I have quite a catching up to do, a lot of stuff has happened in really quick sucession I might add.
I repeated exercise 3 - 3 more times and on the third try I would say I passed and moved on the exercise 4, I repeated that exercise 2 times before I was ready for the inniation. I also came into contact with Belial once more, he’s been laying low in my life as of late and he had a few things to say and teach me inbetween exercise 3 and 4 but I’ll account for it nontheless. So here’s what happened, I’ll let you know I am as suprised as you will be after reading the end of this.
Exercise 3: so here’s what happened with this exercise faced south. This time however I decided to do things a little bit differently, I pulled down bright golden light from above and into my crown, you just imagine this as an orb or a ball of golden light washing over you as it radiates on your crown, you just let flow and cascade over your chakras and then pull energy from the ground. Which I did the energy was deeply red as I saw it internally being pulled through the soles of my feet and into my body and it transmuted from red the gold as it went beyond the root and sacral chakras and into the manipurah, this happened after the previous session without any fuss. From there I had to continue to pull red energy until it was properly energized and I could feel the chakra becoming both warm and invigorated and seemingly growing a bit in size and the as I described before the energy traveled from the chakras outwards and then around me in arch and renetering the chakra from the back, this couldn’t be seen but more felt, I gathered energy in that chakra until the energy naturally moved to the anahatah chakra the chakra actually behaved in the exact same way. This chakra is supposed to be green but to me it’s always a smokey color with some green energy in it, it’s weird. Anyways, after pulling more throug my feet pumping the anahatah chakra full the energy natrually rose to the vishuddah chakra and it energized the energy rapidly moved on to the third eye, which internally gave me a sense of euphoria, it wasn’t at all a blindig flash of light as of yet, once that was done I rolled the energy up into the Sahasrarah chakra and I kept the energy there before moving on with the exercise, As in grabbing the flame staff which I had placed at my right side with both hands and I held it against while giving the calling on page 53 as described before, I’d like to add: once you memorize it - say it with convivtion otherwise the calling will just be empty words with no power behind it, at least that’s my experience for sure.
After giving the calling I payed close attention to the sensations around me and to my suprise along with the sensation of the air thickening, I quite clearly saw white viscous liquid around me that more or less morphed into bright white flames, they burned in a circle around me and quickly closed in and burned ontop of my skin, the never hurt so far, it’s just the pressure around you gets really, really intense it’s really hard to breath normally as far I’ve been able to tell, once the flames was on my skin they also rose on the inside from my root chakra , all the way up to the crown, and I knew as it rushed up I could ride the wave and direct it into my arm. The staff gave off that strange white and orange light from the natural cracks in it iternally, in addition to that once the flames rushed through the top of it, the pressure made the staff lower a few centimeters as the flames rushed to the cealing burning brightly orange, I still wasn’t convinced despite seeing and feeling this. After trying this three more times I decided to come back a bit later day to try the exercise again, this is the part where Belial comes into the picture.
You see Belial is a spirit I’ve become somewhat close to. We have had our disagreements for sure but you need him and prove to him you are willing to work for something, he’s the best friend you’ll ever have from my experience. At any rate I somehow felt the need to call upon which was odd, the thought of his name woukdn’t leave me until I actually pulled out the universal circle and set it up along with his sigil in the altar. I also felt the need to bring the scrying mirror. At the mirror’s sides I put a silver and a black candle and litt them and proceeded to use Belial’s song to call upon him: itz Ra’cha Belial. Until he manifested in the room, the posession was rather violent it threw me to the floor and my muscles and neck tensed and bent uncomfortably to make way for Belial spiritual body. He then told me that had wanted me to do something that for nine days he wanted me to devote myself to him and he would give me his secrets of power but as an additional requirement he wanted to make a pact with him at the end of the nine day set of devotion. I’ll detail this tomorrow in a more clear fashion. After agreeing to doing this he said the innitaion was close at hand and all I needed was to reach out and take it and with that he left.
And so I moved on to lesson four. I repeated lesson 3 once more and long story short I finally nailed it, though the flames were no longer white they hada more orange/red hue as the burst forward from the staff. And my right that I held the flame staff in was pushed down an inch or two due to the spiritual pressure that left as the flames came through at the end of it. Hearing it rooar through the staff they exited into this world was truly fascinating, I truly felt powerful and it is a empowering experience to be sure.
Moving onto the exercise 4, I did exereicse tree times just be sure but I don’t know if it’s just me if you are able to pull off exercise 3 than this exercise should be much easier for you to perform than the last, the last one according requires more finer precision and direction of energy than this do. You’ll see;
Exercise 4: what you do is that you call flames into this plane from above and then you direct it back up, that’s really the gist of it, but I’ll relay more detail as I go along. Still having flame staff right beside of me, the book says you should the dagger, I say it really shouldn’t matter, according it worked anyway but if you want to use the dagger go right ahead. From there I felt the need to hold out the staff with both hands arms length from my chest, then you pull the flames from within, around and above you and direct them to the top of the dagger or the staff. The first round of projecing the energy into the staff went so and so for me on the first try, I could do it, I just didn’t feel that familar rushing of lukewarm energy into the staff that associate with flames along with the sound roaring flames. But at any rate after staff finally after severl rounds of peojecting energy into it it came alive, as in it felt like it corasing with intense power it felt like a warm beacon made out of energy. Now with that I visualized the flames (white for me) rising within me and projecting onto my skin and I raised the staff towards and said the word:
Alpha!
And I then lowered the staffslowly so that it (the tip) pointed inbetween my feet and said:
Omega!
Don’t be whimpy with this, it’s not aboud how loud or soft your voice is, it’s the intent and energy that you as the operator project through your words, which will in turn manifest outwards making you either succeed or fail, your words and intent matter, just saying. You may notice that it might be a bit difficult to pull the staff or the dagger down and point it towards the earth? Well this didn’t happen to me on the first round but after repeating this exercise a few times I noticed it to be sure, it’s like an invisible beam holding the tool in place, at any rate I digress. Once the words: “Omega!” had been spoken I took a few steps back with my eyes closed observing the pure beam of bright flaming light rushing into the floor before me, what I noticed that the beam radiates a energy that very wavy like onto my feet despite being two steps away I could a noticeble warmth from it, in addition to hearing crackling fire. This to me signaled that this ins’t just for show any longer, that I am actually have called something concrete it’s one thing hearing it’s something else when you can feel the heat of a flaming pillar of light from a few steps away. Anyways after pointing to the tip of the staff at the base of the flaming pillar, the flaming light crawled up onto the staff I called: Omega! and then began to raise the staff upwards directing the flames back where they came from. Interesting note when you raise the the pillar of flaming light above you, it can feel heavy like the beam ofpower is weighing down on the staff. On the first round I felt this but it was not super clear, on the second round it was there without a doubt. Once youhave rasied the staff or dagger above your head and are now directing the power upwards I called: Omega! Once more and flames wooshed upwards up into the sky into the clouds as the parted to make way for the flames. I should also tell that the spiritual pressure that is built when you call the flames in is rather immense, the beam of power at least from perspective felt pretty solidly, at least you are likely a thickning of air that is really tangible desite not having all that developed senses.
From here actually moved on to the innitation, now I’d like to say before accounting for it, despite it goes really fast for me, it doesn’t mean it won’t for you or will, it all depends on your development in general, but the “higher” I’ve gone the more I am ecpected to be able to pull off, and working receiving rhe fifth flame which I will account for tomorrow, it a hard ordeal because you’ve learned up until this point has to be second nature to you. I know I have felt the need to revisit some of the lessons but more on that later.
Normally I would’ve waited to the next day but that simply didn’t happen, I felt a need to do this, I couldn’t wait for some reason, which really isn’t like me. So what you do is , with rite performed you make a human cross by raising your arms to the side with the dagger or staff in your hand ( the book says dagger, I say you go with what works) and repeat an incantation going:
Itz mantantu vespacha kaltamu. Itz ranta man kala mant atzu belt tazu. Vaskalla itz ratzu kantantu velchaza!
This chant can be found in E.A’s mastering Evocation course among some of his other material, I’ve used it when I evoke entities, it works like a charm but that’s not the purpose here. It has a natrual rythm which you’ll likely hear or rather feel in your body, how it should be pronounced. It made my rock back and forth like I was sort of mad man, while standing. Also the chant began in a speaking voice but ended up being whispered, at first nothing really happened, I noticed like as if there was winds picking up in the room wight where I stood, the rocking became more violent and then a tunnel or a rather an energy vortex opened it was a small point that grew larger and the flames (white this time) came pouring through, the winds was what was noticeable to became so violent that they nearly pushed me over making my back arch making it difficult to stand it ended with me falling to he floor, the flames poured over me, it was felt like winds and power filled the room, I remenber feeling like I wanted to move but I simly lacked the strength to do so.
The flames wandered all over my skin, it washing me, felt close to a sense of being violently posessed, it was extremly uncomfortable, eventually the energy setteled and strands of white flames could be observed on chest, arms, legs. I remember I was in some sort of trance, and I would say silhouettes of people surrounding me, some had cloacks with covered faces but it was barely visible thorugh my minds eye, I believe these beings are either the sworn knights or barons. They congratulated me upon reciving the flame but informed that it may be easier to experience the innitations from now on but the lessons and trials will be much harder. They said a few more things whih releates to me personally regarding my habits which is not something I’ll post about here. But once that they had said what wanted me to hear they departed and my strength returned. And to my suprise I had fallen quite far away from the spot where the altar was. I was a suprised as you the reader might be, and I realize how it might sound like to the casual reader but I can guarantee that the experience was real enough for me.
With that I’ll update tomorrow and I wish you welll.
Teras390