Hello everyone. My name is Kate. I’m based in South Texas in the USA, at least for now.
I somewhat resemble this picrew avatar, at least when I bother to get dressed up and look presentable.
I consider myself a polytheist pagan without a specific religious label. I study and am interested in demonolatry, but haven’t initiated into anything and don’t have an organized devotional practice. Eventually I will develop a framework that works for me, I’m sure.
I am a fairly new magician; I have a little over a year of experience with actual spellworking and about 4-5 years of study and contemplation prior to that about which magickal/religious direction to take. When I started I never would have guessed my spiritual journey would lead to the left hand path, but I am glad it did. I recently accepted King Belial as my patron demon and have begun working on improving my psychic development. I also have an interest in working with Santa Muerte, Ares, Moloch, Leviathan, Bune, and King Paimon (among others who begin to make themselves known to me!)
I have a strong attraction to demon magick, although I am interested in learning about lots of different techniques and traditions. Folk witchcraft and spirit pathworking tend to draw me in more on a personal level than chaos magick or highly technical ceremonial rituals, but I can see the value in every approach. I think it’s important to remain flexible in your practice and be willing to try new things. I enjoy reading and researching on this forum, some of you truly have a wealth of knowledge and I really appreciate your willingness to share it.
At the moment I do more chakra meditation and divination practice than anything glamorous, heh.
I think my ultimate goal is to simply grow as much as I can spiritually and transform into the highest version of myself. I value knowledge for its own sake. I believe that the pursuit of magic is deeply empowering in the most real, tangible way. I no longer feel lost and adrift, powerless in a vast indifferent universe. I don’t feel constrained and terrorized by fascist, totalitarian notions of the divine anymore. To practice black magic is to seek true freedom, which is equal parts intimidating and alluring. I have become more self-assured and compassionate towards myself than I ever was before, and Iove it.
My current struggles are with opening up my third eye and overall psychic development. I am not at all gifted in that regard, but I am willing to put in the necessary work to get to a place I’m happy with. I also want to become adept at astral projection, which has also proven to be quite difficult for me. While spectacular results haven’t manifested yet, I’ve at least made small but noticeable progress.
Thank you for reading, and I hope to be able to contribute more to this forum in the future.