I’ll do my best not to keep this post too long but since what takes place is a sequence of events, I feel its important to describe each event in sufficient detail so you guys can get the full picture of what’s going on. Hopefully at the end of the story, the more experienced people here can help me understand what’s going on and/or share your own stories.
I’m sure most of you, like myself had had your share of strange experiences preceded with sleep paralysis. I know I have, these started happening roughly 4 years ago when I was 18. What I am about to describe has happened to me before in part or fully but I’ll only describe last night occurrence to keep things short. Plus, last night alone really encompasses this whole thing that keeps happening.
Yesterday was a pretty swell day for me. Mainly because I woke up with a full nights rest (which is not that often these days), feeling really good. Also managed to do couple of short 20min meditations and a yoga session which further enhanced my state.
Fast forward to 11:30PM
Did another 20min session and attempted to concentrate on Satan’s sigil afterwards. Called it quits on sigil meditation since my mind was still wandering too much. This sigil medtiation is something I’ve done 2 weeks ago for the first and last time. Several nights after that, I’ve been constantly woken up out of the blue at around 03:00AM. It’s just a POP - eyes open! This wake up is never unpleasant, apart from the initial drowsiness my energy levels stay steady and calm. However, after this its IMPOSSIBLE to go to sleep. The brain just goes nope, no sleep mate.
Finally about to fall asleep. Remember waking up shortly after with pain in between my temples inside of my head. The pain comes in short 2-3 second intervals and is preceded by a buzzing radio sound that picks up on volume as the pain is about to hit. The pain experienced is mild and the whole thing is done with in less than half a minute. Fall asleep again shortly
Hear loud chatter in my head. It’s talking about some arbitrary computer tech related stuff. Even though the things I’m hearing are arbitrary, the voice is eloquent and I’m tempted to continue listening. I’m not 100% sure but it might have sounded like my own voice since I had mistaken it for my own thoughts at first. The voice continues to ramble on but it picks up on speed on volume at which point I think to myself “Woah, slow the fuck down.” The voice continues for a couple more seconds before fading.
At this point I realize that I cannot move my body. Sleep paralysis ensued. A fear comes over me at this point and I’m too scared to open my eyes. Quickly, a pain in my root chakra/scrotum occurs. The pain is very unpleasant. I do my best to relax and envision a protective light around and inside my body. However, the pain is too much this time, I scream in fear and hatred through my mind as loud as I can. The paralysis is lifted and I’m left feeling drained and weak.
Guys, light healing is the extent of my magickal prowess and I need help with this thing. It can’t go on like this anymore, I just finished writing this after waking up since I can’t go back to sleep. Any guidance is more than welcome, and if anyone wants to take a closer look at this thing, please do.
This waking up feeling like shit thing has been happening for a very long time now. I believe Satan is shedding light on the issue by keeping me awake and aware of what goes on during the night. But in reality I’m not sure what the fuck to think anymore!