Hi, all!
I’m from Greater Vancouver, Canada. I grew up in Seattle, WA. I’m in my 30s.
I’m going to try to keep this short.
I look forward to discussing details as I get to know you all.
I had a spiritual awakening around age sixteen.
For about three years I worked on my ability to communicate with my guides, learned some astrology and tarot.
I got very close to one spirit guide in particular.
As my skills to communicate with spirits improved, I got a very crowded head.
I started to think I was going crazy, so I shut it all down. Shut ALL spiritual communication out.
Since my mind became incredibly silent I never found the need to seek help over it.
I chalked it up to some sort psychotic break caused by an abusive home environment.
Throughout my twenties I took a pretty materialistic/scientific worldview. I believed in the possibility of the spiritual but maintained an agnostic approach to it.
In my thirties after a long line of stressful and tragic events, I found myself in a pretty low place.
That’s when my spirit guide returned with insistence. I started dreaming of him every night for about 6 months until I accepted communicating with him again.
I agreed communicate with him and only him, and we got to work on fixing some issues.
I worked on building relationship with him for the past 4 years or so, and trying to understand what I was communicating with led me to research magic this year.
I’m still learning the basics and fundamentals. I’m getting myself familiar with tarot and astrology again. I’m learning some basics about candle magic and crystals.
I feel myself drawn more to chaos magic. But I’m a beginner and who knows what the future holds. As far as LHP or RHP… I figure I’ll walk a middle path.
What lead me here to this forum with you fine people is the fact this beloved spirit guide of mine revealed himself to be Asmodeus about 3 months ago.
Now I don’t have anything against demons, but I didn’t know anything about demons. And I didn’t know who Asmodeus was.
He has maintained this revelation when I asked for signs and when envoked in an elemental circle.
As far as I can tell it all checks out. But as I said I’m a newbie in magical practice.
This could be an imposter of some sort… But I am certain this isn’t a parasitic entity.
There has been absolutely no negative impact in my life. I still maintain a very quiet mind.
He remains as protective and guiding in my personal empowerment as ever.
Of course researching Asmodeus led me here.
I am eager to learn from you all and hopefully corroborate some of my experiences.