can’t cone home for Christmas when that was all that was keeping me going for months. There had not even been any fight or anything she just decided she DIDNT want me there.
I spent the day childless and motherless and on the phone to a suicide hotline.
She hasn’t let me come home since and I haven’t seen my son in all this time. I’m physically nauseous of how much he’s growing without me. I can’t take it any longer.
The worst part of it is SHES NOT EVEN CARING FOR HIM PROPERLY AND IS INCAPABLE. He’s almost five years old and she’s got him still sleeping in a cot with a baby grow. He is mentally behind and sill not talking properly. She’s almost 60 and barely able to walk due to problems with her legs and since my dad and grandma died in the last two years she’s just ‘not able to have me coming anymore because of those two terrible losses’ LIKE SHES THE ONLY ONE THAT LOST THEM. Like MY child isn’t growing every day and needing his mother.
I am broken without my family.
The stupidest thing is that despite everything I still love her more than anything and all I want is to get back to live with both of them…: that is the best thing for me and my son but all she cares about is what she wants… she brings up any reason why it ‘cant’ happen, like stupid disagreements and arguments we’ve had YEARS AGO… just any excuse… but I don’t have time to wait for her to just get herself ready for it, it needs to happen NOW before my son gets any older
It would be unfair to take my son away from her completely after so long wth her st least not right away, so the best possible thing is for the three of us to live together, for me to just return home.
It won’t even be anything that will be bad for her.
All I need to do is make her want or allow me to be there again.
She never used to be like this. When I was a child she was a loving and attentive mother who would have died for me… right up to when I turned 18 and had my son.
I am a beautiful young woman and my son and my mum are my world… they’re all I want.’I just want to return home and get back to health, recover from all of this hell and be a good mum and good daughter… I’m completely destroyed until this happens… she says ‘you need to just stop wanting to be here and get your own life!’ Like she doesn’t understand that my son IS my life and it’s not just like, idk, like I’ve broken up with some boyfriend that I can’t get over ornsomething - there will NEVER come a day when I accept just FORGETTING my child, leaving him to grow up just five minutes down the road from me and just living as a single person like he doesn’t exist. He is mine and I will be destroyed always until I’m home to him… as soon as I’m home I can then work on thriving in so many other ways, it’s literally all I need or he’s going to have a shit childhood with someone who’s too old to take care of him, too incompetent to truly meet his needs and too selfish to accept she’s wrong and do what needs to be done.
I’ve been thinking of asking king paimon for help in this desperate situation… agh I just somehow need to have FULL CONTROL OVER HER just for a short amount of time to let me move back into the house… then even if it wears off once she realises it’s fine, that’s ok… has anyone used king paimon for anything like this before? Or is there another way that seems better?