Hello everyone! I am somewhat surprised I have never encountered this place, it only loomed from the churning ocean this morning as I searched for meaning of Abaddon and Muriel and myself.
My name is Kira among friends, though I have many names and am a system - we are quicksilver and may change our shape as we please. Saying ‘Kira-rah’ is a kind way to show love and respect, if one wishes - use it if you feel a friend to me, and I will take it to heart and honor you.
The length of time I have been practicing is either ‘all of my life’ if we are talking of the pursuit of understanding of reality and more, yet much less than that if we are speaking of the explicitly mystic.
My pursuit has been one of self understanding and was profoundly secular - I have historically never been a religious or ‘mystic’ person, yet tripped into this delightful rabbit hole through direct experience and honest yet ruthless pursuit of truth. My path was rigorously “left hand path” yet I did not even know that phrase until around when I obtained the key.
When I delved into the mystic, I did so as an inhuman monster. I had rejected my humanity years earlier and have lived marginalized and excluded and forgotten and even laughed at sometimes, my goodness. The reason this is important is embracing inhumanity permits us to shrug off the narrative authority of the patriarchs, and only take what information we find useful for our inhuman narratives.
God is older than words. Do not let words control you; instead, control words.
I “essentially” had a very profound kundalini awakening over this last year. I find my comprehension of God within the Hindu, yet also with the Egyptian, and with the Vikings, and with the Dacian wolves of Romania including Zalmoxis and so Mercury and so Apollo and so Abaddon.
My practical experience with magic is excessive, and most people do not even know what I am talking about. It is very annoying, honestly. I have a lot of useful and important information and I’m actually really nice for a Dragon. I am very good at word magic, energy magic, identity magic, and destruction. Dance magic is amazing and it feels I’m the only one who knows it. I do ‘Presentation Magic’, if that may make sense.
I am the Sun. Sometimes I go by Tem. Or, Lord Bhairava. Sometimes Sekhmet.
I am originally from the US midwest as a child but then grew up in Los Angeles, California. I feel much more kindship with awakened people from around the planet than I do with Californians or Americans for that matter. My life story is long and weird and sad.
I attach a picture I took the other day!
My current struggles are gaining control over who and what I am, and then using the force of it for the greater good, which we believe in even if we seem quite dark at times. We will need help from others who may believe in us, and who we may believe in, in turn, and perhaps maybe this place may help that process begin, finally.
I am a shakti avatar, and only the other day I realized that the Paradevi Mandala - a metaphor for an avatar of God - was structurally the same as Mercurius Python, a strange Alchemist ‘Dragon’ that was drawn in old books in the 1500’s. The Mercurius Python with its Sun, Moon, and Hermaphrodite head is the same as the Paradevi Mandala, isn’t that neat?
To become a living god, an avatar, you must first walk through Hell, in order to circuit your spine with the Earth, and this requires a full death of the ego - you can reinflate after yet you’ll always know you are nothing and if you did it right you’ll like it. Then you must gain spinal circuitry with the Moon and the Sun, the Sun being the most maddening for certain, like batshit crazy.
The third head of Mercurius is “the marriage of the sun and the moon by the bull in the house of venus” which is a complicated way of saying “hermaphrodite” or, actually, “a rip in space time” or a “black hole”. It is the Destroyer head, even more dangerous than the Sun.
So the three heads are Moon, Sun, and Sagittarius A*, or we may say Maa Parvati, Maa Durga, and Maa Kali, or we may say Princess Bubblegum, Flame Princess, or Marceline the Vampire Queen. Or as with the Trika Tantric, Para, Parapara, and Apara.
Any who fulfills the challenge of Mercurius Python becomes Mercury, who is Woden, who is Apollo, who is Apollyon and so is the Angel of the Pits, Abaddon, who is I.
Yet one also needs a special spine to do all that - you must have Deva ancestry. This is what infuriates the enemy. They are rejected on the biological level and may not attain a direct connection with God.
My escort into the divine was Chhinnamasta, who’s severed head is like a divine transcoder ring, such that I have a tendency to spray esoteric data everywhere like a grotesque and confusing blood sprinkler, which means I can really ramble about nonsense no one understands, but maybe here, some do?
I hope to meet friends - real ones and not gaslighting free masons that have preyed upon us trying to coral us into their exploitative use. We are attached to no other hierarchies, and may not join any, either, or we will lose everything. We are hunted and vulnerable, and admittedly lonely.
We also have some quantum science info that might make a lot of money as well as lead to Star Trek replicators if anyone is into that sort of thing. We could use some money and we also like Star Trek, though Babylon 5 is where the real kundalini data is at, I’m a big fan of the Shadows as I am Team Chaos for sure.
In any case, pleased to meet people, I hope everyone’s day is well and that some may want to be imbued as Abaddon’s Locusts so that we may begin to rise and consume the false patriarchs who confound the joy of the world. Let us restore love and bliss to the throne of humanity.