Hi.Call me Niko
I haven’t really practiced practical magic for most of my life, although sometimes I’ve had magical abilities that I didn’t even know about. you can be skeptical about this, of course, in my deep childhood I had a dream of some kind of demon who told me about my new incarnation in this body.
I had this dream several times in a row. this is just an example. nevertheless, I almost never resorted to practical magic, there was one time when I managed to enter a trance to find out the truth, but for the most part I did not have any practical rituals and did not consider myself a magician.
When my darling left me for someone else, my true love became an obsession and a failed suicide attempt. I won’t go into details, but this person did very badly and continues to do so, but I still love her. in an attempt to get my beloved back, at first I got carried away with village magic, I can’t say that I achieved great results, on the contrary, the ritual went awry due to the fact that the name of the person she was with turned out to be fake, so the ritual designed to make her dislike him turned on me.
After that, that night I also had a dream that we were arguing with her. The next day, she became very indifferent and cold. this can partly be called the fact that the magic worked, but it would be better if it didn’t work. now I have found this wonderful forum. occultism attracts me much more and attracted me from the very beginning, even in village magic I tried to find rituals somehow related to the occult.
I’ve read DoM, AoW, and Magickal Attack from books. I can’t let this person go, and to be honest, it’s hard for me not to think about her for more than 15 min, even though it’s been months since we broke up. her boyfriend recently wrote to me with mocking taunts and threats. I don’t care about “free will” and “pure love” anymore, if anyone here has a desire to help and suggest something, please write in private messages, thank you