Hello everyone, I’m 26 years old and I live in France.
So I’ve been a Christian since I was born, all my family have always been Christians too, it’s been 2 or 3 years since I’ve been interested in goetia, I don’t know why, but it fascinates me. So at first (without being offensive) I thought like all Christians (demons are evil) but since I found this forum, I started to change my mind about demons based on several experiences/opinions of users here.
I’ve never practiced magic, never had (yet) any paranormal or other experience (no sense? no idea), except maybe for years I see a lot of mirror hours (but by period) that is to say that I can see a lot of it for at least 1 to 2 weeks after nothing and then it starts again (like 1 year later, 6 months later etc …), also since I read this forum I started seeing them again, not as frequently as before but I do see them.
We’ve always been going to say I’m someone who doesn’t trust myself, afraid of other people’s eyes what they think of me, yet without wanting to be pretentious or otherwise, I don’t have any complexes but just none self-confidence, which means that most of the time, I get stressed when I have to go out, whether it’s (alone or with my girlfriend), always for fear of what people think of me. When I apply for a job and they call me for an interview I stress, not for the interview but the fact of working I always ask myself questions (and if I’m not up to it? and if?) in short. All this problem of lack of confidence is ruining my life, I have already tried to work on myself to solve this problem but nothing worked, the only solution I had found was to drink which gave me + self-confidence, but the problem is that I could no longer do without it and suddenly it broke 2 of my ex relationships, + it rotted my health. So here I have the impression of being convinced that thanks to magic I could solve this problem, after I am a total beginner I do not know if it would be demon/angel or others could help me, in any case thanks to you I hope to have some good advice. Sorry for the pavement haha and for the bad English.