Hi, my name is…Rosso I guess. lol. I chose that name randomly because I couldnt come up with a magickal name. I’ve been a member of the forum for a couple years now and ninja reading for about 3.
I became semi-seriously interested in metaphysics around 2009 with my first intentional lucid dream ala robert bruce and my first experience of Heartbeat meditation from a book by…mantak chia, i think?
I became serious about arm chair practicing around 2017, ninja reading various forums and such, trying to find a way.
2019 I started with NAP through recommendations from another forum, had some pretty good success with maybe 4/6 workings. then I dove in with rufus opus’s modern angelic grimoire. and had some powerful(for me) experiences. I decided to forego the timings and hours and all that jazz because I knew if i didnt jump right in I’d go back to the arm chair. evoked 1 every night for 10 days. The experiences I had during these rituals solidified my belief and really changed my view of life. I worked on the bardon path for a bit, and the exercises in mouni sadhu’s concentration book. also constantinos’s summoning spirits book. which i ended up stopping because I dont know if the exercises were working or if my imagination and I didnt understand how to do the tattwa exercises.
I’m interested in basically anything magickal. except maybe things like wicca and really similar witchy stuff.
But I guess my major interests lie in daoism, kundalini, working with any sort of spirits/entities. anything I can use to improve myself or my situation. lucid dreaming, astral projection and how to do magickal workings during both would be really cool to learn. The idea of servitors is also a big interest.
my current goals are magickal and mental faculty improvement for studies and interacting with spirits.
I’d like to improve my discipline so i can stay on the path.
my memory and intelligence so i can get through CS and math courses, with an A preferably.
my astral/clair senses so I can see/hear or experience spirits.
my current struggles are staying consistent, overcoming analysis paralysis and the usual for newbies.
I’m hoping to really learn more about various paths so that maybe I can find one that suites me, or an accomplished mentor even. recently considering finding a patron to that end.