I’m a 60 year old gay white male. As I stated in my introduction message I was raised Catholic was pulled from Catholic church when I was a teen and found an online Church. At the same time I was discovering my sexuality and my fetishes. Over the next several years put myself through hell. Torn by Christianity and my sexuality. I often felt lost, isolated and scared. Several years ago on line preachers were going on about how gays were made by demons. So I started looking for who made me. At the same time I saw how people’s interpretation of the Bible over the centuries changed, and how they negotiated with the text of the bible. I found a scholar who basically proved my suspicions correct. So my faith in Christianity basically died. I found Sitri first then Asmodeus who seemed to “fit” better Lets just say my interactions are hit and miss. I’m here looking for direction. Real direction and not just someone who so a video game and has lust fanticies but life changing interactions.