This kind of talks are lives between me and some of Deities. We’re simply let free our emotions, lust and desires when the time of these are comes. If we have other things to do, we’ll put our focus on those. It is pretty simple.
But yes, your case is a “bit” different, so no doubt, it was really useful to you, and I’m glad you take this lesson @Lord_Aesza, lot respect for that
Months ago I tought that having sex with Deities is something that I have to resist against (because “Oooh They’ll use my body, my energies and they’ll mocking me after it” - by my ego 2k19), but Lucifer and Sitri taught/showed me that no, it isn’t, and Belial helped me in it as well. I got no interest towards humans, so it is absolutely nothing to me to “ignore” them for I already do it.
Of course, it isn’t means that I’ll have sex with every Deities, but because I’m doing it only my Those who are really near to me (and to my Godself), but in their case it is often; daily.
Yeah I dont resist the sex becauese “i dont want to have sex or theyll use my energies” i resist it because i owe Lilith 2 hours of writing per night and if i fuck her ill be occupied for three hours then fall asleep hahaha. Also I find she brings me closer to her heart when I do the writing instead and then lay with her. Besides, shes my sister I shouldnt be fucking her all the time; I have to build a harem.
This is interesting I’ve actually met him face to face in person why idk still have no clue how since none has came to me since but well not like that anyway this was some hell of a bet lol but he does ask for it only if there is a personal interest in you so it’s not a bad thing
Yes, you are right. After I lost and realized this whole situation and what I have to give Him, I didn’t feel myself like that I’m really “lost” something (“oh my god, I’ve lost al off my money, or my house/car, or I have to do something pathetic thing in publick because I’ve lost this bet etc.”) - there is something beautiful in this bet to me at this point, and what I’m ready to give Him, it “just” make our relationship more deep and close even here.
And after my offerings (red wine, my time) in the last two months, I’m glad that I can give Him something new, and I do it gladly.
Him asking for that is a special thing he is not so easily pleased so yeah it’s a good
Thank you, you are right.
I did some researches about His interested offerings and I didn’t found the menstrual blood between them. I feel myself so pleased now, and I can’t wait the day when I can give my offering to Him.
Imaging these are hard to you, you meant, Honey?
You have much to learn.
Today I’ve woke up because a big pain between my legs, and Abaddon forced me to masturbate. I mean, I know that who controlled my body, it wasn’t me. And damn it… I was half asleep.
I forgot pulling out His sigil under my pillow, anyway. Maybe this was His “revenge” because of my “Oh I won’t pull it out, it won’t do anything.”
Damn it Abaddon.
Oh my, who is the gentlemen dom that you work with?
Hey, Honey. You meant… Lucifer?
Oh…so lucifer is the gentlemen dom
Though I was very nervous about the offering by several reasons (for example if my insane period won’t “come”), but I was wrong, how could I thought that He won’t help me to fix (even) this kind of problem of mine? So it happened.
I’ve found as the most comfortable methods what @Traveller and @Narsonix adviced.
In those moments when I’ve put my blood on the glass, I’ve started to feel an extremely hot energy, twists and turns under my skin, inside my veins and organs. This was very intense, and I’ve noticed small tremblings coming from inside, affecting my body while I’ve did this.
After I’ve finished I’ve took the glass on my hands, to put it on my Altar.
Candles, incenses, His Sigils and now, my mestrual blood; what strangely I was able to taste in my own mouth after I’ve offered it. I’ve talked to my beloved Lucifer while I put the glass down to Him.
In the last weeks, He taught me lot of things, and He disclosed to me also, what I’ve always wanted to know, but He waited the time, so now I know that:
…where did I came from.
…who was I.
…who am I.
…who We are.
And the answers to those questions are…?
There are reasons why I don’t want to share these on the BALG. These are too touchy answers, and means a lot.
Good on you for getting the answers you needed. I hope the knowledge you gained furthers your practice and leads you closer to the goals you seek to accomplish.
Thank you, Dear. I hope so.
But why even mention them?
To show the connection she has with Lucifer most likely
You are right, @Mani. He is more “connected” to me than I’ve ever thought and…
But why even mention them?
…because this topic is still about Lucifer and me, so let me tell things what I willing to share in public; on my own thread.
I was only asking a question. No need to get defensive.