Here’s a secret I discovered: small incremental improvements will be better for you than all or nothing, poverty or millions,. “fat” (your term) or envied… they build up over time, like the slow steady lift of a plane taking off, compared to a rocket ship. And they’re far more attainable!
I know when you feel beaten down and like you have nothing, aiming high is incredibly appealing, but the improvements you can have are better than the fantasy awesomeness that keeps eluding you. Later on, things will become easier to change in large ways.
I’m an all or nothing thinker myself (or, used to be, until I realised it was fucking me up) so feel I can relate, if that makes sense?