Hello everyone,
I found this forum randomly as it popped up in almost every google search I’ve done regarding weird stuff that has happened to me or things that have sparked my curiosity. This is out of my comfort zone and I don’t do things like this soooo after a few weeks of lurking I’m joining the community. I grew up in a non-religious household and have never understood much about the occult or anything related to this forum, but at 26 I grew very attracted to the occult out of nowhere and now I desperately want to learn about the hidden side of our lives. I know as I got older I became very grounded in mundane life, I work in biotechnology, specifically in immunology and biochemistry which are very “human” involved. All of this occult stuff is very out of my realm of knowledge and what I do know is extremely limited. My goal for coming here is finding people who I can talk with about many unexplainable things I’ve experienced and maybe even guide my further growth. As a scientist I crave the feeling of discovering new knowledge so learning more about the occult will be extremely fulfilling for me.
As for my personal history on this matter, I only recently learned the name of something I’ve always been able to do, which is clairsentience. This has been apart of my every day life to a point where I am no longer skeptical of it and I don’t question it anymore. It comes in handy, but it is a pain in the ass at times. I know many of you know how annoying it is to just know something when you really have no business doing so. My biggest success of forcibly using clairsentience was when I was in 6th grade. We had to take placement exams for middle school and I absolutely did not study or practice anything for math. So I used the “weird computer in my brain” and made it do my multiple choice selection for me, I did not bother reading the questions. To this day I cannot say it was coincidence that I only had 2 wrong answers out of 50. I want to get back to this level. I have been practicing, but I shut down pretty much everything when I was an early teen. I would love to go in depth with any of my past experiences if anyone is curious. I have never been able to talk about this with anyone.
This brings me to why I found BALG. After some experiences and LOTS of questions, I have decided I want to see and hear entities the way many of the people in this community do. The “knowing” that something is there and what they are trying to say is very easy for me, but I do want to experience sight and sound. My only attempted experience with entities known as demons was when I was desperste and the interaction was very successful and the phenomenon happened very fast. The only interaction I got from this was immediately after I called to it, it manifested in a way that I knew it was there and my candle flame flickered very violently giving me an overall sense of “I’m here and what you want is done”. It felt like some very strong, orange space filled up the entire top half of my room like an inflated balloon reaching every corner of the ceiling. Very calm and supportive feeling… then it was gone and the air was as empty as before. What I asked seemed impossible, but it was done the next day. I would love to learn to see and hear these things so I can interact more. I was only able to interact by projecting the feeling of what I was asking, nothing verbal sadly.
I would also really love to find someone experienced willing to scan me or do some divination. Among many things I would love to know what has been guarding or following me for most of my life and I want to work with this more, but I don’t know where to begin and I don’t really know any of the culture or common knowledge to do this for myself and actually trust my own readings.
The only thing I can say for sure where I stand right now is that I am developing my clairsentience, but it is mostly developed for use in the mundane world. I am also very deep in embracing my shadow self and do not fear the dark or anything people call paranormal (maybe except fairies they really weird me out for no explainable reason).
Sorry if this was super long, these things make me feel awkward and I can’t draw the line between rambling and giving enough info. Don’t rip me apart I already feel crazy for writing this publically!
I can’t wait to interact with the members of this community, thank you if you took the time to read this!
Sara Nelufar