I am from Los Angeles County. I am 46 years old.
The amount of stuff I have seen in the last few months is too much of an information overload to have any idea which way I want to go.
The first book I got was “72 angels of magic”. and reason I bought the book was to answer the question “What in the world do angels have to do with magic?” seriously didnt have a clue.
I watched a Koeetting vid where he was talking about an ancient covenant between humans and spirits. I got one of those books to find out what that covenant was, but didnt find the answer in that book.
The first time in my life to ever hear of Kliffoth or tree of life was Oct 2020 a few days before I was checking out the forum.
I purchased a book called Necromomicon more than 10 years ago. Completely worthless book. Nothing about actually doing any kind of work was in that book. Recently seeing people talking about how much they liked Necronomicon, I bought the book again. It has the same name but the book I got back then is not the same book. The book I just got has sigils and squares, gates, and 50 spirits to contact. That other book didnt have any sigils or even talked at all about contacting spirits.
So what do I want to learn? I think its too soon to pick something. Since Aug I have learned of the existence of so many forms of magic that I never heard of before in my life time. I have to do a google search when I am reading balg posts just to know what people are talking about.
I have done a few rituals from most of the books I have gotten. No results from any of them yet. The only thing that I can say is keeping it consistent. I havent called the same spirit to do two different things at the same time except for one. The rituals are strange, but easy to follow along if I write them down. but I dont feel the energy any more than if I was reading a novel outloud. Or maybe I should say I feel the energy of the ritual as about the same level of energy as praying to Iaoe, which is none.
I have figured out that I have a strong aversion to blood magic. I wouldn’t give blood to Belial or “the Boy” if they begged me. No surprise there. The smell of blood gets me upset stomache. same with the taste of meat that hasnt been cooked long enough to get rid of the blood.
Mixed feelings about necromancy. get to think about that. Just went to the cemetary for my mom’s first anniversary. Surrounded by thousands of people and nothing but silence. Big wall between me and them having a conversation.