This kind of talks are lives between me and some of Deities. Weāre simply let free our emotions, lust and desires when the time of these are comes. If we have other things to do, weāll put our focus on those. It is pretty simple.
But yes, your case is a ābitā different, so no doubt, it was really useful to you, and Iām glad you take this lesson @Lord_Aesza, lot respect for that
Months ago I tought that having sex with Deities is something that I have to resist against (because āOooh Theyāll use my body, my energies and theyāll mocking me after itā - by my ego 2k19), but Lucifer and Sitri taught/showed me that no, it isnāt, and Belial helped me in it as well. I got no interest towards humans, so it is absolutely nothing to me to āignoreā them for I already do it.
Of course, it isnāt means that Iāll have sex with every Deities, but because Iām doing it only my Those who are really near to me (and to my Godself), but in their case it is often; daily.
Yeah I dont resist the sex becauese āi dont want to have sex or theyll use my energiesā i resist it because i owe Lilith 2 hours of writing per night and if i fuck her ill be occupied for three hours then fall asleep hahaha. Also I find she brings me closer to her heart when I do the writing instead and then lay with her. Besides, shes my sister I shouldnt be fucking her all the time; I have to build a harem.
This is interesting Iāve actually met him face to face in person why idk still have no clue how since none has came to me since but well not like that anyway this was some hell of a bet lol but he does ask for it only if there is a personal interest in you so itās not a bad thing
Yes, you are right. After I lost and realized this whole situation and what I have to give Him, I didnāt feel myself like that Iām really ālostā something (āoh my god, Iāve lost al off my money, or my house/car, or I have to do something pathetic thing in publick because Iāve lost this bet etc.ā) - there is something beautiful in this bet to me at this point, and what Iām ready to give Him, it ājustā make our relationship more deep and close even here.
And after my offerings (red wine, my time) in the last two months, Iām glad that I can give Him something new, and I do it gladly.
Thank you, you are right.
I did some researches about His interested offerings and I didnāt found the menstrual blood between them. I feel myself so pleased now, and I canāt wait the day when I can give my offering to Him.
Today Iāve woke up because a big pain between my legs, and Abaddon forced me to masturbate. I mean, I know that who controlled my body, it wasnāt me. And damn itā¦ I was half asleep.
I forgot pulling out His sigil under my pillow, anyway. Maybe this was His ārevengeā because of my āOh I wonāt pull it out, it wonāt do anything.ā
Though I was very nervous about the offering by several reasons (for example if my insane period wonāt ācomeā), but I was wrong, how could I thought that He wonāt help me to fix (even) this kind of problem of mine? So it happened.
Iāve found as the most comfortable methods what @Traveller and @Narsonix adviced.
In those moments when Iāve put my blood on the glass, Iāve started to feel an extremely hot energy, twists and turns under my skin, inside my veins and organs. This was very intense, and Iāve noticed small tremblings coming from inside, affecting my body while Iāve did this.
After Iāve finished Iāve took the glass on my hands, to put it on my Altar.
Candles, incenses, His Sigils and now, my mestrual blood; what strangely I was able to taste in my own mouth after Iāve offered it. Iāve talked to my beloved Lucifer while I put the glass down to Him.
In the last weeks, He taught me lot of things, and He disclosed to me also, what Iāve always wanted to know, but He waited the time, so now I know that:
ā¦where did I came from. ā¦who was I. ā¦who am I. ā¦who We are.
Good on you for getting the answers you needed. I hope the knowledge you gained furthers your practice and leads you closer to the goals you seek to accomplish.
